Day passed by and it's already Thursday again. I spent my day on nothing and I don't know why I become self-absorbed right now, zero mood in creatively thinking about my plan or even make a short term goal, I just not in the mood. My further test will begin in 3 days more where I supposed to cover 45 minutes classes, with the same sequence like last week, just with an addition to inversion and back bending sequences.

I consider to have a group study with my friend, so I can practice my sequence and have a better preparation. Well, I am even not making any sequence right now and what is on my mind about the next test I should find the connection from arm balance to inversion pose. What is on my mind that have the best possibility to link the pose from crane pose is going to tripod headstand but its too advanced for the basic class.

So what we have for arm balance that we could connect to the inversion? As long as I remember because I am too lazy to read on my text book which is on my home, we have crane pose, side plank, and lateral plane (this pose looks like bridge pose just without bend to the knee). This inversion would be leg to the wall, or the real pose, shoulder stand, and headstand.

I would like to give shoulder stand or leg to the wall so the transition from arm balance would be lateral plane as this is the counter pose of that inversion. And the shoulder stand is an easy gateway to do most of back bending pose, wheel pose and so on. That is what I could think right now and the pose might change depending on my improvisation during the test later.

So this is what I will be giving in the next 45 minutes test, hope I could finish it all on time because last time I was 8 minutes late.

Opening > Pranayama > Sun breathing > Surya Namaskar Series > 5 Standing poses > 3 Standing balance poses > 1 Arm Balance poses > ? Inversion pose > ? Back bend pose.

In 5 Standing pose, the best possibility is start by chair pose/ Utkattasana since this is the easiest pose to execute and help to reserve my energy for the next challenging pose, then I begin with W1, W2, Trikonasana, and end it with Parsvakonasana, do the different side then move to standing balance, starting from Tadasana, Tree pose, Padangustasana A, and finish it with Natarajasana, do the relaxation to the feet and do the different leg. Just to be careful on the mirror teaching on what leg should be lifted up.

Now we are move to arm balance, make a sequence to downward facing dog, make it a side plank (because I find it hard making a smooth transition with front lateral to inversion) and after that back to down dog and do the different side, in the end, finish this pose with down dog. Well, after I browse around 1 hour my search was wander to some random stuff and here I declare temporarily, I could not find any suitable transition to inversion.

My next plan is to talk to my friend and lets see if I could find an inspiration. For me it is not possible from any arm balance position given except from crane to tripod headstand. However that pose is not going to appear in basic yoga and the possibility is just you start from down dog and get into child pose. Since child pose is the reset pose, you could start again with all body on the mat then you could play with shoulder stand.

I am going to make the list for the material that I ever collected in one of my game so I will continue to talk about my life later and I will be having a yoga class today on 6 pm, hope I also could talk with my yoga teacher about this.

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Before graduated from this yoga teacher training, I need to pass 5 different test of leading a simulation class which requires mirror teaching and Asana alignment and today is the third test of it. The test comes in five phases which I already finish two of five, starting from the presentation of Sun Salutation Classic with two types of instruction, by breathing execution and the name of the pose in English or preferably in Sanskrit. On the last week, I need to perform 15 minutes class of the sequence from the opening to the Sun Salutation B. For today, I need to do all those 15 minutes with 3 different types of poses; 5 from standing pose, 3 from standing balance pose, and 1 from arm balance pose.

I have no preparation on this week, and I only had one time to perform Sun Salutation with my friend, even that is not really fluent at all. In the last night, I really want to study but my procrastination power win above my necessity and I did not touch the book, which I supposed to study for the test today. What more, I could not sleep yesterday and I only get 4 hours sleep which is inadequate to study in an intense training program which last for 10 hours consecutively.

I feel less energy today as I wake up, but I made a promise with my gym mate to go to the place with her so I need to stay in the decided place to wait her pick me up. Later we arrived on 7:20 and the class are not really crowded, there was around 5 to 6 persons in it. Because my body is too tired as yesterday I went to a yoga festival and take one class with some challenging poses afterward, I take a short nap. It was a nice sleep as I can feel the energy level a bit rising and I realized that I had not taken much breakfast but I don't want to eat it because we are going to warming up at 8 am.

The owner of this yoga teacher training is not coming in the morning because he has to attend the yoga festival conference which I went there yesterday so the lesson will be lead by his alumni. The class started on 8:05 and there was 2 persons which are not showed up in the morning, one were one hour late and he got punished for performing Sun Salutation series in front of all student in our batch. It was a good lesson for him though to memorize the sequence before we going through the test which begins after the lunch break. Later, our instructor said that this type of punishment is just to make us keep it professional after we graduated, that the member and the studio owner has put their time and money on it.

Later the instructor picked randomly three persons to try their skill and readiness to perform Sun Salutation. After it, there were 5 persons who have not finished with their 15 minutes test last week in standing poses, so they need to perform it to the class. There is a good feedback from the instructor, said that we had a quick improvement to speak up clearly and lead the class. He said that the most important thing to start your teaching is to move your heart, which is still filled with some nervousness and anxiety that you can lead the class confidently. Some of us show great improvement, and one of the students perform a Sun Salutation with full English instruction.

After all the warming up which takes 2 hours more, we are introduced with balance pose, separated by standing and arm type. These two will be used in our next 30 minutes presentation so everyone need to learn fast and implement it to their sequencing. Some pose which is considered harder for us were just eliminated from the book. My head got dizzy since I did not take much food and I went to the bathroom three times, I know I am not ready to present the 30 minutes but I need to do it in the next 2 hours.

Done with the sequencing in standing and arm balance pose, we are allowed to take a lunch break for one hour and a half. I ate my lunch box which is full of bread (my mom made 6 sandwiches can you imagine) and left two pieces then I went back to the class. I am not in the mood of study, my body need to take a rest so all the remaining time, which most of the student spent for preparing their exam, I spent it on my nap.

It was a beautiful sleep I ever take as my body are fully recharged now. I looked out to the material which we just studied and absorb it all, with my imagination of how I will perform it on the test and then while I was studying, the teacher comes up and divide us into five groups. Three group will be on the different room and the remaining two group with the founder. Well, at this time my luck shines because the person who will examine my test is my instructor in my local gym and all the member of the group is from my local gym, could you believe that.

The first class was lead by my friend, and from what I saw in last week, she shows significant improvement from the last test, as her voice goes stronger and she is more confident. Her performance was great and it makes me more nervous because I had not prepared anything. The second time lead by another class friend whose her husband is my friend brother. She owns her gym and she is certified with Les Mills program, she even had a several year of experience in teaching in the studio so her performance was magnificent.

Then comes to my turn, I open the class with a broken joke and all of them just smiling, turn me more nervous. However, after my test the teacher said that only in my performance, there was an option for the first timer in yoga class. My Sun Salutation went well as far, and I only made two mistakes; In the transition of Sun Salutation B, which I don't need to go to Urdva Hastasana then Uttkatasana but I could go from Utthanasana to Uttkatasana. Another mistake is I did not use the Hatha yoga method of Sun Salutation transition, which I eliminate the part of Tadasana and Samashiti. The teacher told me to reduce the confusion and to prepare my mind with the upcoming sequences.

For the standing pose, I carefully execute what I remembered and it went smooth, yet the problem comes from the standing balance, it was a short break of me getting confused on which feet I need to be grounded while other need to be in the position. My standing balance pose was Warrior 3, Half moon, and finish it with Dancer pose. The teacher told me to smoothen the transition from Half moon by bent my knee from the leg in the air, and slowly give an instruction to shift the hand from my hip to the toe. For my arm balance, the suggestion is just for the real pose, by stacking the feet, not crossed it altogether.

My execution was overtime. The expected time to finish the test was 30 minutes but what I spent it already 36 minutes. Later the teacher gave us the scorecard and the comment, so I compare the time that I took from the class opening to sun breathing took too long, which takes 14 minutes while some just need 8-10 minutes to do it. I went it overly detail so I sacrificed 4 minutes that is useful to be more on time. It was a lesson for me to begin the class and give a brief instruction.

It was raining heavily outside just after we done with the test, so some of the students prefer to stay inside. Well, my body was tired and I am pretty sure that I will get another muscle sore tomorrow so I am not spending more time there, I could spend it next week then I headed home. By the time of walking to my house, I saw my parents car coming up and they noticed me, then they asked if I want to have a dinner with them and I went up with them. Today my experience was good, as I could perform good, just for the lesson on the next week that I need to motivate myself to work on my 45 minutes test which is going on the next week. So, have a nice Sunday guys.

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Hi there and welcome back to my blog. I just came back from local yoga festival in the afternoon and spent the time until the sun goes down. Basically, my main purpose of going there is just for having fun, meet with my friend and only want to take one yoga class but because the time I went there, the class had started and you can see the class from the outside, so I don't need to pay the entrance.

I came there with my dad, and he is not busy so he could bring me up to the place. Before getting there, I expect the event is going to be big, such as the past yoga event I ever attended. My dad a bit confused with the direction and since he trusted his phone application too much, we went to the wrong direction but it is Saturday by the way, so there is less traffic.

My first impression of the event is crowded and full of yogic booth but when I stepped in through the side gate, there are fewer people, the stadium only filled with 20 to 30 persons and it only has three stands, and in the center, there are around 15 booths that are selling yoga product and green food.

