Day passed by and it's already Thursday again. I spent my day on nothing and I don't know why I become self-absorbed right now, zero mood in creatively thinking about my plan or even make a short term goal, I just not in the mood. My further test will begin in 3 days more where I supposed to cover 45 minutes classes, with the same sequence like last week, just with an addition to inversion and back bending sequences.

I consider to have a group study with my friend, so I can practice my sequence and have a better preparation. Well, I am even not making any sequence right now and what is on my mind about the next test I should find the connection from arm balance to inversion pose. What is on my mind that have the best possibility to link the pose from crane pose is going to tripod headstand but its too advanced for the basic class.

So what we have for arm balance that we could connect to the inversion? As long as I remember because I am too lazy to read on my text book which is on my home, we have crane pose, side plank, and lateral plane (this pose looks like bridge pose just without bend to the knee). This inversion would be leg to the wall, or the real pose, shoulder stand, and headstand.

I would like to give shoulder stand or leg to the wall so the transition from arm balance would be lateral plane as this is the counter pose of that inversion. And the shoulder stand is an easy gateway to do most of back bending pose, wheel pose and so on. That is what I could think right now and the pose might change depending on my improvisation during the test later.

So this is what I will be giving in the next 45 minutes test, hope I could finish it all on time because last time I was 8 minutes late.

Opening > Pranayama > Sun breathing > Surya Namaskar Series > 5 Standing poses > 3 Standing balance poses > 1 Arm Balance poses > ? Inversion pose > ? Back bend pose.

In 5 Standing pose, the best possibility is start by chair pose/ Utkattasana since this is the easiest pose to execute and help to reserve my energy for the next challenging pose, then I begin with W1, W2, Trikonasana, and end it with Parsvakonasana, do the different side then move to standing balance, starting from Tadasana, Tree pose, Padangustasana A, and finish it with Natarajasana, do the relaxation to the feet and do the different leg. Just to be careful on the mirror teaching on what leg should be lifted up.

Now we are move to arm balance, make a sequence to downward facing dog, make it a side plank (because I find it hard making a smooth transition with front lateral to inversion) and after that back to down dog and do the different side, in the end, finish this pose with down dog. Well, after I browse around 1 hour my search was wander to some random stuff and here I declare temporarily, I could not find any suitable transition to inversion.

My next plan is to talk to my friend and lets see if I could find an inspiration. For me it is not possible from any arm balance position given except from crane to tripod headstand. However that pose is not going to appear in basic yoga and the possibility is just you start from down dog and get into child pose. Since child pose is the reset pose, you could start again with all body on the mat then you could play with shoulder stand.

I am going to make the list for the material that I ever collected in one of my game so I will continue to talk about my life later and I will be having a yoga class today on 6 pm, hope I also could talk with my yoga teacher about this.

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Before graduated from this yoga teacher training, I need to pass 5 different test of leading a simulation class which requires mirror teaching and Asana alignment and today is the third test of it. The test comes in five phases which I already finish two of five, starting from the presentation of Sun Salutation Classic with two types of instruction, by breathing execution and the name of the pose in English or preferably in Sanskrit. On the last week, I need to perform 15 minutes class of the sequence from the opening to the Sun Salutation B. For today, I need to do all those 15 minutes with 3 different types of poses; 5 from standing pose, 3 from standing balance pose, and 1 from arm balance pose.

I have no preparation on this week, and I only had one time to perform Sun Salutation with my friend, even that is not really fluent at all. In the last night, I really want to study but my procrastination power win above my necessity and I did not touch the book, which I supposed to study for the test today. What more, I could not sleep yesterday and I only get 4 hours sleep which is inadequate to study in an intense training program which last for 10 hours consecutively.

I feel less energy today as I wake up, but I made a promise with my gym mate to go to the place with her so I need to stay in the decided place to wait her pick me up. Later we arrived on 7:20 and the class are not really crowded, there was around 5 to 6 persons in it. Because my body is too tired as yesterday I went to a yoga festival and take one class with some challenging poses afterward, I take a short nap. It was a nice sleep as I can feel the energy level a bit rising and I realized that I had not taken much breakfast but I don't want to eat it because we are going to warming up at 8 am.

The owner of this yoga teacher training is not coming in the morning because he has to attend the yoga festival conference which I went there yesterday so the lesson will be lead by his alumni. The class started on 8:05 and there was 2 persons which are not showed up in the morning, one were one hour late and he got punished for performing Sun Salutation series in front of all student in our batch. It was a good lesson for him though to memorize the sequence before we going through the test which begins after the lunch break. Later, our instructor said that this type of punishment is just to make us keep it professional after we graduated, that the member and the studio owner has put their time and money on it.

Later the instructor picked randomly three persons to try their skill and readiness to perform Sun Salutation. After it, there were 5 persons who have not finished with their 15 minutes test last week in standing poses, so they need to perform it to the class. There is a good feedback from the instructor, said that we had a quick improvement to speak up clearly and lead the class. He said that the most important thing to start your teaching is to move your heart, which is still filled with some nervousness and anxiety that you can lead the class confidently. Some of us show great improvement, and one of the students perform a Sun Salutation with full English instruction.

After all the warming up which takes 2 hours more, we are introduced with balance pose, separated by standing and arm type. These two will be used in our next 30 minutes presentation so everyone need to learn fast and implement it to their sequencing. Some pose which is considered harder for us were just eliminated from the book. My head got dizzy since I did not take much food and I went to the bathroom three times, I know I am not ready to present the 30 minutes but I need to do it in the next 2 hours.

Done with the sequencing in standing and arm balance pose, we are allowed to take a lunch break for one hour and a half. I ate my lunch box which is full of bread (my mom made 6 sandwiches can you imagine) and left two pieces then I went back to the class. I am not in the mood of study, my body need to take a rest so all the remaining time, which most of the student spent for preparing their exam, I spent it on my nap.

