Been here, done that. Here is my current hit list at mid of June, currently I'm waiting for three companies for the last step before signing a contract. At this time, my life totally changed. From sleep at 3 am straight to 10 pm. I easily getting exhausted and sleep after been interviewed, and even forget my yoga classes. Every week I should attend a job fair, even I need to pay, and even it's located 40 km from my place. I don't care for everything except trying to be accepted in the best company even I need to do a small act of unethical one (I know this is not good but right now in this professional world, most of the people do that in order to get a job).

My target is MAP program, or it called as Management Associate Program, a quick program to learn about many division in the company to be prepared as a manager. There is a lot of things why I choose this which is:

1. Job exposure: By rotating every 3 to 6 months, you will learn various skill and experience
2. Mentorship: There is senior to track your progress, give you motivation, and most importantly, guide you to be on the right track
3. Challenge: Company made this program for only the talented one and if I could be one of them, it's a self-pride for me. The expectation of company also high so this will push me to work extra than others coworker
4. Acceleration: In career path, as you will be at least become an SPV after a certain period, and if you talented, you will become a manager in short time. While commonly in regular career path, a manager takes 3 to 5 year from the beginning. For the MAP, it usually takes 2 to 2.5 year
5. Flexibility: MAP can choose to rotate interdepartmental or interdivisional. From finance to operation, from key account to customer experience. One thing that regular job track could not have as they only can progress in one division.
6. Privilege: A company has its own program to keep their MAP happy and performing, and it comes from training to team outing.

With all these features, regardless of the difficulty to enter the barrier, I dare myself to be one of them.

(Updated: I finally choose the e-commerce industries in their management associate program)

April

Throw few applications through online job portal, has been to one job fair, though.

Company level: FMCG One of the best in the world
Process: Test- (failed)
Applied for: MAP
Lesson: Any question related to working, always answer ideally (choose the best even you are not, they test on the candidates' motivation to work there)

Company level: Multinational Cigarettes
Process: Test-presentation-FGD (failed)
Applied for: Marketing SPV
Lesson: How to prepare the meeting, to be a problem solver during meeting, to be prepared a question

Company level: Fashion industry, operates in three countries
Process: Test-HR interview-presentation (didn't come up)
Applied for: MAP 2.5 years contract
Lesson: Prepare job-related questions after interview

May

spend most of my time in job searching, has attended some, and some rejected by phone calls. At this position, I feel I am suitable to work in production related job

Company level: FMCG, national
Process: Test- HR- User (failed, no follow up)
Applied for: MAP
Lesson: Prepare specific question related to the job, no need to rush during explaining

Company level: Shoe manufacturing, national
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want to continue)
Applied for: Operation SPV
Lesson: just for experience, try not to be cocky

Company level: FMCG (mostly baby food)
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want)
Applied for: Production analyst
Lesson: learn technical skill related to the job since some HR are experienced on detecting real expertise

Company level: E-commerce, Top 2 in China
Process: Test- HR - HR (again) - User (using Chinese) - failed (supposed to be CEO)
Applied for: MAP 1 year
Lesson: never trust HR fully they say about chances, set your standard

Company level: Gaming
Process: Test- (already sign a contract in current company, since they follow up after 3 months)
Applied for: MAP
Lesson: nothing, only been called by their HR

Company level: Motors Multinational Company, No.1 in my country
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want)
Applied for: MAP
Lesson: just for experience

Company level: FMCG Group company, No.1 in my country
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want, didn't suit with contract terms)
Applied for: MAP
Lesson: just for experience

Company level: FMCG (mostly baby food)
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want)
Applied for: Operation
Lesson: just for experience

Company level: FMCG National level
Process: Test- HR- User - HR - (didn't want, the offering was too low)
Applied for: Warehouse SPV
Lesson: never trust job portal 100% of their salary review, most has been marked up