I look around and the park seems more interested than the event, but I came here to learn about sports massage so I look around for my class, and surprisingly, it already started. The good thing is I could watch the class from the outside and since the instructor were using a microphone, I could hear his voice. It was good until the third pose my dad want to grab some foods and considering that he need to leave at three, I decided to accompany him to find the food.

He was planning to bring me to the place he ever eats before in the past, we walk down the road around 10 minutes and found out that the place had closed already. Later we decide to take any kind of food and the decision fall into a Vietnamese restaurant, we ordered one Pho soup with steamed spring roll. After taking some lunch, He went to his friend event and I continue to the festival.

I saw my gym friend was there taking the class I planned to take it and he was too kind, he gave me one free pass to take the evening class, said that he has enough with the yoga and he want to turn around and have a talk with his friend. The evening class which I took is about Sports Yoga and today his focus is to make everyone execute Utthanasana (standing forward bend) pose correctly.

Before the class start, he asked if any of us has a problem with their bone structure such as Scoliosis or Kifosis, and some of us admit that they never kiss their knee with their head, in more serious cases, some also suffer in Osteoarthritis too. The class focused on the lower body muscle group, the ankle, the knee, and the hips. The teacher said that we could possibly reach the forward bend by lengthening our spine through the stretch of the lower body.

The first pose is same with Surya Namaskar, with a modification of wider hips. Later some of the poses come to the modification of the teacher, for example, the original pose is a chair pose/ Utkattasana, comes in two variations, in heels up with the hand and body alignment such as Ardha Utthanasana and both heel down with a ball of feet up.

Some of the pose I already know what it affect to the muscle group and in a lower body, I experienced some of the Triangle pose (with modification of a ball of feet), the Beam pose (with modification of Ardha), all the pose you can imagine to lengthening the lower body. There is one new stuff I found in the exercise that can help a polio type of legs, by opening their leg facing to opposite direction (instead of standing with both legs heading to the front, this standing pose require left leg heading to the left and same thing with right leg). It was okay for a class although I learn almost nothing, it just feel like an exercise.

In the festival, I meet my friend who taking the same training with me, and she pursues her study in Pre-Natal yoga. We talked with our class and later she went to try a different class. After finished with my class, I decide to get some picture of the park before I went back home with my friend. In his car, we are not talking about the class but many things about his experience of talking to a girl in one of the class. He is interested in learning how to control our life energy and fortunately, the girl whom he talked ever studied in that field.

She learned from her teacher about chakra and the function of it. He shares many thoughts but when I asked him about her contact, unfortunately, he did not ask for it. In his car, we share our experience about the energy flow by helping from our fingers pointed to the forehead and visualize that the flow of breath comes in and get out from our sixth chakra, Ajna.

Later he dropped me near my house and I come back, preparing for my test tomorrow, which I need to present 30 minutes yoga exercise starting from the opening of the class to standing balance pose. Wish me luck for tomorrow and have a nice weekend.

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Hello again,

Today my day spent, as usual, wake up in the late morning, you know the plan of building a morning habit for thirty days did not work, finishing some stuff and I got a call from the tax department that I need to activate my electronic tax ID and register my tax. Nothing much happen in the evening, I just checking on my phone and chat with some of my friends.

In the night, I took two yoga classes, a power and a gentle lead by the same teacher. The first class is about arms balance so there is a lot of wrist mobility and arms strengthening before we went to the peak pose, a funky crane. At least I learn to prepare the pose with some tiger crawl and a lot of Vinyasa flow so later if I want to make up the class I know what to prepare.

The second class has no straight point since we just do some stretching. What a good thing happen today is I talked my life view with my dad, about my current view of the life, the acceptance of reality, and the reason why I should feel grateful. You know my mood has been a roller coaster since around one year ago, started with my cancellation of my plan to pursue my master degree.

It happens a year ago when I decide to refuse my ex-GF plan to study abroad and have a life there. Before I agreed with her decision, since I had no better plan after I graduate from my bachelor and it is a good thing to pursue a graduate degree to have a better foundation and skill in work. At that time, I need to wait for the university offering which took one-year preparation with my English test and GMAT (Graduate Management Assessment Test), a special test for those who pursue MBA degree. My mistake is I did not take any job at this time and you know what happen to someone who just graduated from his school and he need to study again for one year? Yes, my spirit gradually depleting and I began to questioning is this degree is worth it or not.

I wish at that time I take any kind of job-related to my degree, so at least if I did not make it or change of plan, I still have a year of experience working incorporation. Well, continue to the story, many studies without motivation bring me to frustration and at one point, I give up with this plan, we broke up and I don't know what to do with my life. I began to question myself if my study during 4 years spent in the university is worthwhile because I do not have a feeling of working in a company.

I contacted to some of my friends and feel that the friendship has changed, everyone is busy with their life and because of this condition, I need to move on. This time, everything is harder because I don't have the momentum of getting a job as common people who just graduated, most of them are supporting each other to land a job, share their interview experiences and so on. I don't have that moment.

This kind of situation lead me to engage with one and two years younger friend who still sitting on the bench, they still need to finish with their final year paper and I hang out with them. At the first time, I feel like a loser since I lose one step in my life but that is okay, one year is worthy but finding the right job is the most important. I began to have the same mindset as senior year, that is a hunger for getting an interview, and this story leads me to the job of my current company.

During the interview process, they asked me about what am I doing in a gap year, do I really hard to find a job or what and I honestly answer about my plan to study abroad but somehow I could not get the scholarship so I needed an experience first before I pursue a better degree. They are nice and accept me to their group, and at first, I work at their management trainee before finally they placed me in the finance division since they need someone to fill the position.

So, after I land a job, I move on with my life and plan to my next step? exactly! It comes to my idealistic mind that I need to own my apartment by myself and so on but I missing the point of my career progression. At first, I feel something new happen with my life but it only last for a short time, I got bored with morning wake up, commotion which takes 2 hours and another 2 hours of return, monotonic job, and sometimes I had much free time. I slowly began to hate my job but what can I do? I asked some of my friends who already work and they said this is the common thing to do as a worker so even if I move to another job, the routine would be quite same with my current job, and leaving the company for a short time is not good to be put on my CV.

At this point, I began to search my life purpose which is late since I already 23 at that time but I need to solve this once for all or I will get another dissatisfaction for getting into wrong job or decision. I take any kind of career test on the internet, consult with a psychologist, and spend time for myself to listen what is my purpose of life. This kind of situation really drag me down because I feel like stay in a wrong box, and the bad part is I began to view life as unfair, some know what they are doing during their childhood, they were gifted with such talent and surrounded by successful circle, something that I don't experience in my life.

My parent notices the different in my attitude and I slowly began to be more pessimistic. The bad part is I seek another medication by finding a girlfriend because at that time I feel that she can lead my life but who want to date someone who doesn't have a future in it? Even my friend introduced me to their friend, the negativity and the skeptical thinking about myself makes the girl think that I am not welcoming. I perceive that I am not good enough or the girl just want to get the benefits from me even it is not like that. This condition is such a vicious cycle, if I am not realized it faster, it can possibly drain my confidence anytime I meet a girl. Fortunately, I know how to break them, by being myself and let it go.

I know my parent is caring and always, but they lack understanding. They don't see my difficulties and their kind of solution is lame, they keep saying to be closer to God and He will help me with my problem. Well, there is some problem that I need to solve by myself, and nothing worse as the solution is just to pray. I believe that this problem, I need to solve it by myself, by searching to my deepest core of my heart, the answer is within me.

Later I wrote down the possible career I ever wanted to do in my life and imagine the process and do I really have what it takes to be successful there. I plan to divide my life by 40:30:30 in a day, as I spent 10 hours in working and 7 hours in sleeping, then I leave 7 hours to do what I love. I will work on this until I really know what is my calling, then I could shift my working time to pursue my dream career.

Well you know in reality, that I spent almost half day searching for my calling, even in the office when I was free, and my life is getting better again, I found my new direction and open my mind to the prospective career path. Everything has its time and I got suddenly tired with my searching as I don't see any bright point, so I do as what article says that you need to work on it to see it with your eyes.

So my plan to it is by trying my best to study the field before I really decide to change the path. My first path is being a Geologist, as I prefer to work outside and independently, able to work in an unusual location, exploring new things about earth and nature and far from the crowd. Later I spend my weekend in the local university library and pretend that I am their student so they could grant me an access to the book (you know this type of book is not sold outside). I learn the mechanism of the mining industry, the process of getting a license and how to estimate the cost, yeah I learn a lot but once I stepped on the obstacle that there is much theory and I hate to memorize, by the time I am easily bored, finally I decline to learn more.

The second thing I learn about photography, since I start my art field during my high school time working voluntarily as a multimedia division so I give a chance to work on it. I finished the manual book and understand the function of the camera just in one day. Next, I learn a lot about the theory of photography and this hobby last for half year, you know when I really into it, anytime I going somewhere alone and try to snap some picture with the new skill I just learned on the internet. The reason I stopped this is because there was a time I am bored with photography and leave my camera for a week, then it become two weeks and until now I rarely bring my camera again.

I also start a reselling business in many industries, from snack to cosmetic and none of them generate money. It happens because I hate to market the product and update the information of the product daily, not to mention that I need to handle a conversation with a customer with the same topic again and again. The marketing stage is very crucial when starting a business before it can generate the money and I already gave up, I could make a grand business plan but in the execution, I give up.