It was a beautiful sleep I ever take as my body are fully recharged now. I looked out to the material which we just studied and absorb it all, with my imagination of how I will perform it on the test and then while I was studying, the teacher comes up and divide us into five groups. Three group will be on the different room and the remaining two group with the founder. Well, at this time my luck shines because the person who will examine my test is my instructor in my local gym and all the member of the group is from my local gym, could you believe that.

The first class was lead by my friend, and from what I saw in last week, she shows significant improvement from the last test, as her voice goes stronger and she is more confident. Her performance was great and it makes me more nervous because I had not prepared anything. The second time lead by another class friend whose her husband is my friend brother. She owns her gym and she is certified with Les Mills program, she even had a several year of experience in teaching in the studio so her performance was magnificent.

Then comes to my turn, I open the class with a broken joke and all of them just smiling, turn me more nervous. However, after my test the teacher said that only in my performance, there was an option for the first timer in yoga class. My Sun Salutation went well as far, and I only made two mistakes; In the transition of Sun Salutation B, which I don't need to go to Urdva Hastasana then Uttkatasana but I could go from Utthanasana to Uttkatasana. Another mistake is I did not use the Hatha yoga method of Sun Salutation transition, which I eliminate the part of Tadasana and Samashiti. The teacher told me to reduce the confusion and to prepare my mind with the upcoming sequences.

For the standing pose, I carefully execute what I remembered and it went smooth, yet the problem comes from the standing balance, it was a short break of me getting confused on which feet I need to be grounded while other need to be in the position. My standing balance pose was Warrior 3, Half moon, and finish it with Dancer pose. The teacher told me to smoothen the transition from Half moon by bent my knee from the leg in the air, and slowly give an instruction to shift the hand from my hip to the toe. For my arm balance, the suggestion is just for the real pose, by stacking the feet, not crossed it altogether.

My execution was overtime. The expected time to finish the test was 30 minutes but what I spent it already 36 minutes. Later the teacher gave us the scorecard and the comment, so I compare the time that I took from the class opening to sun breathing took too long, which takes 14 minutes while some just need 8-10 minutes to do it. I went it overly detail so I sacrificed 4 minutes that is useful to be more on time. It was a lesson for me to begin the class and give a brief instruction.

It was raining heavily outside just after we done with the test, so some of the students prefer to stay inside. Well, my body was tired and I am pretty sure that I will get another muscle sore tomorrow so I am not spending more time there, I could spend it next week then I headed home. By the time of walking to my house, I saw my parents car coming up and they noticed me, then they asked if I want to have a dinner with them and I went up with them. Today my experience was good, as I could perform good, just for the lesson on the next week that I need to motivate myself to work on my 45 minutes test which is going on the next week. So, have a nice Sunday guys.

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Hi there and welcome back to my blog. I just came back from local yoga festival in the afternoon and spent the time until the sun goes down. Basically, my main purpose of going there is just for having fun, meet with my friend and only want to take one yoga class but because the time I went there, the class had started and you can see the class from the outside, so I don't need to pay the entrance.

I came there with my dad, and he is not busy so he could bring me up to the place. Before getting there, I expect the event is going to be big, such as the past yoga event I ever attended. My dad a bit confused with the direction and since he trusted his phone application too much, we went to the wrong direction but it is Saturday by the way, so there is less traffic.

My first impression of the event is crowded and full of yogic booth but when I stepped in through the side gate, there are fewer people, the stadium only filled with 20 to 30 persons and it only has three stands, and in the center, there are around 15 booths that are selling yoga product and green food.

I look around and the park seems more interested than the event, but I came here to learn about sports massage so I look around for my class, and surprisingly, it already started. The good thing is I could watch the class from the outside and since the instructor were using a microphone, I could hear his voice. It was good until the third pose my dad want to grab some foods and considering that he need to leave at three, I decided to accompany him to find the food.

He was planning to bring me to the place he ever eats before in the past, we walk down the road around 10 minutes and found out that the place had closed already. Later we decide to take any kind of food and the decision fall into a Vietnamese restaurant, we ordered one Pho soup with steamed spring roll. After taking some lunch, He went to his friend event and I continue to the festival.

I saw my gym friend was there taking the class I planned to take it and he was too kind, he gave me one free pass to take the evening class, said that he has enough with the yoga and he want to turn around and have a talk with his friend. The evening class which I took is about Sports Yoga and today his focus is to make everyone execute Utthanasana (standing forward bend) pose correctly.

Before the class start, he asked if any of us has a problem with their bone structure such as Scoliosis or Kifosis, and some of us admit that they never kiss their knee with their head, in more serious cases, some also suffer in Osteoarthritis too. The class focused on the lower body muscle group, the ankle, the knee, and the hips. The teacher said that we could possibly reach the forward bend by lengthening our spine through the stretch of the lower body.

The first pose is same with Surya Namaskar, with a modification of wider hips. Later some of the poses come to the modification of the teacher, for example, the original pose is a chair pose/ Utkattasana, comes in two variations, in heels up with the hand and body alignment such as Ardha Utthanasana and both heel down with a ball of feet up.

Some of the pose I already know what it affect to the muscle group and in a lower body, I experienced some of the Triangle pose (with modification of a ball of feet), the Beam pose (with modification of Ardha), all the pose you can imagine to lengthening the lower body. There is one new stuff I found in the exercise that can help a polio type of legs, by opening their leg facing to opposite direction (instead of standing with both legs heading to the front, this standing pose require left leg heading to the left and same thing with right leg). It was okay for a class although I learn almost nothing, it just feel like an exercise.

In the festival, I meet my friend who taking the same training with me, and she pursues her study in Pre-Natal yoga. We talked with our class and later she went to try a different class. After finished with my class, I decide to get some picture of the park before I went back home with my friend. In his car, we are not talking about the class but many things about his experience of talking to a girl in one of the class. He is interested in learning how to control our life energy and fortunately, the girl whom he talked ever studied in that field.

She learned from her teacher about chakra and the function of it. He shares many thoughts but when I asked him about her contact, unfortunately, he did not ask for it. In his car, we share our experience about the energy flow by helping from our fingers pointed to the forehead and visualize that the flow of breath comes in and get out from our sixth chakra, Ajna.