June

Karma does exist, learned the bitter experience dealing with HR. This time, I'm specified to apply just for MAP and in E-commerce industries

Company level: Multinational Beer Company
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want)
Applied for: Production Associate
Lesson: just for experience, be prepared for the shift type of work (strange working hour)

Company level: FMCG (mostly tire & adhesive tape) World's top brand
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want)
Applied for: Operations
Lesson: just for experience

Company level: Motors Multinational Company
Process: Test- HR- (didn't want)
Applied for: Salesman
Lesson: just for experience, never think that many people want to work in this field

Company level: E-commerce as one of the top company
Process: Test- HR- CEO - User - HR - accept the offer (finally)
Applied for: MAP
Lesson: Careful when doing tricks related to key person as this HR has a lot of connection.

Company level: Technology (smartphone) One of top brand in China
Process:  HR- User (in Chinese language) - HR (job offer) - Refuse
Applied for: MAP Sales
Lesson: having very bad experience with HR, as he uses tricks to get my interview intention. I believe the HR subjectively attracted with my qualification, and yet he wants to secure my position as I being contacted to sign up in two days. Later I refuse, He adds up my salary but I still refuse. I'm sure I got blacklisted from this company

Company level: E-commerce in logistic
Process: Test- (no follow up)
Applied for: Transportation consultant
Lesson: Make a specified qualification letter for this unique industries as they're too selective

Company level: FMCG (specialized in beverages, one of the famous brand in soft drink)
Process: Test- HR- User - Head - HR - refuse (as I currently on pending with 2 e-commerces)
Applied for: Supply chain Associate
Lesson: just for the experience, really feel bad with the HR since they are being too good, and also the head, that spends their precious time to this outcome. I honestly think that this is the option if I am not accepted in that e-commerce, even though this company has a low salary but their workplace and employee are happy and that really matters, though.

At the end, job seeking is a wonderful experience in my life. I have a little regret of not to have it on the first job. The competition in getting abroad with the great company is remarkable and this has changed my perspective a lot about facing a challenge. The next step is to compete in the workplace with the best talent gathered in the office.

Here is the flow chart for detail as I keep this as my memorable experience of finding a new job in these three months. Surely not easy but it really pays off. I only filter the company that I got called and at least on the HR interview, not the company that I applied for, which is more than hundred to be exact.Name of the company I applied is in initial because it's confidential.



Next post I will be posting on my first real job experience in this e-commerce company, which starts from next two week after I signed the contract or how did I do the whole process. See you.

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Yes, at the end of May, I still not getting any job, I have done several company to do interview and some of them has the positive outcome that is passed to the next stage and I didn't think that the job seeking is very fascinating, as before I feared this much, meeting with other candidates, talked to the interviewer, work with test and discussion. I even set the job seeking as the top priority, and my yoga classes to be second. Its weird right? suddenly I feel in love with the job seeking process and if there is an interview tomorrow, I could not wait to be there. I could say that beating the interviewer questions is such an accomplishment for me.

Back at my first job interview, the process was easy as the company is my dad's friend, so no challenge there, I just met my dad's friend and have a talk for an hour, later he put me to the finance division. It was no challenge at all since I know the end result, and I don't need to be prepared.

But this time, different. As I have a clear sight in my mindset, after getting knock by the top cigarettes company, I sworn I should work with them, and be one of them. Work in reputable company, as I will proudly introduced myself to my friends about my new company, is known as qualified for the best candidates. I want to know how far I could be.

My schedule compared to last month is same, polished my interview skills, and attending job fair. Day by day, my confidence boast up as I know how to appear professional during interview, the tricks, and the courtesy before and after doing an interview. There was a job fair in one good university, as they are looking for journalist and the selection process was creative, the candidates need to be in stage, pretending as they are reporting to the media. I am up to that challenge and present myself confidently, I never felt myself can be this confident.