The third thing is about making a jewelry in Beading. There was a time that I saw a beaded gemstone matched perfectly to Yogi look. After many defeat in my entrepreneurial experience, I would give another chance to myself, to learn how to sew a bead and make a bracelet. I learned it from my friend and some technique from the internet. Later I seek the supplier of the bead stone and the thread. I made around ten varieties and when I show to my friend, not many of them are interested, they even bargain lower than its capital! I stay cool and some of it I could successfully sell so it could cover the expenses, the problem at this time is I don't have a channel to market the product and this type of business has limited demand of customer so I still accepting the request but I am not actively market it on the internet.

The fourth thing which just happens a month ago, I want to learn about web design since I had a passion for making a piece of art and I was confident enough with my logical skill. At the first time, the beginning was smooth, I attended a free class in nearest programming courses around my office and I think the feeling of passion will be developed gradually. I learn the basic function of HTML and when it comes to complicated option in CSS, my spirit of learning just went down. Later I am not touching anything and this new activity just dies as the past one.

Well, there is one thing that I keep doing it until now and I was surprised, as a person whom easily get bored like me could maintain the activity, which is my yoga class. I am still as one year ago, attend the class every day and keep awake with the information related to yoga. That is why I took the teacher training and hope it could deepen my practice and when I am ready, I could begin to teach yoga.

You know, I was really grateful because at least I know what to do when I am feeling low, or nothing I could be better, by practicing my yoga. I really thankful to my God and also myself to know about yoga. After taking the personality test again and again, and doing a research about my type, I began to understand why I never hit my dream career, because it never exists. Though of it, I still keep on learning to any field that brings my interest, and when I hit the bottom, I feel less frustrated since I take it as a normal thing. I have my own way to live and until now what I want to be is same with our legendary musician, John Lennon, who is an INFP too, to be happy.

In order to reach the happiness, my own way is to let go, to appreciate myself better and to be grateful for everything happens in my life and the happiness will flow by itself. In the next five-year, I have not any plan of it but one thing that I am sure about is that I am still happy and I learn more things which make me a better person. So, to closing this topic, and the answer to the title, is to let everything flow, by listen to our heart and trust our feeling. The best thing comes naturally. When there is a chance, just take it without thinking the possible risk, because everything is beautiful, when our eyes and heart are in a positive state.

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Last night I was talking about my findings during my absence in two weeks. I talked much about personality and today I will discuss it deeper here so it could help me figure out the next step I will probably choose the path and hopefully it could resolve all the confusion from the beginning. I also read carefully the precaution of my personality through MBTI to take the result with open-minded because there is no guarantee the personality fit all to one person.

Some will ask why do I trust the test so much and this is just a test? Well, since my young age I always curious with myself and never felt satisfy to the result since it may appear different. However, the closest accuracy ever I took the test to understand my personality is MBTI so I have much confidence to trust the result and looking for the better outcome of what this personality may offer.

I could spend a day to discuss why I felt this and that but right now I am going to summarize the most important point that I found during my research, which helps me walk in my path. So here we go:

There is some career INFP might consider as it fits with their principles, yet there is no perfect career ever for INFP.

This is the answer whom I seek for my whole life and before I was come in denial, finding the perfect job I could be and excel in it but after time of realization which is totally different to my perception, as I tend to look at the job on the good part and when it comes to a bigger picture after my research, I got discouraged by it difficulties and challenges. This happens because of my idealistic mind thinking that everything is good but in reality is different right?. What I have been doing within the last month is taking all the possibilities of what my career choices fit my 4 points which are passion, talent, personality, and mission. The result is considerably same with MBTI as they also do a research from the people like me.

In the result, some of the career I might consider fall in the art, health, intrapersonal and writing category. For those three of them, I consider art as the best possibility among four disregards of the factor that I am not talented enough to make a sellable piece of art and this might lead me to the way of starving artist, whose living in their dream with an inability of artistic talent. I consult this to my good friend and her word has opened my mind toward art. She said that there is two kind of people in the art industry, those who able to create a great art indistinctively and those who enjoy the art and has the sense of artistic. Both fall into the category of artistic people and I am the second type of artistic people.

So, how the way I know if I fall into the second type? Well, I am attracted to art product and collect many of artistic pictures on the internet, I could easily distinguish the type of color and rich of knowledge about art. One thing that I don't have is I am not interested in a creation of art product and if I give it a try, the result always far from what I think it should be. I even don't have the artistic talent to make a good sketch. Same thing with a person who enjoy singing but has a limited vocal range. In the end, I would say goodbye to my art career but I still keep enjoying the art to make my life colorful and updated.

About health category, I ever consider walking in the path of naturopathy, a medication without surgery. This fall to my decision to study further in Holistic Nutrition which healing with sort of good food, positive thinking and a right type of exercise. Hopefully, I could take this course later once I was financially enough to life by myself. In health category, I felt personal fulfillment if I could help someone in need and what is more rewarding is to watch that person grow or get back to live. This underline the same reason of why I am study about yoga teacher training that I love to tell the right thing to do and watch my friend growing physically in yoga exercise. Still it comes to a consideration too, that I have a limited amount of social energy to spend within a larger group of people so I learn to spend it wisely.

I ever consider to taking the healthcare type of job but it comes with some restrictions, this INFP could not work overtime since they have limited energy to spend around people while working while they are best people to work in an intrapersonal type of job so my career place would be in a small clinic or working at home. The reason of it maybe we are not into working politic and want to be recognized too without getting too standout. It sounds strange but that's we are. About this type of job, I feel more confident for no reason and I felt that I have the power to make someone life better in my own way.

In writing, well I will be short in this category since it just newfound of my hobby and I am not surprised if sometimes I take a break from it because all depends on my mood. The good thing is writing help to release my stress and help me to keep on track with my life. I began to write after attending a preparation university seminary during my time accompany my sister. One of the spokespeople recommends a journaling method to help me discover the ideal career. Oh yeah, it also increases my vocabulary and writing skills too so I recommend writing is for everyone.

When it comes to my career, I never consider that writing can take me to the enough level of income so it is okay to write but I am not thinking to write as my main career right now, maybe in the future if someone interested to my write. My idea in writing mostly comes spontaneously, what is popped in my head is what I write here so forgive me if some of the writing are going zig-zag to my main discussion.

In the end, the personality itself takes me back to get a perfect career as the job I seek is not there. Everything looks perfect if I see it on an idealistic view and I know it is not always right. I try to be more realistic for the upcoming year and let's see what my life will take me. The good point right now is always keeping the positive mind, even the life plan is still unknown, but at least I know what is good for me.

Another point of view to help us picking the good choice of career is to think of the opposite, by making up a huge list of the job we will never do it so later it could leave some of the jobs which we can work on it. For example about myself, I hate repetitive job as there is no meaning in doing it, a job where we face competition, politic, title, all that temporary sense of gratitude, work as a big group, under a supervision and easy job which can be replaced by robots. So if I could list down my type of job, it will be going like this:

Healthcare specialist (personal health care, therapeutical, psychology)

Health (nutritionist, dietitian)

Creativity (writing, photographer)

Educational worker (teacher, motivator)

Entrepreneur in Health/ Spiritual/ Sport industries

Non-profit worker (any kind of member that relates to above)

The list will go further but I learn to decide and this is what I left and I have no guarantee that all of them lead to satisfaction due to my idealistic mind so my plan is to try it all as it could help me stabilize my work-life balance.

As there is no perfect job, it does not mean to stop an INFP to be accepted in society. We just have a different approach on how we could make this world be a better place and make people more humane. Every kind of job will do as long it has a purpose. Because what we seek in this world is not about the temporary state of belonging (title, possess, certification, recognition) but the personal happiness that comes from humanity improvement and personal development from our work.

For example, working in a corporate world will not suit us because we have no point in making much money if it just for ourselves. Same point to a clerical job we need to deal with routine. That is why the result of INFP type of career fall in the category of working on purpose. Sadly, most of this type of job generate small money so we need to take the job that we are not really like it in order to keep doing what we love.

I divide two life path for INFP, and those have its own reward and consequences. The first path is to work in a stable job while in the free time doing what we love. The second path is to work on what we love regardless how low we are getting paid or how scarce the opportunity is. I already in the position of the first path right now and I will stay there as we were warned to be a bit realistic. The first position also enables me to do what I love in my free time (yoga) and I think that I could take it.

Some of us also surprisingly well in the field of diplomatic and author, and in a niche field they could be a personal figure of human history. Being INFP does not mean that we will not become anything, we just have our own way to work. In the long run, I will plan nothing and embrace the life, I always believe that there is a place for someone who is kind, helpful and positive minded type of person.

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Hello again long time no see,

I suddenly felt lazy to write my journal and that's why there is no update if I remembered it's been almost two weeks (10 days) I am not making any writing in this blog. Need not worry then, my creativity has fueled again! I will share my experiences about what I find, especially in my personality, how to deal with it and if nothing work, how to embrace it so enjoy my blog!

So where do I start? I have no update since the day before my first yoga teacher training in Pearl Bay sport's club and I think I would write about my training in the different section since this just made for a journal purpose. In these 10 days, I dig deep about what is my true personality since what I felt a year ago, the day I retake the test, show a different result from the previous one.

As what I found, the first time I took the test in my high school period, I got ENFP result and the factor of it is because I am easy to blend with new people and getting a new friend is not hard, the social factor makes me need to be friend with someone. I think that is the nearest assumption to say of why I got that result and back to my nature, I was quiet, even I can initiate a conversation, I tend to be a listener and drawback to the bigger group.