Later he dropped me near my house and I come back, preparing for my test tomorrow, which I need to present 30 minutes yoga exercise starting from the opening of the class to standing balance pose. Wish me luck for tomorrow and have a nice weekend.

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Hello again,

Today my day spent, as usual, wake up in the late morning, you know the plan of building a morning habit for thirty days did not work, finishing some stuff and I got a call from the tax department that I need to activate my electronic tax ID and register my tax. Nothing much happen in the evening, I just checking on my phone and chat with some of my friends.

In the night, I took two yoga classes, a power and a gentle lead by the same teacher. The first class is about arms balance so there is a lot of wrist mobility and arms strengthening before we went to the peak pose, a funky crane. At least I learn to prepare the pose with some tiger crawl and a lot of Vinyasa flow so later if I want to make up the class I know what to prepare.

The second class has no straight point since we just do some stretching. What a good thing happen today is I talked my life view with my dad, about my current view of the life, the acceptance of reality, and the reason why I should feel grateful. You know my mood has been a roller coaster since around one year ago, started with my cancellation of my plan to pursue my master degree.

It happens a year ago when I decide to refuse my ex-GF plan to study abroad and have a life there. Before I agreed with her decision, since I had no better plan after I graduate from my bachelor and it is a good thing to pursue a graduate degree to have a better foundation and skill in work. At that time, I need to wait for the university offering which took one-year preparation with my English test and GMAT (Graduate Management Assessment Test), a special test for those who pursue MBA degree. My mistake is I did not take any job at this time and you know what happen to someone who just graduated from his school and he need to study again for one year? Yes, my spirit gradually depleting and I began to questioning is this degree is worth it or not.

I wish at that time I take any kind of job-related to my degree, so at least if I did not make it or change of plan, I still have a year of experience working incorporation. Well, continue to the story, many studies without motivation bring me to frustration and at one point, I give up with this plan, we broke up and I don't know what to do with my life. I began to question myself if my study during 4 years spent in the university is worthwhile because I do not have a feeling of working in a company.

I contacted to some of my friends and feel that the friendship has changed, everyone is busy with their life and because of this condition, I need to move on. This time, everything is harder because I don't have the momentum of getting a job as common people who just graduated, most of them are supporting each other to land a job, share their interview experiences and so on. I don't have that moment.

This kind of situation lead me to engage with one and two years younger friend who still sitting on the bench, they still need to finish with their final year paper and I hang out with them. At the first time, I feel like a loser since I lose one step in my life but that is okay, one year is worthy but finding the right job is the most important. I began to have the same mindset as senior year, that is a hunger for getting an interview, and this story leads me to the job of my current company.

During the interview process, they asked me about what am I doing in a gap year, do I really hard to find a job or what and I honestly answer about my plan to study abroad but somehow I could not get the scholarship so I needed an experience first before I pursue a better degree. They are nice and accept me to their group, and at first, I work at their management trainee before finally they placed me in the finance division since they need someone to fill the position.

So, after I land a job, I move on with my life and plan to my next step? exactly! It comes to my idealistic mind that I need to own my apartment by myself and so on but I missing the point of my career progression. At first, I feel something new happen with my life but it only last for a short time, I got bored with morning wake up, commotion which takes 2 hours and another 2 hours of return, monotonic job, and sometimes I had much free time. I slowly began to hate my job but what can I do? I asked some of my friends who already work and they said this is the common thing to do as a worker so even if I move to another job, the routine would be quite same with my current job, and leaving the company for a short time is not good to be put on my CV.

At this point, I began to search my life purpose which is late since I already 23 at that time but I need to solve this once for all or I will get another dissatisfaction for getting into wrong job or decision. I take any kind of career test on the internet, consult with a psychologist, and spend time for myself to listen what is my purpose of life. This kind of situation really drag me down because I feel like stay in a wrong box, and the bad part is I began to view life as unfair, some know what they are doing during their childhood, they were gifted with such talent and surrounded by successful circle, something that I don't experience in my life.

My parent notices the different in my attitude and I slowly began to be more pessimistic. The bad part is I seek another medication by finding a girlfriend because at that time I feel that she can lead my life but who want to date someone who doesn't have a future in it? Even my friend introduced me to their friend, the negativity and the skeptical thinking about myself makes the girl think that I am not welcoming. I perceive that I am not good enough or the girl just want to get the benefits from me even it is not like that. This condition is such a vicious cycle, if I am not realized it faster, it can possibly drain my confidence anytime I meet a girl. Fortunately, I know how to break them, by being myself and let it go.

I know my parent is caring and always, but they lack understanding. They don't see my difficulties and their kind of solution is lame, they keep saying to be closer to God and He will help me with my problem. Well, there is some problem that I need to solve by myself, and nothing worse as the solution is just to pray. I believe that this problem, I need to solve it by myself, by searching to my deepest core of my heart, the answer is within me.

Later I wrote down the possible career I ever wanted to do in my life and imagine the process and do I really have what it takes to be successful there. I plan to divide my life by 40:30:30 in a day, as I spent 10 hours in working and 7 hours in sleeping, then I leave 7 hours to do what I love. I will work on this until I really know what is my calling, then I could shift my working time to pursue my dream career.

Well you know in reality, that I spent almost half day searching for my calling, even in the office when I was free, and my life is getting better again, I found my new direction and open my mind to the prospective career path. Everything has its time and I got suddenly tired with my searching as I don't see any bright point, so I do as what article says that you need to work on it to see it with your eyes.

So my plan to it is by trying my best to study the field before I really decide to change the path. My first path is being a Geologist, as I prefer to work outside and independently, able to work in an unusual location, exploring new things about earth and nature and far from the crowd. Later I spend my weekend in the local university library and pretend that I am their student so they could grant me an access to the book (you know this type of book is not sold outside). I learn the mechanism of the mining industry, the process of getting a license and how to estimate the cost, yeah I learn a lot but once I stepped on the obstacle that there is much theory and I hate to memorize, by the time I am easily bored, finally I decline to learn more.