Until this time, I have done more than 5 interviews and all of them I refuse to sign to the end process. First of all, if you are the interviewer/ human resource guy, please forgive me to taking your time. Now back to the answer, you know why ? Because I don't want to be employed with them. I set my standard high, but I also put my CV to the small and medium company, as an exercise. The more acceptance email/ letter, the more confidence I will get. I believe the real interview process has ten times value compared to the interview preparation.

Before I doing interview, I always come up with this mindset, you have nothing to lose, you failed, you will learn but if you passed, you can take this as accomplishment. The other mentality that keep myself confidence; you are getting called, there is no turn back, so it's time to give it all. Third, success is success, even you failed thousand times before. With this mentality, I can easily push myself to the limit, without having a hard feeling.

Next post would be the job searching tips with detailed information.

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I can't believe it, after two weeks with no job offering finally God has answered my pray. I get a chance to do a psycho test on Wednesday morning in one of the biggest tobacco players in my country. The test will begin at 8 am so I am preparing myself to be wake up at 5, then prepare everything and going there before six, just to make sure I will not be late.

I reached there at 7 and there is only one guy in a waiting room. Later we talked out and realized we are in the same purpose, to apply for a job. He looks polished, as an ex-banker with 3 years experience managing a small team try to seize this opportunity to be a field supervisor. He shares his experience when working in his previous company, and talked a lot about the current banking condition in my country.

People start gathering and in half hour, the room suddenly filled with many candidates, as I could count, is around 50 people there and finally, the company delegate shows up and tell us to move into a hall room. I sitting near windows and joining others table. There were 4 persons there including me, was introduced each other. One worked in the local bank, try to get opportunities here, same with a guy who works in stock exchange. The most surprising are one of us, I don't know if it's true, but he claims he is a manager in news station as a broadcaster. By talking with some of the people in this room, I understand the standard in this job is higher than other places.

Time has reached 8:30 and still, the interviewer did not show up, and the room is quite noisy as people just wait and has no other thing to do until 9, finally the examiner come up and said, today we will do a psycho test and will use rank system, for those who is falling behind, half of us must leave this place.

The first test is the combination of calculation and logic, which test your detail and creativity which is my strong point. I didn't see any problem since the exam just tests those two things. I passed on the first exam and the next step I need to bring a short presentation in next week, with three given topics: What is your best accomplishment? How you ever made a big mistake and how you fix it? When you have given the task to leading people and how you make them work for you?. I have lunch with those who passed at the burger joint and then bid farewell.

Well, this is my first time competing with many competitors, as 200 people were collected in that room and I passed even just in the first step is something I could be proud of.  I went back home cheerfully and then focused on my job seeking role. Since I didn't sleep last night, when I arrived home, I am overslept till night.

I use this whole week to study about FGD and panel interview, since I never done before, I opened youtube & search on google how to passed this test, I try to imagine myself be in the place. While it still in next week, I was busy job searching and prepare myself with interview question. Then, one week passed.

I was there one hour earlier, and many people were there, more than I expected since the first test has cut many candidates off. I talked with some candidates and what makes me surprise is they seems experienced and prepared with this kind of test, there is no fact about it because I know their body language shows confidence and most of the people has it.

Later we are grouped in one hall, there were around 100 persons in this room, and we get announcement from the interviewer to divide our group into 4 persons. My team was ex business consultant, one marketing agent and one fresh graduate. With this division, we are expected to be prepared to answer question in group. Everyone in this group seems has different way of thinking, as we are not talking much and more focused on what is ahead.

We moved to the meeting room, there was another team there that consist of 4 persons, one human resource, and 2 persons is the person who will be our investor in this game. This discussion is about business decision with two choices, to facing competitor directly or to hit the new market our competitor hasn't play. The company model we use is an FMCG industry, specialized in food and beverages. There was 3 questions in this game:
1. The strength of our company compared to competitor
2. The strategy to outperform competitor
3. How many we spend for this new product campaign?