Another factor that makes me to scored an extrovert is also my inability to understand the test and write down the answer as I assumed so the result might bias in that time. How do I confident to say that I am not extrovert? well, I have studied about myself and learn that even I have a decent social skill to getting along with people, I have a very limited energy to spend. Usually after two to three deep conversation with a person, my quiet side come and draw me back from social life.

Many describe me as friendly and can get along with everyone, I admit it. I have an inner side that is caring and empathy. I can easily heartfelt to poor people and sometimes my tear is falling to touching story or movie. Because of this wonderful traits, I could see the inner beauty of people and sometimes feel what they feel. This helps me to make a smooth transition from getting a conversation with a stranger.

Later in the university, I got a beautiful moment with my foreign friends in my dormitory and we manage the relationship well. I even travel with them and that was one of the best moment I ever had, even all of us were foreign, we just connected to each other. Well sadly, some of us completed the study here and we need to be separate. Here I felt extremely sad because we will not see each other anymore but later I understand that in life, people come people go.

During this period, I am curious about my future career as some of my countrymate has known their life goal and what to pursue, while I just enjoying my time so I retake the test and got INFP as a result. The more mature I am, the more I spend time myself to think what I am going to be. I felt this result resonance to my life as the description relates to me. It is like thinking about someone that is you. The way I help junior is totally same from what it described there, as the way I pick a friend is depend on my emotion then I build an intense relation that shares the same weight as an old friend.

It was beautiful trait until the time I had a very bad time that I secluded myself to society. This time, I learn the best experience I ever had from my kind behavior that not everyone has the willingness to sacrifice as much as you. One friend whom I consider as a close friend is too dependable and emotionally demanding. I need to be with him every single time and most of the time he calls. My bad part is I always feel bad to reject someone offers so I almost accept every offering comes to me so anytime he calls, even I was not in my mood, I just agree with it. (but now I grow stronger, I could say a disapproval at least).

The friendship began so good because we share same hobbies but by the time goes by, he seems disrespect toward my choice and way of thinking, some of the jokes hurt my soul but I cannot say anything because I never reject someone. This kind of situation went worse gradually until the time I could not stand anymore, I make an independent approach. I shut down all the communication and leaving myself by going somewhere alone. I feel so much freedom during that time and try to think about my next plan.

I cut all the social necessity at class, I remain silent and ignoring people. Some of my friends start to feel irritated and I do not really care, as what I need is my personal space. Later I understand that I could not do that as I lose half of my friend in the university. Now, everytime they had a meeting, they just pretend as I do not exist.

During that time, I felt on the lowest point of my life, I almost graduated but I have no future plan, I lose my close friend the one I could learn about business and bunch of his friend. Seems my life is failed because I put it all to my friend. Now I need to stand alone, make my own decision, and working on something is harder without an accomplice.

In this time rather than consult to my friend about my feeling, I seek another way by searching it on the internet. This comes to my independence point as I don't want to bother someone as myself. The bad thing about an internet is the solution is there but what I need is a personal touch and during that time I need it, a lot.

Later I took the test again and the result changed to INTP. The result changed twice as first I got ENFP, then INFP. I stick to it and some of the time I retake the answer is INTP but if I dig down my true personality, I am not really like that. It described INTP as someone who love to debate and found it fun, not really care about relationship and perfectionist.

The more I study about the test, the more I understand about why sometimes I score INTP and rarely score INFP. It happens because my feeling is important to determine the Feeling or Thinking result. Whether I felt sad and draw myself from society, I score INTP. Whether after yoga class, having a good time with people, I score INFP. Later I study about a person who scores 50:50 in his third element (feeling-thinking) and there is no closest answer to it as I need to answer it with my heart. Do the results really resemble with my true personality? You know, sometimes the difference in thinking-feeling just 1-3%, never more than that. However, some psychologist said that there is no INXP.

Later I collect the data of a person who gets INFP and INTP and relates my life and the characteristic. The result back to what resonance with my heart, an INFP. I set my heart to it and accept everything bad or good in my personality. I blindfolded my counterpart personality as this time I am pretty sure that this is the right one. I began to the journey of to discover myself and the answer revealed one by one of why I like to give up quickly, or too emotional toward a relationship, or why until now I never found any suitable careers, or else.

I hope I could answer it all one by one but right now I am a bit sleepy so I will continue it tomorrow, I promise. I need to keep on track with my life too as this is important to keep myself on track so see you tomorrow.

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Today I have the opportunity to try Yin Yoga, my friend in the community whose a member in the different gym have a free one week trial. I was curious with Yin Yoga since I already heard the name and some friends who experienced it said it was meaningful practice makes me more curious to try this. I have asked for last month availability but due to our schedule, it was delayed and somehow forgotten. Right after I done with my teacher training on Sunday, suddenly she brought up the topic again and this time, we agreed to try it together on Tuesday.


After I read the confirmation of class schedule, which is start at 4:30, I rushed from my home to the place. It was one point of traffic, I got stuck for 5 minutes but I could make it on time. It is not to find the park too though but I still got 10 minutes left, then I called her. Later I was waiting for her since I could not go through, and later she show up and told me to put my stuff in the locker room first.


I am a bit confused with the locker room since they used the electronic card so I asked another member there and they were helpful. Done with locker stuff, she was waiting out there and we proceed together to enter the class. The class already begin 15 minutes ago and there is a sweet mellow flute instrument flowing through the class, all member were quiet and hold to one pose, which is fire log pose. I am familiar with this pose but this class is Yin Yoga, so we use zero force and let the body fall to gravity.


In Hatha class, we are supposed to prepare the pose with keep the spine straight, open chest, and arms reach to the farthest possible. The focus of this exercise is to relax the knee and unite the shoulder. Yin comes in a different method, the spine fall naturally, following the gravity works, the shoulder relax and falling to land, in this pose, Yin focused on glutes and knee joints. We are using a props (yoga block) to put our forehead and we hold the pose for 5 minutes.


The transition from one pose to another goes smoothly, starting with the lift up the neck, then slowly straighten the legs.

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My insomnia went worse, it's been two weeks I go to sleep at 3 am. Seems like my body clock has to get used to my sleep habit and even worse, my mind is in the peak performance during midnight. I start getting sleepy on 2 am and it takes around one hour to fall asleep. My parent is getting worried since some time they woke up around 2 and found me awake.


I know this is not good for my body since this is the time for restoration but sadly I could not help it, I know what makes me fall asleep faster however it is not possible right now. I share my room with my sister and I am sensitive to light, any source of light, even it just a small flickering light from phone notification may distract my process to fall asleep.


I remembered the time I could fall asleep fast during my time, study abroad, I have my own room and I could design it anything I want, so later once I had much money I would like to stay alone in my private room. Another stuff to mention about my kind of room is, I would like to have a huge glass window with curtain, so in the morning, I could get energized from the sunlight coming from the window.


Okay back to my daily, so yesterday I had finished with my HTML basic and I planned to start to learn CSS for today but it fail and I am not surprised, my mood of learning web design just got depleted today, but I am not sad and forcing myself, which may lead to uneffective time using and frustration so why I am not giving myself a day? My progress in web design is at the right pace, and I just wish to find a community of newbie web designer, so we can learn together and share the techniques or even a gathering, I wish that.


From this experience, I can learn how to develop my skill in my own way.  It seems that I have a similar interest in both yoga and web design, the time I devoted to working there is just much yet why my web design progress fail behind, just in one week? I am not joking here, you know how bad I am when learning some stuff, usually, I got instant motivation which only keeps me for a day. One week should be something different since I am very choosy on what subject I am going to learn.


My learning process come in this step, it should caught my interest to learn about it, and then I don't need to build my interest since it will attract naturally. Next, I will find any information relate and my day would be focused on the subject. In only one day, I already figured out the big picture and fantasize myself if I be expert on that field. This one should be important because from here I will decide if i want to proceed with the process of not. If yes, I make a plan to visit a library or google searching ton of article relate and then I build a plan (which 98% I never make it) and start passionately. Since I much focused on the first step, I could get burn out quickly.


If someone suggest me to break down the learning in small part, well I can't. Once my mind is heading in that direction, I will rush only to that direction, until the time of my energy empty. I am not surprised if I found myself work on half day to learn a thing. I have tried another learning style to break down your job but this one just went back fire since I have the very limited time of interest so before it expires, I should take as much as I can.


I study myself about my learning process and investigate the solution with different cases in the past since some subject I could learn continuously (yoga) and I figure out why. If I remember, not in one week I was passionate about yoga and there was a time I talked to a guy about some technique and he was so helpful to my pose progress. In about that week, later he introduced me to his community, which is filled with a person who was passionate about learning yoga. I felt such an acceptance in that group. All of them were friendly and do not hesitate to fix my posture problem. Acceptance is such a rare word in my dictionary and this experience makes my yoga journey beautiful.


In another month, I talk to the stranger beside my mat and our conversation went wonderful, later she introduces me to the best group I ever been, which I could devote myself to keep this group alive. Maybe I am a bit idealistic, nothing in this world will last forever but if I have the option to choose on which group I could stay for the rest of my life, then I would stick to this group.


This group consists around a dozen of an enthusiasticaly yogi, who have the heart to train and some are working on their teaching. One thing that makes me fit with this group is most of our conversation filled with such constructive and positive words. Any information shared freely and all of them, I know from their heart, would help if they are able to. I hope our togetherness could last long, I hope.