The second thing I learn about photography, since I start my art field during my high school time working voluntarily as a multimedia division so I give a chance to work on it. I finished the manual book and understand the function of the camera just in one day. Next, I learn a lot about the theory of photography and this hobby last for half year, you know when I really into it, anytime I going somewhere alone and try to snap some picture with the new skill I just learned on the internet. The reason I stopped this is because there was a time I am bored with photography and leave my camera for a week, then it become two weeks and until now I rarely bring my camera again.

I also start a reselling business in many industries, from snack to cosmetic and none of them generate money. It happens because I hate to market the product and update the information of the product daily, not to mention that I need to handle a conversation with a customer with the same topic again and again. The marketing stage is very crucial when starting a business before it can generate the money and I already gave up, I could make a grand business plan but in the execution, I give up.

The third thing is about making a jewelry in Beading. There was a time that I saw a beaded gemstone matched perfectly to Yogi look. After many defeat in my entrepreneurial experience, I would give another chance to myself, to learn how to sew a bead and make a bracelet. I learned it from my friend and some technique from the internet. Later I seek the supplier of the bead stone and the thread. I made around ten varieties and when I show to my friend, not many of them are interested, they even bargain lower than its capital! I stay cool and some of it I could successfully sell so it could cover the expenses, the problem at this time is I don't have a channel to market the product and this type of business has limited demand of customer so I still accepting the request but I am not actively market it on the internet.

The fourth thing which just happens a month ago, I want to learn about web design since I had a passion for making a piece of art and I was confident enough with my logical skill. At the first time, the beginning was smooth, I attended a free class in nearest programming courses around my office and I think the feeling of passion will be developed gradually. I learn the basic function of HTML and when it comes to complicated option in CSS, my spirit of learning just went down. Later I am not touching anything and this new activity just dies as the past one.

Well, there is one thing that I keep doing it until now and I was surprised, as a person whom easily get bored like me could maintain the activity, which is my yoga class. I am still as one year ago, attend the class every day and keep awake with the information related to yoga. That is why I took the teacher training and hope it could deepen my practice and when I am ready, I could begin to teach yoga.

You know, I was really grateful because at least I know what to do when I am feeling low, or nothing I could be better, by practicing my yoga. I really thankful to my God and also myself to know about yoga. After taking the personality test again and again, and doing a research about my type, I began to understand why I never hit my dream career, because it never exists. Though of it, I still keep on learning to any field that brings my interest, and when I hit the bottom, I feel less frustrated since I take it as a normal thing. I have my own way to live and until now what I want to be is same with our legendary musician, John Lennon, who is an INFP too, to be happy.

In order to reach the happiness, my own way is to let go, to appreciate myself better and to be grateful for everything happens in my life and the happiness will flow by itself. In the next five-year, I have not any plan of it but one thing that I am sure about is that I am still happy and I learn more things which make me a better person. So, to closing this topic, and the answer to the title, is to let everything flow, by listen to our heart and trust our feeling. The best thing comes naturally. When there is a chance, just take it without thinking the possible risk, because everything is beautiful, when our eyes and heart are in a positive state.

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Last night I was talking about my findings during my absence in two weeks. I talked much about personality and today I will discuss it deeper here so it could help me figure out the next step I will probably choose the path and hopefully it could resolve all the confusion from the beginning. I also read carefully the precaution of my personality through MBTI to take the result with open-minded because there is no guarantee the personality fit all to one person.

Some will ask why do I trust the test so much and this is just a test? Well, since my young age I always curious with myself and never felt satisfy to the result since it may appear different. However, the closest accuracy ever I took the test to understand my personality is MBTI so I have much confidence to trust the result and looking for the better outcome of what this personality may offer.

I could spend a day to discuss why I felt this and that but right now I am going to summarize the most important point that I found during my research, which helps me walk in my path. So here we go:

There is some career INFP might consider as it fits with their principles, yet there is no perfect career ever for INFP.

This is the answer whom I seek for my whole life and before I was come in denial, finding the perfect job I could be and excel in it but after time of realization which is totally different to my perception, as I tend to look at the job on the good part and when it comes to a bigger picture after my research, I got discouraged by it difficulties and challenges. This happens because of my idealistic mind thinking that everything is good but in reality is different right?. What I have been doing within the last month is taking all the possibilities of what my career choices fit my 4 points which are passion, talent, personality, and mission. The result is considerably same with MBTI as they also do a research from the people like me.

In the result, some of the career I might consider fall in the art, health, intrapersonal and writing category. For those three of them, I consider art as the best possibility among four disregards of the factor that I am not talented enough to make a sellable piece of art and this might lead me to the way of starving artist, whose living in their dream with an inability of artistic talent. I consult this to my good friend and her word has opened my mind toward art. She said that there is two kind of people in the art industry, those who able to create a great art indistinctively and those who enjoy the art and has the sense of artistic. Both fall into the category of artistic people and I am the second type of artistic people.

So, how the way I know if I fall into the second type? Well, I am attracted to art product and collect many of artistic pictures on the internet, I could easily distinguish the type of color and rich of knowledge about art. One thing that I don't have is I am not interested in a creation of art product and if I give it a try, the result always far from what I think it should be. I even don't have the artistic talent to make a good sketch. Same thing with a person who enjoy singing but has a limited vocal range. In the end, I would say goodbye to my art career but I still keep enjoying the art to make my life colorful and updated.

About health category, I ever consider walking in the path of naturopathy, a medication without surgery. This fall to my decision to study further in Holistic Nutrition which healing with sort of good food, positive thinking and a right type of exercise. Hopefully, I could take this course later once I was financially enough to life by myself. In health category, I felt personal fulfillment if I could help someone in need and what is more rewarding is to watch that person grow or get back to live. This underline the same reason of why I am study about yoga teacher training that I love to tell the right thing to do and watch my friend growing physically in yoga exercise. Still it comes to a consideration too, that I have a limited amount of social energy to spend within a larger group of people so I learn to spend it wisely.