We were given two sheets of data, filled with numbers and charts. Then one person initiatively want us to read about it for 5 minutes and discuss for 5 minutes, before discussing to other team and hand it to our investor.In 5 minutes I was focused more with the numbers and charts and make a conclusion related to it, other teammate seems following through. In the whole discussion, I remember the 3 moments when I gained the highest exposure in this discussiogn, there are;
1. Showing the key facts of competitor strength, and our position if we clash with that number
2. Giving suggestion that is not relevant to the investor question, which I regret it much. I was dead when the investor replying my suggestion and no one in my team, including me could answer it
3. Showing a forecast that empowering my teammate suggestion, however, I didn't consider this as good move since I am not the one who initiate the discussion

And this 15 minutes seems like forever, I never felt this tense during discussion, even the topic was not that serious, as most of us just giving the answer by their sense.

The interviewer then back to us, and told us congratulation for the name on this letter, and be prepared for the next round. It come first name, those who are very talkative in this room, then the second one, who also being talkative and the last one, surprisingly, the fresh graduates. I admit her as she comes up with two solutions, no one in this room ever think of and I believe she worth to be move to the next step. Only three was qualified and the rest, will have another chance next year.

I think this is the good experience for me even I failed, and I congratulates them then congratulating myself, as I went down this far by walking around the building. I feel extremely sad but one side, I want to be working with them, and be one of them.

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So be it. I only have less than a month left to work here, before I am going to be totally unemployed. With the list I've been writing so far, combined with the expected workplace I dreamed for, I am ready to move on.

Day I spent in the office has changed, no more watching Youtube channel or e-news update, playing games on the phone but focused on the job searching. This time, I know the specification company I will be looking for. It should be well known, or at least some people know the name publicly, the job offers rotation for certain time, and most importantly, lot of challenges.

At the first week, I began to throw my CV through online and read job interview tricks, since I should know the update in the job test. I could say everyday I threw 5 to 10 CV through online channel. I make it personalized since it automatically enhance my professional writing skills and I believe there is different appreciation from the company if the letter was made personalized, depending on the job I prefer.

In the job seeking, I use three different way to put my CV and I could say this is the most effective yet efficient way to do it: First, through online job portal, search the dedicated one, as you can see the company listing is well known, or infamous. Filter down to arrange your working experience and job you want. Second, top level companies never show up on the job portal since we are the one who need them. The best place to find them is through their web portal, to get information of their activity, what is the career fair they will be (university or convention center), and the intake schedule. Next step I will see the selection process and absorb the information so when the information is sufficient, I hunt them in job fair. Job fair is taking much time, and energy as well since you will spend time in transportation, and also many people there. The best thing in job fair is the company delegates sometimes show up and you could have a kick start interview with them. Fair enough right?

The last thing is to bombard them through company email, and this is the only method I use, if the company is big, but has little to none online presence in search of new worker. I have experienced some companies offering the job by fill in your application through their website. To save time, I put the questions of my application and put it into one template, so any question I just need to do copy and paste.

There is many method you can try, as pay a head hunter to search a job for you or by leaving your CV through university website, since it has a slight chance for a company to look into your CV. But for me, three strategies is enough as I received at least one follow up letter in a week. I put extra effort for preparation as I aimed for the good company, the application process is also different from the normal company, for example presentation using Chinese language or focus group discussion.

I think that's enough for today and in the next post, I will post my first time experience attending the job interview in the one of the best tobacco company in the world, which left many impressions for me and such an encouraging experience to work in top level. See you.

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I walked in to the front of my boss room, I knock the door and opened it. He was there, sitting while working with his computer. He asked, whats up dude? what can I help you in a very friendly voice. I knew it once I spit it out, his face would shocked.

(Last night, before that moment)

Finally, I decided to quit now. My current place has no career track and I think I still capable to find more challenging place, with a chance of making my life better. I have write everything in this resignation paper and prepare for the upcoming question, if he wants me to stay longer or question related to this decision. It's 4 am in the morning an I could not sleep comfortably, knowing that something is going to happen tomorrow.