Back to the topic of my learning, this pleasant experience leads me to the secret of effective learning from a person who give up quickly. The keywords are; find a good community that can help you grow. Let others know your battle and always respect their opinion, they already spend their time and effort just to help you learn faster and avoiding mistake they ever made.


The rule has no exception, even you are independently strong, usually went single fighter in every problem, there is the time you need a helping hand to get you passing through. I could not imagine if I am not getting into the community, do I still actively learn yoga or not even I am passionate about it. The community keeps your knowledge deeper and opening your insight toward the related field, even when you are in the low season.


In the end of this post, I will write this for myself so once I forget the way to learn a thing, I could just read on this summary. You guys can implement it to your learning process too if you will. My learning process sounds differ since I am not gifted with persistence so I took a different approach to learning a thing.

1. Get you interested in. If not, just leave it. Don't waste time, time is precious.

2. Learn about it, find any information about it, get a big map about the process and imagine yourself doing and success in this field. Dream big!

3. Start as fast as you can, you don't know when your energy will last. Get stick to your first plan and if your body able, take two days plan in one day.

4. Your energy level should be diminished, don't let yourself fall because in about one or two days your study will be a history. Therefore, cut your study time because it not really works and you should be focusing on finding a good community.

5. Got your community and if you do not find the best one that is okay, at least, you have been in a place that has a people with the same interest. In this community, get in touch to other, I believe some of the member also have another group. Stay humble and always talk positive.

6. Once you get your community then somehow your learning journey would be less hard as you know where to find the answer and teaching other also good to retain your knowledge. Win-win solution!

7. I quite forget with this point and I am not talking about this. If you think you are enough with your work and it feels such a plateau, a state where you can't go further, find any event outside such as yoga festival and for web programming, hackathon. Go to any field-related convention, meet inspired people, find the different approach of learning from them, it just a same with your community, just a bit bigger.

8. Last, when you are in your low season, it is okay to stop for a while. Take a small look back on your progress and be proud of yourself. Acknowledge yourself, not every people can achieve this. Then it is better if you can promise yourself to help others. Remember, you were once are clueless in this field, make a good chain of assistance, make yourself memorable.

That is enough I think and I would like to thank myself because I just get the mood to write, although it was hard to start the first paragraph. Right now my yoga journey already on the eighth step and I feel this as the best method to learn in my pace, while my web design just stepped on the fourth step, hoping I could find a good community before it gone by the wind so
I hope my writing could be your inspiration and see you next time on my blog.

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I set my expectation low on the first training since I got such unprofessional manner from the person who will be our teacher. I felt that and my subjective judgement to him came from the last minute announcement of our training schedule that will last for a month and a half and some information were unclear, no specific description whether the food is included and the teaching module. On that day, I don't want to think much, I already paid for it already and hope for the best outcome from this training.

Some of you might be confused with my decision if the pre-experience you feel not alright then why I drop the decision on this teacher? Well, I have been done a research, to select the right course of my yoga teacher training and my judgement mostly based on the graduates teaching experience, I knew three of the graduates teach well in class and we also develop a friendship by sharing information about yoga and its technique. Two of them recommend me to take a teaching training to study deeper about yoga foundation of teaching and philosophy.

Later from that, another yoga teacher whom I met also recommend me to take teacher training at their previous place. I understand there are many yoga schools and thanks to them, it shorten my research time since qualitative data is harder to get. Later I do a background checking of the founder, stalking their information through social media and watch their words in it, to see if they really have a heart for teaching or just for generating money. Don't get me wrong, even in this health and green business, there is always a way to monetize it.

I am not saying monetize health based product or service is bad, but some people did it without consideration. Just imagine a greedy public religious image have a business and do politics, which is possible but far from what it called "enough". Well, what is that idealistic thinking by the way since the concept still alive but people abandoned it. Everyone need to eat and live up and that is their own choice but still, I just feel bad for a person who become a yoga teacher just for getting money, do they still care with the purpose of teaching? I don't know.

So we back to the discussion of why I choose this teacher. Well I have answered point number one, his personal background, what makes him a teacher, what is his teaching experience, how long he has been teaching yoga, how about his alumni, and if it possible, do they provide the teaching curriculum so we know what we will cover (some place kept the secret of their curriculum). Point number two, I also have talked on above, how he create a teacher from his teaching, do the student know the correct alignment, how to adjust correctly, how to survive and win in this industry? All of this information is important to keep a teacher updated and sustain to the new change.

Point number three, somehow I want to put this to point number one. The place, price, time, availability and limited seats per alumni. Yoga teacher training takes time so I don't want to take it out of my city, and it is not fun to have a huge debt in renting a place. Price not so important here, most training cost similarly same, but the price can be doubled up if the teacher is a foreigner. Since my work can be done in off-hour, time does not play a big part but some office worker considers this the most important decision point to decide their training. Availability also important, some training only opens twice a year and I don't want to lose my vibe and time just for waiting. In this point, I take serious consideration on seats, as I understand of how the class filled with 50 students and 15 students. It has huge differences in learning as more private is better.

Everyone should understand that there is no guaranteed job after teacher training, one should seek his own way to teach, either voluntarily teach in the local community, charity event, yoga studio, gym, doing a private class or open their own studio. There is the way to at least increase your credibility of your training certificate by choosing a programme which already registered globally under certified yoga certification standard. Some YTT does not provide with the international standard and this may bring a hard time for graduates find his first teaching job as their certification doesn't recognise. Even some gym (mega gym) asking for actual teaching experience or I called that voluntarily teach somewhere to have a teaching experience.

Point number five relate to the curriculum itself and if I could not find it on the internet, I will gather the information from the alumni. What is the curriculum will heavily on? Is it poses, alignment, theory, practice, or teaching? This is so important because what they learn makes them as their teaching character. I experienced not all teacher can teach correctly. I am not a hard fan's of alignment but bad alignment reducing the effectivity of training, even lead to injury. Some teacher is so detailed to one pose, can lead a class bored.  I even found a teacher training that has mantra practice and game with other participants, which I look down to it. The reason is simple, we are paid to learn not having fun. What important for me is after graduation, whether the graduate will be teaching or not, they are ready to teach.

In the end, there is some process to choose the right program and I felt my approach already enough to give me the best program, which enables me to be a good teacher afterwards. If it not, there is room to learn as the learning process never stop, finishing a teacher training program is just another step of learning and it doesn't mean my yoga journey is over, there is always a new thing to learn in this field.

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It's been a long time no writing since I began to learn how to make a website. Around 5 days I guess this blog has no presence to my new post. I really sorry and this is my bad since I was much focused on learning HTML, my interest to blogging has reduced much. Well, it takes a time to drive my will to write in this blog again since I should switch some time so I did not get burn-out by learning HTML.

I taking my first website design class off-line, by sign up my name to a free class in nearest to my house. It begins on Sunday morning, around 9am and I could not get enough sleep since I just slept on 4am on that day but my willingness to learn is undoubtedly good so I pushed myself to attend the class, also given the fact that it only last three hours.

My personal experience touching HTML is like a 5-year-old kid trying his first bicycle, full of curiosity. I met others participant, he was self-working as freelancer manager, taking up many web designer and programmer to work under his table yet he still want to learn about coding, bravo to him by the way!.  We began to create a folder naming by our own name and in it first we create a folder for sample picture, and then another folder for .html and .css type file.

We went to the first lesson, introducing of website interface and .html structure. It starts with <html> and end with </html>, I learned that "</>" is called a tag and there were around 200 tags in HTML as a component of a website. For today class, 70% of the topic will be focused on the HTML and the rest is about CSS. That two programs serve the foundation to make a simple website. HTML works as the structure while CSS works as the design.

I learn quite a lot for one day, how to write a title in head tags, the differences of coding language between HTML and CSS, the list which is unordered list that we use the combination with CSS to make the list horizontally, to insert image and link, the differences between margin and padding as they were similar in function, and at last the footer.

All the experience is a kickstart for me to learning the web stuff and since last three days I was busy with learning HTML from this website, I recommend this website as the information there given for free and great explanation from the experts. If I could break down what I learned for the day since I missing writing here, in my first day of learning I try getting myself used writing codes in HTML, the way I did it same as common people learning, by doing a rework of example and try to modify the property and value, see if it could work and I believe the best way to learn a thing is by doing it.

More specifically, by given an order this is what I learned already:


The structure of .html, separated by two basic elements, heading and body.

Writing a paragraph and a heading. Linking them with .css to modify the style.

What can be put in heading besides <title>, such as meta tags and "style-type".

The differences in writing on .html and .css, there were slight differences in definition "="
with ":" and "<>" with "{}".

The Block line element and Inline element differences, the dependency between them and how they affect.

The type of Block line element such as paragraph, heading, blockquote (q) and lists; and the type of Inline element such as bold/strong, em/italic, superscript/subscript, strikethrough(s/del), underline(u/ins).

How the list works and their variation; unorder, order, and the definition list. Also to change the property of list: I/i/a/1.

The concept of Selector, Property, and Value in Tags

Link the text or image to the image folder or specific target by using anchor tags and the knowledge of hypertext references in linking Value. Also, link the page to another page by using "#"

Basic table making, table, table row, table data.

Making a form using .html, form type: name, password, radio (with checked), square and submit. Also, make a comment box and selector with given option box.

The definition of <div> and <span> and how they simplify and clarify the works by doing div "id" or span "class" to form an internal link between page.

The meta tags function and how to use it properly (meta name, charset, and http-equiv).