I ever consider to taking the healthcare type of job but it comes with some restrictions, this INFP could not work overtime since they have limited energy to spend around people while working while they are best people to work in an intrapersonal type of job so my career place would be in a small clinic or working at home. The reason of it maybe we are not into working politic and want to be recognized too without getting too standout. It sounds strange but that's we are. About this type of job, I feel more confident for no reason and I felt that I have the power to make someone life better in my own way.

In writing, well I will be short in this category since it just newfound of my hobby and I am not surprised if sometimes I take a break from it because all depends on my mood. The good thing is writing help to release my stress and help me to keep on track with my life. I began to write after attending a preparation university seminary during my time accompany my sister. One of the spokespeople recommends a journaling method to help me discover the ideal career. Oh yeah, it also increases my vocabulary and writing skills too so I recommend writing is for everyone.

When it comes to my career, I never consider that writing can take me to the enough level of income so it is okay to write but I am not thinking to write as my main career right now, maybe in the future if someone interested to my write. My idea in writing mostly comes spontaneously, what is popped in my head is what I write here so forgive me if some of the writing are going zig-zag to my main discussion.

In the end, the personality itself takes me back to get a perfect career as the job I seek is not there. Everything looks perfect if I see it on an idealistic view and I know it is not always right. I try to be more realistic for the upcoming year and let's see what my life will take me. The good point right now is always keeping the positive mind, even the life plan is still unknown, but at least I know what is good for me.

Another point of view to help us picking the good choice of career is to think of the opposite, by making up a huge list of the job we will never do it so later it could leave some of the jobs which we can work on it. For example about myself, I hate repetitive job as there is no meaning in doing it, a job where we face competition, politic, title, all that temporary sense of gratitude, work as a big group, under a supervision and easy job which can be replaced by robots. So if I could list down my type of job, it will be going like this:

Healthcare specialist (personal health care, therapeutical, psychology)

Health (nutritionist, dietitian)

Creativity (writing, photographer)

Educational worker (teacher, motivator)

Entrepreneur in Health/ Spiritual/ Sport industries

Non-profit worker (any kind of member that relates to above)

The list will go further but I learn to decide and this is what I left and I have no guarantee that all of them lead to satisfaction due to my idealistic mind so my plan is to try it all as it could help me stabilize my work-life balance.

As there is no perfect job, it does not mean to stop an INFP to be accepted in society. We just have a different approach on how we could make this world be a better place and make people more humane. Every kind of job will do as long it has a purpose. Because what we seek in this world is not about the temporary state of belonging (title, possess, certification, recognition) but the personal happiness that comes from humanity improvement and personal development from our work.

For example, working in a corporate world will not suit us because we have no point in making much money if it just for ourselves. Same point to a clerical job we need to deal with routine. That is why the result of INFP type of career fall in the category of working on purpose. Sadly, most of this type of job generate small money so we need to take the job that we are not really like it in order to keep doing what we love.

I divide two life path for INFP, and those have its own reward and consequences. The first path is to work in a stable job while in the free time doing what we love. The second path is to work on what we love regardless how low we are getting paid or how scarce the opportunity is. I already in the position of the first path right now and I will stay there as we were warned to be a bit realistic. The first position also enables me to do what I love in my free time (yoga) and I think that I could take it.

Some of us also surprisingly well in the field of diplomatic and author, and in a niche field they could be a personal figure of human history. Being INFP does not mean that we will not become anything, we just have our own way to work. In the long run, I will plan nothing and embrace the life, I always believe that there is a place for someone who is kind, helpful and positive minded type of person.

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Hello again long time no see,

I suddenly felt lazy to write my journal and that's why there is no update if I remembered it's been almost two weeks (10 days) I am not making any writing in this blog. Need not worry then, my creativity has fueled again! I will share my experiences about what I find, especially in my personality, how to deal with it and if nothing work, how to embrace it so enjoy my blog!

So where do I start? I have no update since the day before my first yoga teacher training in Pearl Bay sport's club and I think I would write about my training in the different section since this just made for a journal purpose. In these 10 days, I dig deep about what is my true personality since what I felt a year ago, the day I retake the test, show a different result from the previous one.

As what I found, the first time I took the test in my high school period, I got ENFP result and the factor of it is because I am easy to blend with new people and getting a new friend is not hard, the social factor makes me need to be friend with someone. I think that is the nearest assumption to say of why I got that result and back to my nature, I was quiet, even I can initiate a conversation, I tend to be a listener and drawback to the bigger group.

Another factor that makes me to scored an extrovert is also my inability to understand the test and write down the answer as I assumed so the result might bias in that time. How do I confident to say that I am not extrovert? well, I have studied about myself and learn that even I have a decent social skill to getting along with people, I have a very limited energy to spend. Usually after two to three deep conversation with a person, my quiet side come and draw me back from social life.

Many describe me as friendly and can get along with everyone, I admit it. I have an inner side that is caring and empathy. I can easily heartfelt to poor people and sometimes my tear is falling to touching story or movie. Because of this wonderful traits, I could see the inner beauty of people and sometimes feel what they feel. This helps me to make a smooth transition from getting a conversation with a stranger.

Later in the university, I got a beautiful moment with my foreign friends in my dormitory and we manage the relationship well. I even travel with them and that was one of the best moment I ever had, even all of us were foreign, we just connected to each other. Well sadly, some of us completed the study here and we need to be separate. Here I felt extremely sad because we will not see each other anymore but later I understand that in life, people come people go.

During this period, I am curious about my future career as some of my countrymate has known their life goal and what to pursue, while I just enjoying my time so I retake the test and got INFP as a result. The more mature I am, the more I spend time myself to think what I am going to be. I felt this result resonance to my life as the description relates to me. It is like thinking about someone that is you. The way I help junior is totally same from what it described there, as the way I pick a friend is depend on my emotion then I build an intense relation that shares the same weight as an old friend.