So boss..

Yeah ?

Sorry if it's too sudden but I would like to say that I will quitting soon.

Are you sure? Why? 

I consider working in this company is such a worthy experience, that contributes to my skill and experience. However, I think now it's my time to go, I will consider to take a higher education or else which can support my career progression.

If that so then..

Then we were talking like a close friend for about 10 minutes, the job, the next thing I want to pursue, and his advice as he always say "don't keep it personally". So be it. I will stay in this company till the end of month, due to the company regulation. While at the moment I will be busy preparing for the job seeking.

If you guys were asking what am I doing in this place, well I could say that 90% administrative (controlling) and 10% auditing, which I love the most. The reason why first I came to this place is because I have nothing left after I graduate, no job, no income, the willingness to be independent from my parent is the main reason of why I apply anywhere and take any kind of job that is paying well. Later I found out that this job is a dead end since the company only hire those who can work in a certain position, so there is no career progression and once I learn about anything, I began to lose interest.

But over is over and no need to talk about it, time to prepare with my job seeking!

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It's been a long day I am not writing this blog anymore, since April last year if I could remember. The reason underlying of it might be obvious, I get the new job and I am quite enjoy it until today. Mid April last year would be my last turn point since I made a huge decision, by moving from the old company, which have been habitual since the workload and the responsibility was not as big as today, and I could spent most of my time staying at home, while currently I regret being like that since I didn't make the most of my life challenging.

During my leave, I have reached to the certain point when I hit the ground many times, and hoping to turn back my decision but deep inside my heart, I knew I am growing mentally in this tough situation. I am sorry if this story confusing from the beginning since I knew I had changed from last year, and many things happen that shaped me to what I have become right now.

I would like to start from the beginning, when I make a huge decision last year. I still remember at that moment, I stand in zero point, nothing good, nothing bad, but I realized one thing that I lose if I stay, which is time. There is a lot of plan in my head, but zero execution. Going for master degree? I still didn't know which/ the specific program I want to take, to enhance my further career or life. Becoming a yoga teacher? I have had teaching for donation and I felt this couldn't be monetize, as I keep my yoga practice as it is. Start a business? I just love to start, especially create a business plan but please never ask how it is going after a week since I easily get bored. My current job at that time has only take my time to be more productive and make my brain works.

Many of my friends, have their career progression. Some of them already promoted into supervisor, even my childhood friend, which I never met him personally, I had heard from my friend he already been a manager in a well known company. In my company, most of the worker has been married, so you can imagine they have their own life. They will work as long as it could make their little circle, or what people say a family, has fulfilled.

This situation indirectly lead me to an empty life. Some of them have been detached from our circle, since the job requires them to still busy until night in order to have it done. My circle is filled with self-entrepreneur or family business type of friend, while I didn't see any positive side from them during our gathering since they also felt bored with what they are doing. I knew it, the income is greater than working in corporate, since the business system already robust and just need an administrative task to keep everything under situation.

I even didn't know what makes me stay, to wake up in the morning, work, come back home during evening (before 5 pm) to avoid traffic, and yoga session. I only remember my short escape just doing what I love, which is yoga. My emotional life also getting worse since I could not find any girl to hang out, even just a conversation. There is two or three moment of went out with a girl but there is no second meeting. I knew, I speak too serious and poorly make a joke is the main turnoff for most of the women. Any topic always lead to my life and I know my life is such a boring.

I feel nothing with my life

I just want to die peacefully

This word is perfect to describe of how I am so depressed at that moment.

Until,

I realized one thing that I lack of, which is lead me to this life. That is "I am not getting challenged by anyone".

Which, I need a challenge right to getting me to the next step of my life? If that so, how do I create a challenge since no one asked me a challenge? Even my current job is not a challenge anymore. Well, how if I turn this down, get a new job that is full of challenge? and at that moment when I think of it, I felt such an energy, to start this now.