I think that is enough for three days effective learning and in my spare time, I manage to collect the information about being a graphic designer since my true calling project in design will start in May. I read this article and I think that is enough for three days effective learning and in my spare time, I manage to collect the information about being a graphic designer since my true calling project in design will start in May. I read this article and believe to myself that I could finish this for half year.

Tomorrow is my big day, my first yoga teacher training will start in tomorrow so I should go to bed earlier for today. I hope I grow every day, and see you on my next post.

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Every people have their own way to learn the subject and it was debatable of which method consider as the best way to learn something quickly as our human brain was unique, we have many different responses to the new stuff and what we memorized in our brain is depending on how we work on it.

It was wonderful to understand and know our way to learn because this can make our learning process quick and the memory is retainable in our brain for long. Many of us listen to the wrong opinion about learning though there is no perfect way that guaranteed the best result, for example, some can learn stuff with noises while other need a complete silent to learn.

There were many spectrums to see the dimension of learning. Some can feel personally challenged once given a limited time or deadline while other got stuck in no idea in that situation. Listening to the seminaries may work but some of us felt sleepy to listens to knowledgeable thought for an extensive period of time.

A scientist found one basic principle of human learning that still being used to exploring what consider the best way to learn for every individual and until today the method still effective used by researcher and practitioner. The way of human learning was separated into three different categories which are auditorial, visual, and kinesthetic.

I cite in this website since this explain better and have in-depth analysis.

Auditory

Auditory learners often talk to themselves. They also may move their lips and read out loud. They may have difficulty with reading and writing tasks. They often do better talking to a colleague or a tape recorder and hearing what was said. To integrate this style into the learning environment:

1. Begin new material with a brief explanation of what is coming. Conclude with a summary of what has been covered. This is the old adage of “tell them what they are going to learn, teach them, and tell them what they have learned.”
2. Use the Socratic method of lecturing by questioning learners to draw as much information from them as possible and then fill in the gaps with you own expertise.
3. Include auditory activities, such as brainstorming, buzz groups, or Jeopardy. Leave plenty of time to debrief activities. This allows them to make connections of what they learned and how it applies to their situation.
4. Have the learners verbalize the questions.
5. Develop an internal dialogue between yourself and the learners.

Visual

Visual learners have two sub-channels—linguistic and spatial. Learners who are visual-linguistic like to learn through written language, such as reading and writing tasks. They remember what has been written down, even if they do not read it more than once. They like to write down directions and pay better attention to lectures if they watch them. Learners who are visual-spatial usually have difficulty with the written language and do better with charts, demonstrations, videos, and other visual materials. They easily visualize faces and places by using their imagination and seldom get lost in new surroundings. To integrate this style into the learning environment:

1. Use graphs, charts, illustrations, or other visual aids.
2. Include outlines, concept maps, agendas, handouts, etc. for reading and taking notes.
3. Include plenty of content in handouts to reread after the learning session.
4. Leave white space in handouts for note-taking.
5. Invite questions to help them stay alert in auditory environments.
6. Post flip charts to show what will come and what has been presented.
7. Emphasize key points to cue when to takes notes.
8. Eliminate potential distractions.
9. Supplement textual information with illustrations whenever possible.
10. Have them draw pictures in the margins.
11. Have the learners envision the topic or have them act out the subject matter.

Kinesthetic

Kinesthetic learners do best while touching and moving. It also has two sub-channels: kinesthetic (movement) and tactile (touch). They tend to lose concentration if there is little or no external stimulation or movement. When listening to lectures they may want to take notes for the sake of moving their hands. When reading, they like to scan the material first and then focus in on the details (get the big picture first). They typically use color highlighters and take notes by drawing pictures, diagrams, or doodling. To integrate this style into the learning environment:

1. Use activities that get the learners up and moving.
2. Play music, when appropriate, during activities. (I like to listening while writing)
3. Use colored markers to emphasize key points on flip charts or whiteboards.
4. Give frequent stretch breaks (brain breaks).
5. Provide toys such as Koosh balls and Play-Dough to give them something to do with their hands.
6. To highlight a point, provide gum, candy, scents, etc. which provides a cross-link of scent (aroma) to the topic at hand (scent can be a powerful cue).
7. Provide highlighters, colored pens and/or pencils.
8. Guide learners through a visualization of complex tasks.
9. Have them transfer information from the text to another medium such as a keyboard or a tablet.

You can take the test here to know your own learning style. I had taken the test in my high school and the result is remain, only a slight change. Before I got the highest mark in my Kinesthetic and Visual, as both share the highest result and iI admit myself that Auditorial is not my best part while right now once again I securely mark Kinesthetics as my learning style. Every time I learn something I need to write it on the note, just for the sake to keep myself working while listening and watching the lecturer giving the information though after I do a heavy amount of writing I just totally ignore to re-watched it.

I can say that the best to learn a thing is by doing it, and no wonder of why I am taking many failures in my life as I tend to try it first, not read it or think about it as I thought there was less use than doing it practically. If I could summed up what is my next plan to find my "true calling", I would simply say to try it all, all the stuff i ever think to learn but it is not possible in the past, while i should work with my time management and use it more wisely. I would rather spend time of trials and even I know that is not working, at least I try.

So, in order to searching my true potential which lead to my "true calling", as I highlighted above, I would imply all these strategies while learning this:

Physical Therapies in Yoga
Website Design
Basic Method in Design, I love art yet I have not found which type of Design works for me
Holistic Nutrition
Content Writing

Among listed above, I will track the progress by time so I could see which qualifies to my calling. I will spend time equally learning all starting from the website design this month, starting from April and I heard from other sites that learn how to make a website starts in HTML. I will do my best and later on I will write the progress here.

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One hour left in this Cafe to write since I will have a yoga class at 6. I forget to cover what do I do in the Tuesday yet yesterday as what I promised in the previous post so to make it simple, I will describe it in one word, I am busy searching the article about writing career. Since three days ago, I enjoyed my time writing articles either in this blog or leaving a comment on social media. It seems that writing has taken my life and if this what my heart decide me to move, then I will go through it.

It comes in two reasons of why I decide this as one of the strong candidates to my further career. First, I recap what am I enjoy doing the specific activity for a long time, especially if I ignoring others plan just because I am in doing that activity and it comes to writing or any physical activities such as football. The second reason is I feel no pressure of doing it, whether I got paid or not does not matter much since this makes me feel better. I feel myself in content after I could put my effort in this activity as this activity stimulates my thinking and creativity.

I decide to spend a little time to do a research of what it takes to be a good writer, and do this career can be lucrative to pay my bill in the future?. The research shows that people take this job as a freelance, or a second job to increase their gain from the first job. Some who are dedicated make this as their main job fall into two different category. A starving artist whom later become a well-known author by given a slight chance of probability or those who follow the direction of job market demand to be a copywriter or content writer.

Those who work in the first category are true writer by heart, whose able to stand alone whether the public does not look upon them and keep writing since writing is their true calling, most people who dedicate themselves to write work on self-publication and able to withstand full day of writing, a typical fiction/ non-fiction writer.

Second category offer job progression faster since company website needs a professional writer to publish an informative yet attractive article to attract the viewer. In the world of digital technology, a conventional newspaper has almost been abandoned by people and what I heard from one article state that the people access news from their smartphone, and the number of declining demand of newspaper may possibly eliminate it from the existence of public.

In the last three days, I do a deeper comparison between creative writing, content writing and copywriting. All of them has their own unique characteristics and it own difficulties, different career paths and progression, the university program for the major. I like to start with the university programs, since this major fall in two category, literature, and media and communication.

Creative writing

Don't be fooled by its name. It does not relate to what you thinking of creative and I also got fooled too for the first time I hear that this major related with media, design, creativity based since it is not. This major focused greatly on how you articulate your ideas to writing, planning for a book-scale of a story, how to play with the emotions and psychological trick to amaze the reader. In a nutshell, this major is for those who dedicated their life to write.

Content writing

Content writing gained their popularity since the age of technology comes, by producing a good quality of information in a short article. There are infinite possibilities of topics depending on writer strength and preferences. Currently, food, travel, and specific product ranked highest on the job demand. The name of major just corrects with the field of study, to teach us how to write effectively in limited space (500 words) with informative quality that pamper the reader. Their main objection is to draw the attention of viewer into the reader, keeping them in the website by providing an informative article, and turning them from visitor into daily reader.

Copywriter

In a business perspective, if content writing is the quality of a product, then copywriter is the marketing of a product. Copywriter has a strategy using the selection of titles, bring the curiosity, and hide the true intention of marketized article. For those who unexperienced will see the article as normal however it full of marketing promotion, and an experienced copywriter can make it smooth. The purpose of a copywriter is to increase the traffic of a blog or website, by using word strategy or SEO techniques.

The combination of content writing and copywriting is the perfect synergy to attract the viewer and turning them to their subscriber.

There is one last category that I had not mentioned below since this require specific background of skill, which is a technical writer. Every major field who enjoy writing can be a technical writer, it just require less effort of how to simplify the specific verb used in scientific information to make the reader easy to understand. However, by given the total effort, technical writer require most effort among other since the writer need to exactly understand the field he wants to write on.

In career, most of the writer work as freelance but not all. Some of them consider writing as their side job especially for the content writer works to satisfy their crave to put their art into writing. The good point about this path is less pressure in life responsibility since you still have another source of income. The writing level for a content writer is moderately easy, since most of the writer whom took this path has has the knowledge to create a decent writing for example, a programmer mostly write about computer related article however the level may differ if the writer should write the article which considerably uncommon.