It was beautiful trait until the time I had a very bad time that I secluded myself to society. This time, I learn the best experience I ever had from my kind behavior that not everyone has the willingness to sacrifice as much as you. One friend whom I consider as a close friend is too dependable and emotionally demanding. I need to be with him every single time and most of the time he calls. My bad part is I always feel bad to reject someone offers so I almost accept every offering comes to me so anytime he calls, even I was not in my mood, I just agree with it. (but now I grow stronger, I could say a disapproval at least).

The friendship began so good because we share same hobbies but by the time goes by, he seems disrespect toward my choice and way of thinking, some of the jokes hurt my soul but I cannot say anything because I never reject someone. This kind of situation went worse gradually until the time I could not stand anymore, I make an independent approach. I shut down all the communication and leaving myself by going somewhere alone. I feel so much freedom during that time and try to think about my next plan.

I cut all the social necessity at class, I remain silent and ignoring people. Some of my friends start to feel irritated and I do not really care, as what I need is my personal space. Later I understand that I could not do that as I lose half of my friend in the university. Now, everytime they had a meeting, they just pretend as I do not exist.

During that time, I felt on the lowest point of my life, I almost graduated but I have no future plan, I lose my close friend the one I could learn about business and bunch of his friend. Seems my life is failed because I put it all to my friend. Now I need to stand alone, make my own decision, and working on something is harder without an accomplice.

In this time rather than consult to my friend about my feeling, I seek another way by searching it on the internet. This comes to my independence point as I don't want to bother someone as myself. The bad thing about an internet is the solution is there but what I need is a personal touch and during that time I need it, a lot.

Later I took the test again and the result changed to INTP. The result changed twice as first I got ENFP, then INFP. I stick to it and some of the time I retake the answer is INTP but if I dig down my true personality, I am not really like that. It described INTP as someone who love to debate and found it fun, not really care about relationship and perfectionist.

The more I study about the test, the more I understand about why sometimes I score INTP and rarely score INFP. It happens because my feeling is important to determine the Feeling or Thinking result. Whether I felt sad and draw myself from society, I score INTP. Whether after yoga class, having a good time with people, I score INFP. Later I study about a person who scores 50:50 in his third element (feeling-thinking) and there is no closest answer to it as I need to answer it with my heart. Do the results really resemble with my true personality? You know, sometimes the difference in thinking-feeling just 1-3%, never more than that. However, some psychologist said that there is no INXP.

Later I collect the data of a person who gets INFP and INTP and relates my life and the characteristic. The result back to what resonance with my heart, an INFP. I set my heart to it and accept everything bad or good in my personality. I blindfolded my counterpart personality as this time I am pretty sure that this is the right one. I began to the journey of to discover myself and the answer revealed one by one of why I like to give up quickly, or too emotional toward a relationship, or why until now I never found any suitable careers, or else.

I hope I could answer it all one by one but right now I am a bit sleepy so I will continue it tomorrow, I promise. I need to keep on track with my life too as this is important to keep myself on track so see you tomorrow.

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Today I have the opportunity to try Yin Yoga, my friend in the community whose a member in the different gym have a free one week trial. I was curious with Yin Yoga since I already heard the name and some friends who experienced it said it was meaningful practice makes me more curious to try this. I have asked for last month availability but due to our schedule, it was delayed and somehow forgotten. Right after I done with my teacher training on Sunday, suddenly she brought up the topic again and this time, we agreed to try it together on Tuesday.


After I read the confirmation of class schedule, which is start at 4:30, I rushed from my home to the place. It was one point of traffic, I got stuck for 5 minutes but I could make it on time. It is not to find the park too though but I still got 10 minutes left, then I called her. Later I was waiting for her since I could not go through, and later she show up and told me to put my stuff in the locker room first.


I am a bit confused with the locker room since they used the electronic card so I asked another member there and they were helpful. Done with locker stuff, she was waiting out there and we proceed together to enter the class. The class already begin 15 minutes ago and there is a sweet mellow flute instrument flowing through the class, all member were quiet and hold to one pose, which is fire log pose. I am familiar with this pose but this class is Yin Yoga, so we use zero force and let the body fall to gravity.


In Hatha class, we are supposed to prepare the pose with keep the spine straight, open chest, and arms reach to the farthest possible. The focus of this exercise is to relax the knee and unite the shoulder. Yin comes in a different method, the spine fall naturally, following the gravity works, the shoulder relax and falling to land, in this pose, Yin focused on glutes and knee joints. We are using a props (yoga block) to put our forehead and we hold the pose for 5 minutes.


The transition from one pose to another goes smoothly, starting with the lift up the neck, then slowly straighten the legs.

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My insomnia went worse, it's been two weeks I go to sleep at 3 am. Seems like my body clock has to get used to my sleep habit and even worse, my mind is in the peak performance during midnight. I start getting sleepy on 2 am and it takes around one hour to fall asleep. My parent is getting worried since some time they woke up around 2 and found me awake.


I know this is not good for my body since this is the time for restoration but sadly I could not help it, I know what makes me fall asleep faster however it is not possible right now. I share my room with my sister and I am sensitive to light, any source of light, even it just a small flickering light from phone notification may distract my process to fall asleep.


I remembered the time I could fall asleep fast during my time, study abroad, I have my own room and I could design it anything I want, so later once I had much money I would like to stay alone in my private room. Another stuff to mention about my kind of room is, I would like to have a huge glass window with curtain, so in the morning, I could get energized from the sunlight coming from the window.


Okay back to my daily, so yesterday I had finished with my HTML basic and I planned to start to learn CSS for today but it fail and I am not surprised, my mood of learning web design just got depleted today, but I am not sad and forcing myself, which may lead to uneffective time using and frustration so why I am not giving myself a day? My progress in web design is at the right pace, and I just wish to find a community of newbie web designer, so we can learn together and share the techniques or even a gathering, I wish that.


From this experience, I can learn how to develop my skill in my own way.  It seems that I have a similar interest in both yoga and web design, the time I devoted to working there is just much yet why my web design progress fail behind, just in one week? I am not joking here, you know how bad I am when learning some stuff, usually, I got instant motivation which only keeps me for a day. One week should be something different since I am very choosy on what subject I am going to learn.