In the next post, I will write my experience of moving to the new job.

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Day passed by and it's already Thursday again. I spent my day on nothing and I don't know why I become self-absorbed right now, zero mood in creatively thinking about my plan or even make a short term goal, I just not in the mood. My further test will begin in 3 days more where I supposed to cover 45 minutes classes, with the same sequence like last week, just with an addition to inversion and back bending sequences.

I consider to have a group study with my friend, so I can practice my sequence and have a better preparation. Well, I am even not making any sequence right now and what is on my mind about the next test I should find the connection from arm balance to inversion pose. What is on my mind that have the best possibility to link the pose from crane pose is going to tripod headstand but its too advanced for the basic class.

So what we have for arm balance that we could connect to the inversion? As long as I remember because I am too lazy to read on my text book which is on my home, we have crane pose, side plank, and lateral plane (this pose looks like bridge pose just without bend to the knee). This inversion would be leg to the wall, or the real pose, shoulder stand, and headstand.

I would like to give shoulder stand or leg to the wall so the transition from arm balance would be lateral plane as this is the counter pose of that inversion. And the shoulder stand is an easy gateway to do most of back bending pose, wheel pose and so on. That is what I could think right now and the pose might change depending on my improvisation during the test later.

So this is what I will be giving in the next 45 minutes test, hope I could finish it all on time because last time I was 8 minutes late.

Opening > Pranayama > Sun breathing > Surya Namaskar Series > 5 Standing poses > 3 Standing balance poses > 1 Arm Balance poses > ? Inversion pose > ? Back bend pose.

In 5 Standing pose, the best possibility is start by chair pose/ Utkattasana since this is the easiest pose to execute and help to reserve my energy for the next challenging pose, then I begin with W1, W2, Trikonasana, and end it with Parsvakonasana, do the different side then move to standing balance, starting from Tadasana, Tree pose, Padangustasana A, and finish it with Natarajasana, do the relaxation to the feet and do the different leg. Just to be careful on the mirror teaching on what leg should be lifted up.

Now we are move to arm balance, make a sequence to downward facing dog, make it a side plank (because I find it hard making a smooth transition with front lateral to inversion) and after that back to down dog and do the different side, in the end, finish this pose with down dog. Well, after I browse around 1 hour my search was wander to some random stuff and here I declare temporarily, I could not find any suitable transition to inversion.

My next plan is to talk to my friend and lets see if I could find an inspiration. For me it is not possible from any arm balance position given except from crane to tripod headstand. However that pose is not going to appear in basic yoga and the possibility is just you start from down dog and get into child pose. Since child pose is the reset pose, you could start again with all body on the mat then you could play with shoulder stand.

I am going to make the list for the material that I ever collected in one of my game so I will continue to talk about my life later and I will be having a yoga class today on 6 pm, hope I also could talk with my yoga teacher about this.

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Before graduated from this yoga teacher training, I need to pass 5 different test of leading a simulation class which requires mirror teaching and Asana alignment and today is the third test of it. The test comes in five phases which I already finish two of five, starting from the presentation of Sun Salutation Classic with two types of instruction, by breathing execution and the name of the pose in English or preferably in Sanskrit. On the last week, I need to perform 15 minutes class of the sequence from the opening to the Sun Salutation B. For today, I need to do all those 15 minutes with 3 different types of poses; 5 from standing pose, 3 from standing balance pose, and 1 from arm balance pose.

I have no preparation on this week, and I only had one time to perform Sun Salutation with my friend, even that is not really fluent at all. In the last night, I really want to study but my procrastination power win above my necessity and I did not touch the book, which I supposed to study for the test today. What more, I could not sleep yesterday and I only get 4 hours sleep which is inadequate to study in an intense training program which last for 10 hours consecutively.