The job prospective is good but in career path, somehow the position can be replaceable since what writers need to have is the skill to articulate his thought into writing and his strength in specific field so often a company just picking one of their coworker to write article although the content may be not as good as a professional content writer.

Copywriter gain its fame and the demand of qualified copywriter is big, at least in one company should have one guy who is able to operate company website, company social media and company marketing content. As what i say, copywriter is the frontdesk fighter in getting new visitor in the internet. The optimization of search engine may rise the company website to first page, make it visible and easily discovered by searcher. The skill required to be a copywriter is not just the ability to write, but also how to create interesting title and content, having a good sense of keyword, fair enough to understand how website and search engine works. I consider my further career to be a copywriter though i am not really into marketing.

At last, creative writing has the highest difficulty in my respect. The margin of successful creative writer is big, the process of enduring many rejection from the publisher, the pressure in your head keep thinking can you make a living, and many sacrifice i could mention as time for family and friend. For those who walk on this road, i salute you and keep your passion up.

So here i am, in the edge of nowhere again with different intersection. I feel lost again, but i know by heart that i am going in the right way, i can feel that my first destination will appear. I know i wander much in this life and i have been through the tough times. I made a mistake in the past and i am fully awake right now, to discover what is be my "true calling".

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I consider talent as a natural gift since we were born, how we can differ from other, having a competitive gain which separates me from others. Talent is unique, everyone should have at least one, some earn more than one which obviously called multi-talent but how this can affect my decision making to my future career, what it has to offer and how do I use it wisely and efficiently so it can bring a positive way in my life and what quality of talent do I have? To answer all the question I need to reflect myself using my old approach, by turning back time to the time I was born so in specific condition the talent may spark, and right now I will catch it!.

For this experiment, the collection of data is not just coming from my personal experience but also, I asked my closest relatives and friends, at least, ten of them. The way I treated them could be a reflection for me to understand myself as they taking directly my treatment and the way my talent affect to them, to our surrounding, which sometimes I missed it.

In my childhood, I used to play alone, my dad was busy and always come back late while my mom also needs to work in her store. Most of my time spent with a caregiver, whom my parent pay her to stay with us to taking care of me. I could not remember clearly since it has been a long time but one thing that I remembered is I can be busy playing alone, fantasizing stuff around me to be what I think in my head. I could say that I am a dreamer, narrate an impromptu story from the middle of nowhere.

I think I have a serious issue related to it and this could be whether bad or good depending on how I think about it. That is a clear sign that I was born with good imagination and high creativity while in the other part this trait also has its own weakness, I hardly pay attention to what is real, causing many problems to my focus on study, since focusing on the study material requires consistent concentration and memorization. This is the reason behind my low marks on specific subjects regardless I have high IQ in average.

My imagination knocks at the random time, there is no exception to hold it since it comes from my head. It could ignite under purpose too but there should have a strong reason behind it, it comes when I caught in conflict with a person which occurs rarely honestly, my mind popped fight dialogues in my version and this could take more than an hour since the story will expand to somewhere else or when I have done something terrible and another dialogue popped in my head or at the time I could not help someone.

There is one secret of my life and I think this is the pinnacle of my imagination play, and because of this I can play with my mind for a long time, some of the good stories in my mind could be continued anytime and keep in my memory for a long time. The reason is because I have imaginary friend formed from my mind, its characters and traits of my preference. My favorite object to make me easier to visualize my imaginary friend is my pillow since its shape resembles a human.

Well, you don't need to afraid since there is no correlation with a mental disorder. It just my own personal method to escape from reality especially during my energy depleted. In other ways, fantasizing your own story may enhance your thinking in a different way. It is fun too but takes much time.

My academic score falling behind so it is hard to decide what is my strong subject that can relate to my passion as I remembered that I hate school. My classmate mostly assumed that I just weird. My jokes are not generally acceptable and my selection of topic during conversation is limited to what I like, I hate politics and drama in class, I never had a girlfriend even though I try to get one since I was bad in communication. All of them make my youth time sounds miserable.

This is what I regret most so now I am still searching what is my calling while someone else already chase them. I spent rest of my youth in video games and football. Imagine if someone wake up from his bed, went to school, do not join any clubs there, playing football till the school gate is about to close, continued with playing video and computer games then go to bed. If I summed up, what I spent all my year in middle high school just football and video game. I never study except at school and this the reason of why my grade always below standard.

Right until high school, one of my dad's friend introduce me to the teenage community of a church and my life is getting better, where else can you find a circle that is filled with reasonably positive attitude people, have many volunteer options to try and a reminder to keep you close to God. There was many volunteers vacancy I could try starting from still some of them require a background too such as music department. The options ranging from the multimedia department which manages the media (video, flyer design, projector), dance department which worships through dancing, prayer team for the generation and blessing, decoration team, public relation department and the last one, music department.

By given some options, I try the multimedia team voluntarily and it was exciting, I discover the field that I love to do, designing the flyer and creating a video with my team. My mental health is getting better and I feel accepted here until the time, in my third year, my mind has grown and think to leave the team, just because I got bored and my spirit to serve in church declined for no reason, makes me rarely to attend pray time. It went worse, and I dragging myself to apart from the community.

My leader in multimedia department pointed me to create a video for the annual retreat and since I had not worked with video for some period of time, I fail to make it on time. The leader told me the deadline is due and that is okay if I am not finished yet, as long as the promotion could be published in this week. Then the publication went sour, I forget to check the brightness of the video and the video is too dark in the projector. This experience makes me want to leave the community, I show up rarely to church and if the leader ever asked, I replied that I was busy with my exam.

There was education event to study abroad in my city and I have the opportunity to attend. The stand that I was looking for is either an IT major or design major. I don't have any intention to look at different major since I am not interested. After the event end, I went back home and have a conversation with my dad. He knows well the challenge of working in IT industry that is mentally demanding and time-consuming, you also need to have a strong problem-solving skill and quick reaction. He sees that I lack the attributes to work in IT industry and the competition between IT companies is fierce.

Later I talked about design major and I want to be focusing on animation. Another disapproval came from his mouth saying that it will not pay the bill. The chance of success in this field is small and he doesn't see as I have the ability to create a decent piece of art. In that time I gave up, I planned to work right after I finish my high school for any position available and end up becoming a salesman in a local stock-trading company, and only worked there for three days. My dad told me that I gave you a chance to learn the company works and as he expected that the company used high school graduates channel to gain their prospective customers.

I desperately nothing to do, comparing to some of my classmates had prepared with their major. I also don't understand why I don't have any intention to take some of these noble major such as law, doctor or engineer. Then I start to find any production house, to work as their graphic designer. The HR has seen my portfolio and told me to come tomorrow for the interview test. I came to him and talked about my experience and intention to work there, later he gave me a test, that I failed in all aspects. The test comes in three different software; first from illustrator or Correl draw, that I need to draw modified 12 circles in a different size. second from Adobe Photoshop, that I need to draw the object exactly from the first model, with some elimination of confetti. Third, I need to draw 12 models which look like a cartoon in 360-degree perspectives (one model every 30 degrees). I even could not pass the first test and later I told him to come back later.

My dad kept asking about my choice of university and I have no answer. He later registered my name in one school of business and since I do not really care about it, I just think that business major may work for me. I agreed with his decision and he explains that business field offers a various program and you will find what you love there. Fair enough I thought, I might be land to accounting or marketing, I have not tried it before though even if I do not found it later, the skill is universal and useful to have.

My first semester was spent fairly good, I enjoy the subject that challenged my intellectual to think differently and since this was just a start, my interest in the subject, Economic is in the highest state even though I should study the foreign language there, I felt zero burdens because everyone felt the same thing in their first experience in the new stuff. In the first semester, the topic was not deep enough so learning in the surface area still acceptably fast and the fun you get from your university friend makes you learn faster.

I make many new friends in the first year, from the foreign in my dormitory to the local students. My semester was enjoyable and I consider first to third's semester was the best time of my life. I take a part in university organization, something I never did before of getting involved to student community as a member. I was introduced with organizing an event, which I enjoy most to plan it for students. My senior even told me that I have a unique solution to the problem, not from giving attention to detail but the expression of the idea that just come out from my mouth, that in my further career I can be placed in the position of most people can't work in that capacity.

The bad stuff happens when there is an internal conflict from previous board leader to the newly appointed leader, change the management system toward our school agreement. The previous board member was the founder of this organization and set this organization to be apart from university interception in serving and combining our party with the local student. While the new leader has a different opinion that we could have a better relationship with another faculty in the university and manage events together. This school politic went worse because it holds the new decision upon new activity from student union and this condition may bring the unhealthy relationship with the faculty since we are responsible for the event in the university.

Later my good friend in the union told me to create one event that has no relation with the university and collecting the sponsorship to support the event. We are collected to some of the active members in student union and some of them are agreed to take a part, however, we still stuck with one position that we should have before finding another member, that is a front office position, a public relation that can be responsible for doing a negotiation with the sponsorship, make a continuous touch with student, and can handle stress to the similar questions. We are unable to find any so only we do this part. I found that it is frustrating to deal with talking to people, I got tired easily and once I did the job I got extremely exhausted. I found out that working with people is not my traits.