My learning process come in this step, it should caught my interest to learn about it, and then I don't need to build my interest since it will attract naturally. Next, I will find any information relate and my day would be focused on the subject. In only one day, I already figured out the big picture and fantasize myself if I be expert on that field. This one should be important because from here I will decide if i want to proceed with the process of not. If yes, I make a plan to visit a library or google searching ton of article relate and then I build a plan (which 98% I never make it) and start passionately. Since I much focused on the first step, I could get burn out quickly.


If someone suggest me to break down the learning in small part, well I can't. Once my mind is heading in that direction, I will rush only to that direction, until the time of my energy empty. I am not surprised if I found myself work on half day to learn a thing. I have tried another learning style to break down your job but this one just went back fire since I have the very limited time of interest so before it expires, I should take as much as I can.


I study myself about my learning process and investigate the solution with different cases in the past since some subject I could learn continuously (yoga) and I figure out why. If I remember, not in one week I was passionate about yoga and there was a time I talked to a guy about some technique and he was so helpful to my pose progress. In about that week, later he introduced me to his community, which is filled with a person who was passionate about learning yoga. I felt such an acceptance in that group. All of them were friendly and do not hesitate to fix my posture problem. Acceptance is such a rare word in my dictionary and this experience makes my yoga journey beautiful.


In another month, I talk to the stranger beside my mat and our conversation went wonderful, later she introduces me to the best group I ever been, which I could devote myself to keep this group alive. Maybe I am a bit idealistic, nothing in this world will last forever but if I have the option to choose on which group I could stay for the rest of my life, then I would stick to this group.


This group consists around a dozen of an enthusiasticaly yogi, who have the heart to train and some are working on their teaching. One thing that makes me fit with this group is most of our conversation filled with such constructive and positive words. Any information shared freely and all of them, I know from their heart, would help if they are able to. I hope our togetherness could last long, I hope.


Back to the topic of my learning, this pleasant experience leads me to the secret of effective learning from a person who give up quickly. The keywords are; find a good community that can help you grow. Let others know your battle and always respect their opinion, they already spend their time and effort just to help you learn faster and avoiding mistake they ever made.


The rule has no exception, even you are independently strong, usually went single fighter in every problem, there is the time you need a helping hand to get you passing through. I could not imagine if I am not getting into the community, do I still actively learn yoga or not even I am passionate about it. The community keeps your knowledge deeper and opening your insight toward the related field, even when you are in the low season.


In the end of this post, I will write this for myself so once I forget the way to learn a thing, I could just read on this summary. You guys can implement it to your learning process too if you will. My learning process sounds differ since I am not gifted with persistence so I took a different approach to learning a thing.

1. Get you interested in. If not, just leave it. Don't waste time, time is precious.

2. Learn about it, find any information about it, get a big map about the process and imagine yourself doing and success in this field. Dream big!

3. Start as fast as you can, you don't know when your energy will last. Get stick to your first plan and if your body able, take two days plan in one day.

4. Your energy level should be diminished, don't let yourself fall because in about one or two days your study will be a history. Therefore, cut your study time because it not really works and you should be focusing on finding a good community.

5. Got your community and if you do not find the best one that is okay, at least, you have been in a place that has a people with the same interest. In this community, get in touch to other, I believe some of the member also have another group. Stay humble and always talk positive.

6. Once you get your community then somehow your learning journey would be less hard as you know where to find the answer and teaching other also good to retain your knowledge. Win-win solution!

7. I quite forget with this point and I am not talking about this. If you think you are enough with your work and it feels such a plateau, a state where you can't go further, find any event outside such as yoga festival and for web programming, hackathon. Go to any field-related convention, meet inspired people, find the different approach of learning from them, it just a same with your community, just a bit bigger.

8. Last, when you are in your low season, it is okay to stop for a while. Take a small look back on your progress and be proud of yourself. Acknowledge yourself, not every people can achieve this. Then it is better if you can promise yourself to help others. Remember, you were once are clueless in this field, make a good chain of assistance, make yourself memorable.

That is enough I think and I would like to thank myself because I just get the mood to write, although it was hard to start the first paragraph. Right now my yoga journey already on the eighth step and I feel this as the best method to learn in my pace, while my web design just stepped on the fourth step, hoping I could find a good community before it gone by the wind so
I hope my writing could be your inspiration and see you next time on my blog.

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I set my expectation low on the first training since I got such unprofessional manner from the person who will be our teacher. I felt that and my subjective judgement to him came from the last minute announcement of our training schedule that will last for a month and a half and some information were unclear, no specific description whether the food is included and the teaching module. On that day, I don't want to think much, I already paid for it already and hope for the best outcome from this training.

Some of you might be confused with my decision if the pre-experience you feel not alright then why I drop the decision on this teacher? Well, I have been done a research, to select the right course of my yoga teacher training and my judgement mostly based on the graduates teaching experience, I knew three of the graduates teach well in class and we also develop a friendship by sharing information about yoga and its technique. Two of them recommend me to take a teaching training to study deeper about yoga foundation of teaching and philosophy.

Later from that, another yoga teacher whom I met also recommend me to take teacher training at their previous place. I understand there are many yoga schools and thanks to them, it shorten my research time since qualitative data is harder to get. Later I do a background checking of the founder, stalking their information through social media and watch their words in it, to see if they really have a heart for teaching or just for generating money. Don't get me wrong, even in this health and green business, there is always a way to monetize it.

I am not saying monetize health based product or service is bad, but some people did it without consideration. Just imagine a greedy public religious image have a business and do politics, which is possible but far from what it called "enough". Well, what is that idealistic thinking by the way since the concept still alive but people abandoned it. Everyone need to eat and live up and that is their own choice but still, I just feel bad for a person who become a yoga teacher just for getting money, do they still care with the purpose of teaching? I don't know.