I feel less energy today as I wake up, but I made a promise with my gym mate to go to the place with her so I need to stay in the decided place to wait her pick me up. Later we arrived on 7:20 and the class are not really crowded, there was around 5 to 6 persons in it. Because my body is too tired as yesterday I went to a yoga festival and take one class with some challenging poses afterward, I take a short nap. It was a nice sleep as I can feel the energy level a bit rising and I realized that I had not taken much breakfast but I don't want to eat it because we are going to warming up at 8 am.

The owner of this yoga teacher training is not coming in the morning because he has to attend the yoga festival conference which I went there yesterday so the lesson will be lead by his alumni. The class started on 8:05 and there was 2 persons which are not showed up in the morning, one were one hour late and he got punished for performing Sun Salutation series in front of all student in our batch. It was a good lesson for him though to memorize the sequence before we going through the test which begins after the lunch break. Later, our instructor said that this type of punishment is just to make us keep it professional after we graduated, that the member and the studio owner has put their time and money on it.

Later the instructor picked randomly three persons to try their skill and readiness to perform Sun Salutation. After it, there were 5 persons who have not finished with their 15 minutes test last week in standing poses, so they need to perform it to the class. There is a good feedback from the instructor, said that we had a quick improvement to speak up clearly and lead the class. He said that the most important thing to start your teaching is to move your heart, which is still filled with some nervousness and anxiety that you can lead the class confidently. Some of us show great improvement, and one of the students perform a Sun Salutation with full English instruction.

After all the warming up which takes 2 hours more, we are introduced with balance pose, separated by standing and arm type. These two will be used in our next 30 minutes presentation so everyone need to learn fast and implement it to their sequencing. Some pose which is considered harder for us were just eliminated from the book. My head got dizzy since I did not take much food and I went to the bathroom three times, I know I am not ready to present the 30 minutes but I need to do it in the next 2 hours.

Done with the sequencing in standing and arm balance pose, we are allowed to take a lunch break for one hour and a half. I ate my lunch box which is full of bread (my mom made 6 sandwiches can you imagine) and left two pieces then I went back to the class. I am not in the mood of study, my body need to take a rest so all the remaining time, which most of the student spent for preparing their exam, I spent it on my nap.

It was a beautiful sleep I ever take as my body are fully recharged now. I looked out to the material which we just studied and absorb it all, with my imagination of how I will perform it on the test and then while I was studying, the teacher comes up and divide us into five groups. Three group will be on the different room and the remaining two group with the founder. Well, at this time my luck shines because the person who will examine my test is my instructor in my local gym and all the member of the group is from my local gym, could you believe that.

The first class was lead by my friend, and from what I saw in last week, she shows significant improvement from the last test, as her voice goes stronger and she is more confident. Her performance was great and it makes me more nervous because I had not prepared anything. The second time lead by another class friend whose her husband is my friend brother. She owns her gym and she is certified with Les Mills program, she even had a several year of experience in teaching in the studio so her performance was magnificent.

Then comes to my turn, I open the class with a broken joke and all of them just smiling, turn me more nervous. However, after my test the teacher said that only in my performance, there was an option for the first timer in yoga class. My Sun Salutation went well as far, and I only made two mistakes; In the transition of Sun Salutation B, which I don't need to go to Urdva Hastasana then Uttkatasana but I could go from Utthanasana to Uttkatasana. Another mistake is I did not use the Hatha yoga method of Sun Salutation transition, which I eliminate the part of Tadasana and Samashiti. The teacher told me to reduce the confusion and to prepare my mind with the upcoming sequences.

For the standing pose, I carefully execute what I remembered and it went smooth, yet the problem comes from the standing balance, it was a short break of me getting confused on which feet I need to be grounded while other need to be in the position. My standing balance pose was Warrior 3, Half moon, and finish it with Dancer pose. The teacher told me to smoothen the transition from Half moon by bent my knee from the leg in the air, and slowly give an instruction to shift the hand from my hip to the toe. For my arm balance, the suggestion is just for the real pose, by stacking the feet, not crossed it altogether.