In the event I found my past passion, to work in the media by designing a flyer and ticket, making a promotional video, and writing about the content of the banner. It could be my cure through my hard time after doing promotion in two months extension. One problem that I don't think art is my talent is because rarely people appreciate with my creation. The moment people did that to me was in my highschool, I reworked some designer logo and picture and they said I was good enough to work in creative department but still deep inside my heart keep telling that it was not my original piece. I have a good analytics in 2D and 3D object and I have told you that I am a daydreamer but putting it into paper is another new level. My drawing was bad and I can be honest that I am not gifted in drawing as my friend that can draw object precisely of what is in his mind, even he learns it by himself.

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Back to my personal topic, so from the information that i perceive in the world, where i should go? If i ignore what my heart told me, and follow my logic, i would be likely walk in the path of technology, e-commerce for example as combination between business activity and information technology or boldly take website developer since everyone will need them in year ahead. However, it would lead me back to the disappointment, of what i have experienced for 4 years walking in the wrong direction, leave me in suffering and negative mind toward life since the principle of major i took does not relate with my personal value. It based on someone opinion and at that time i have no idea where is my career would be, the good side about this job enable me to get the job easily than the specific major one. I have tried warehousing, sales and finance and all have its own point.

I am not disappointed though i also learn some stuff in the way, every knowledge is important. Still, i could be better if i know my ideal career. Currently i work on it and every new option to consider should pass these criteria:

Passion

If it does not resonate with my heart, it share different value for my principle, therefore i will decline the major since it is not my passion.

Talent

Talking about intelligent, the strong point which distinguish the quality between other, the gift from the above which is powerful if it used wisely.

Personality

Do i have the quality to perform well, how is my endurance toward rejection or waiting, do i consider myself adaptable, can i work with different background of people, and the list going much. This point is important to maximize the two point stated above. I always remember from the psychologist directly that this can be changed patiently by given plenty of time teaching myself.

Value

I consider this is the most important point to keep my performance consistent and help me to come back if i ever fail. What is my value hold into? Do i envisage world as a competitive field, who the best will win and collecting wealth to be my personal goal?, or to die in honor by serving faithfully to country or humanity and everyone will remember his name?, or making someone life better from what you are doing.

So this is my spectrum of calling version, it inspires from other reference to which has the same idea with it, given by 4 different characteristic of your ideal job, you need to love it (passion), you are great in it (talent), you are paid for it (monetize), and the world need it (mission). So what i have been working right now it to filter the prospective major i want to study in Canada later so here comes the graph.

I share equally the Passion and Talent value as they remain static, i can never change what already discover in my Passion, the list grow as i find another interesting stuff i love to doing for. However, i could turn off my Passion of something happen between it and i refuse to take any further action. For example when i was young, my mom told that i enthusiast to playing with dangerous stuff, electric cables is my friend and one day i got shocked from it and starting from that day i refuse to play with the stuff again but my curiosity has not changed. The factor underline to why i am not playing football and rather play with ridiculous stuff is because my curiosity.

One day, there is intelligent test in my primary school and the test result is good, my IQ consider as smart in average of 126 but this is contradictory with my study, most of my marks were under perform and consider myself as rebel, i hate following the lesson not because my capability does not enough so it bring me to frustration but because i am not interested with it. I hate to memorize lesson i consider useless but i attract with sport science and this lead me into the Kinestetics study type.

I seek personal escape through activity after class such as football or computer games, i can get easily addicted to the new games and since i was good at sport, i enjoy football. So if i could summed up what i love to do in my childhood, i am good at any activity that involve physically.

In my middle high to high school, my mark remain same, always under perform regardless how high my IQ is. Later i learn that even i could absorb the study material quickly, i easily given up if the subject does not excites me coupled with severe procrastination. I tend to finish stuff in short period of time (last minute study), which make my work mostly unprepared and unprofessional. My daily has not change since primary school since the time i enjoyed the most is after school period, by playing football and computer game.

I remembered in high school I ever join a church activities, which i voluntarily work as multi media operator, the entrance test was making one minute video using video editor software, and later on everyone got accepted since the position are hard to find the candidates. It was my first time working individually and the activity i most enjoyed is not about the result of my work, instead of how i plan of how my video supposed to be. If everyone were busy with the stuff i consider not interested, i plan it with every detail i could find, the selection and harmony of sound effects, the sequence transition, the element of lights in emotion, which excite my brain to the most but back to my weakness, i spend too much for planning and when it comes to execution, i got confused from where to start.

In this story, it shows that i love to plan but not to execute, i love to draw the chart and calculate the outcomes so i could say that i am a good planner and analyze but bad to follow up with my plan. Planning is not same with organize since plan only happen before the time frame while organizing is keep the plan works consistently from the beginning until the end.

This came up with my first major project in my life, that the senior member in multi media division trusted me to do the annual video promotion to attract teenager. The theme is about the time is short for our savior to come, so all sinner shall repent before He comes. I was busy with the planning, i don't want to disappoint my senior and it took all my time and energy, i also use the advance video editing software, after effects. I don't know the reason of why i am doing this but i love the process of learning the software even though is hard to understand in my level. Regardless i have minimum amount of time, i still insist to edit the video using after effects and the result is good, i feel satisfied and proud of myself, my personal mind keep telling i done the job perfectly and i was so happy.

Later i becoming more serious with media and art field, i start learning how to do photo editing tool and graphic creator. This point i felt somewhat stuck, i am good with imagination, my mind project a grandeur plan while my skill could not follow. I am poor at drawing and it leaves me to frustration since it took my time a lot and i still not satisfied enough with my drawing, which is totally different from what my mind think it should be.

This decision stopped my interest toward art, since i enjoy art but unable to creating a good piece of art and the foundation of every art need to be projected into drawing. It takes a lot time and effort to learn how to draw and in this time, my interest toward art is depleting because of my inability to draw. My drawing is getting nowhere to good, the more i put my time to draw i felt such a pressure and my personal logic told me to stop, it ain't worth it so i stopped to draw. I still enjoy any piece of art but i know my own capability that i lack of potential to put my mind picture into reality.

Finish with high school, i have some major in mind and during that time, i want to take animation or graphic designer as my first option. My dad told me to be realistic and think it carefully since only few whom perform exceptionally can be success in this field, the degree between the average and success is wide, it is like a death sentence in your career, the average will suffer to fulfill his life and spend rest of his life hard. Another point to mention is this major is popular for those who is average, doesn't have any chance to take challenge field as medicine or law since they need to be smart academically so the option left for them is Art. Some people take this major for fun or don't know where they are going so in the next period of year this job supply would be abundant, and they will suffer from the fierce competition among job seeker.

The other job that i mention is Information Technology, i don't know why this job seems interested for me, by given the difficulty and many person whom i know told me that the road of this path should be tough, you will lose your young time focusing on your study  and the development of the field is quick, which require you to be adaptable. My dad background was IT and he keep saying the same thing, i bet something horrible happen to him since right now he leaving his job and becoming an entrepreneur.

The only two options that left for me, i still don't know for other as i am not exploring the other deeply, leave me no option but following my dad opinion to study in Business major.
The experience was good in the beginning as i love the theory of economy and learn it fast, but when it comes to the practical stuff, i given up. It seems like i was lack of courage to start a business or start something, i need someone who opened a path for me to execute my planning process into reality.

In my first year, i joined a student community for my personal experience with organization since i never join any active organization which i can contribute to the school community. I was greeted by member of the organization and later i want to participating in making an event. My first event was a Christmas party, when it comes just one week after i got accepted in the union. My first job was to promote the event through the school and later i do the decoration since we lack of decoration team. The whole event was a big success and later we want to have another event, and the leader appoint some people to organize the event, and it was another success. Most of the coworker told that i have a good insight of planning every stuff in detail, and i was proud of myself to be able to contribute for their success.

If i could refer about my favorite subject in my major, it was Operation management. The reason behind it is simple, i like the way of teacher taught us with friendly approach and reasonable information. I felt that i am into this subject, regardless of executing is my worst type of job, the subject of operation management require lot of analysis on how product should be manufactured and delivered efficiently and quickly by reducing the process and waiting time, to analyze the cost of time and product in given statistical data and lots of chart. In this point, i suddenly realize that i love to analyze.

This take me to my first internship in trading company and i apply as the warehouse staff in the company but it turned bad. I learn nothing but repetitive process of data entry, what i supposed to learn for two months i completed it in three days, i only interested with how they create the warehouse system through excel and the method of payment. I expect more as i learn how to efficiently distribute the cargo in limited space of warehouse or the period of time on how the good entered to the warehouse until it arrived to destination. So i escape from the data entry stuff and i know they think i am a rebel, but i try to save my time there to do a productive stuff, i travel around the city to know the local wholesale and their price.

My second internship was better, even i work as a sales which gradually need to input the email contacts to their database, they also give me the chance work with their marketing team to do a research in prospective countries. I could perform better in this type of job but only one stuff which makes me want to leave the intern sooner is because i should finish my paperwork before May.

Currently i stuck in my job with no career prospect, while my mind completely matured in my mid-late change my view on how i see the world. I tried as much as i can, the stuff that i ever want to try and some of them work wonder. I realize i love to helping others, i feel such an accomplishment once i was able to help people. Before, i try to write the plan although i never done it, just the first part, takes me to the world of writing. I just got sudden realization that i am into writing and once i write, i will never stop writing. I should learn how to writing effectively since my writing sometimes out of topic and keeping tell the same stuff over and over again with difference emphasize.

In conclusion, my passion traits lies into this activity; Any activity that requires physical, planning something, analyze by given data and helping others. I may not discover other traits right now but eventually this will have a responsible part to be my career decision.

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