So we back to the discussion of why I choose this teacher. Well I have answered point number one, his personal background, what makes him a teacher, what is his teaching experience, how long he has been teaching yoga, how about his alumni, and if it possible, do they provide the teaching curriculum so we know what we will cover (some place kept the secret of their curriculum). Point number two, I also have talked on above, how he create a teacher from his teaching, do the student know the correct alignment, how to adjust correctly, how to survive and win in this industry? All of this information is important to keep a teacher updated and sustain to the new change.

Point number three, somehow I want to put this to point number one. The place, price, time, availability and limited seats per alumni. Yoga teacher training takes time so I don't want to take it out of my city, and it is not fun to have a huge debt in renting a place. Price not so important here, most training cost similarly same, but the price can be doubled up if the teacher is a foreigner. Since my work can be done in off-hour, time does not play a big part but some office worker considers this the most important decision point to decide their training. Availability also important, some training only opens twice a year and I don't want to lose my vibe and time just for waiting. In this point, I take serious consideration on seats, as I understand of how the class filled with 50 students and 15 students. It has huge differences in learning as more private is better.

Everyone should understand that there is no guaranteed job after teacher training, one should seek his own way to teach, either voluntarily teach in the local community, charity event, yoga studio, gym, doing a private class or open their own studio. There is the way to at least increase your credibility of your training certificate by choosing a programme which already registered globally under certified yoga certification standard. Some YTT does not provide with the international standard and this may bring a hard time for graduates find his first teaching job as their certification doesn't recognise. Even some gym (mega gym) asking for actual teaching experience or I called that voluntarily teach somewhere to have a teaching experience.

Point number five relate to the curriculum itself and if I could not find it on the internet, I will gather the information from the alumni. What is the curriculum will heavily on? Is it poses, alignment, theory, practice, or teaching? This is so important because what they learn makes them as their teaching character. I experienced not all teacher can teach correctly. I am not a hard fan's of alignment but bad alignment reducing the effectivity of training, even lead to injury. Some teacher is so detailed to one pose, can lead a class bored.  I even found a teacher training that has mantra practice and game with other participants, which I look down to it. The reason is simple, we are paid to learn not having fun. What important for me is after graduation, whether the graduate will be teaching or not, they are ready to teach.

In the end, there is some process to choose the right program and I felt my approach already enough to give me the best program, which enables me to be a good teacher afterwards. If it not, there is room to learn as the learning process never stop, finishing a teacher training program is just another step of learning and it doesn't mean my yoga journey is over, there is always a new thing to learn in this field.

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It's been a long time no writing since I began to learn how to make a website. Around 5 days I guess this blog has no presence to my new post. I really sorry and this is my bad since I was much focused on learning HTML, my interest to blogging has reduced much. Well, it takes a time to drive my will to write in this blog again since I should switch some time so I did not get burn-out by learning HTML.

I taking my first website design class off-line, by sign up my name to a free class in nearest to my house. It begins on Sunday morning, around 9am and I could not get enough sleep since I just slept on 4am on that day but my willingness to learn is undoubtedly good so I pushed myself to attend the class, also given the fact that it only last three hours.

My personal experience touching HTML is like a 5-year-old kid trying his first bicycle, full of curiosity. I met others participant, he was self-working as freelancer manager, taking up many web designer and programmer to work under his table yet he still want to learn about coding, bravo to him by the way!.  We began to create a folder naming by our own name and in it first we create a folder for sample picture, and then another folder for .html and .css type file.

We went to the first lesson, introducing of website interface and .html structure. It starts with <html> and end with </html>, I learned that "</>" is called a tag and there were around 200 tags in HTML as a component of a website. For today class, 70% of the topic will be focused on the HTML and the rest is about CSS. That two programs serve the foundation to make a simple website. HTML works as the structure while CSS works as the design.

I learn quite a lot for one day, how to write a title in head tags, the differences of coding language between HTML and CSS, the list which is unordered list that we use the combination with CSS to make the list horizontally, to insert image and link, the differences between margin and padding as they were similar in function, and at last the footer.

All the experience is a kickstart for me to learning the web stuff and since last three days I was busy with learning HTML from this website, I recommend this website as the information there given for free and great explanation from the experts. If I could break down what I learned for the day since I missing writing here, in my first day of learning I try getting myself used writing codes in HTML, the way I did it same as common people learning, by doing a rework of example and try to modify the property and value, see if it could work and I believe the best way to learn a thing is by doing it.

More specifically, by given an order this is what I learned already:


The structure of .html, separated by two basic elements, heading and body.

Writing a paragraph and a heading. Linking them with .css to modify the style.

What can be put in heading besides <title>, such as meta tags and "style-type".

The differences in writing on .html and .css, there were slight differences in definition "="
with ":" and "<>" with "{}".

The Block line element and Inline element differences, the dependency between them and how they affect.

The type of Block line element such as paragraph, heading, blockquote (q) and lists; and the type of Inline element such as bold/strong, em/italic, superscript/subscript, strikethrough(s/del), underline(u/ins).

How the list works and their variation; unorder, order, and the definition list. Also to change the property of list: I/i/a/1.

The concept of Selector, Property, and Value in Tags

Link the text or image to the image folder or specific target by using anchor tags and the knowledge of hypertext references in linking Value. Also, link the page to another page by using "#"

Basic table making, table, table row, table data.

Making a form using .html, form type: name, password, radio (with checked), square and submit. Also, make a comment box and selector with given option box.

The definition of <div> and <span> and how they simplify and clarify the works by doing div "id" or span "class" to form an internal link between page.

The meta tags function and how to use it properly (meta name, charset, and http-equiv).

I think that is enough for three days effective learning and in my spare time, I manage to collect the information about being a graphic designer since my true calling project in design will start in May. I read this article and I think that is enough for three days effective learning and in my spare time, I manage to collect the information about being a graphic designer since my true calling project in design will start in May. I read this article and believe to myself that I could finish this for half year.

Tomorrow is my big day, my first yoga teacher training will start in tomorrow so I should go to bed earlier for today. I hope I grow every day, and see you on my next post.

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