My execution was overtime. The expected time to finish the test was 30 minutes but what I spent it already 36 minutes. Later the teacher gave us the scorecard and the comment, so I compare the time that I took from the class opening to sun breathing took too long, which takes 14 minutes while some just need 8-10 minutes to do it. I went it overly detail so I sacrificed 4 minutes that is useful to be more on time. It was a lesson for me to begin the class and give a brief instruction.

It was raining heavily outside just after we done with the test, so some of the students prefer to stay inside. Well, my body was tired and I am pretty sure that I will get another muscle sore tomorrow so I am not spending more time there, I could spend it next week then I headed home. By the time of walking to my house, I saw my parents car coming up and they noticed me, then they asked if I want to have a dinner with them and I went up with them. Today my experience was good, as I could perform good, just for the lesson on the next week that I need to motivate myself to work on my 45 minutes test which is going on the next week. So, have a nice Sunday guys.

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Hi there and welcome back to my blog. I just came back from local yoga festival in the afternoon and spent the time until the sun goes down. Basically, my main purpose of going there is just for having fun, meet with my friend and only want to take one yoga class but because the time I went there, the class had started and you can see the class from the outside, so I don't need to pay the entrance.

I came there with my dad, and he is not busy so he could bring me up to the place. Before getting there, I expect the event is going to be big, such as the past yoga event I ever attended. My dad a bit confused with the direction and since he trusted his phone application too much, we went to the wrong direction but it is Saturday by the way, so there is less traffic.

My first impression of the event is crowded and full of yogic booth but when I stepped in through the side gate, there are fewer people, the stadium only filled with 20 to 30 persons and it only has three stands, and in the center, there are around 15 booths that are selling yoga product and green food.

I look around and the park seems more interested than the event, but I came here to learn about sports massage so I look around for my class, and surprisingly, it already started. The good thing is I could watch the class from the outside and since the instructor were using a microphone, I could hear his voice. It was good until the third pose my dad want to grab some foods and considering that he need to leave at three, I decided to accompany him to find the food.

He was planning to bring me to the place he ever eats before in the past, we walk down the road around 10 minutes and found out that the place had closed already. Later we decide to take any kind of food and the decision fall into a Vietnamese restaurant, we ordered one Pho soup with steamed spring roll. After taking some lunch, He went to his friend event and I continue to the festival.

I saw my gym friend was there taking the class I planned to take it and he was too kind, he gave me one free pass to take the evening class, said that he has enough with the yoga and he want to turn around and have a talk with his friend. The evening class which I took is about Sports Yoga and today his focus is to make everyone execute Utthanasana (standing forward bend) pose correctly.

Before the class start, he asked if any of us has a problem with their bone structure such as Scoliosis or Kifosis, and some of us admit that they never kiss their knee with their head, in more serious cases, some also suffer in Osteoarthritis too. The class focused on the lower body muscle group, the ankle, the knee, and the hips. The teacher said that we could possibly reach the forward bend by lengthening our spine through the stretch of the lower body.

The first pose is same with Surya Namaskar, with a modification of wider hips. Later some of the poses come to the modification of the teacher, for example, the original pose is a chair pose/ Utkattasana, comes in two variations, in heels up with the hand and body alignment such as Ardha Utthanasana and both heel down with a ball of feet up.

Some of the pose I already know what it affect to the muscle group and in a lower body, I experienced some of the Triangle pose (with modification of a ball of feet), the Beam pose (with modification of Ardha), all the pose you can imagine to lengthening the lower body. There is one new stuff I found in the exercise that can help a polio type of legs, by opening their leg facing to opposite direction (instead of standing with both legs heading to the front, this standing pose require left leg heading to the left and same thing with right leg). It was okay for a class although I learn almost nothing, it just feel like an exercise.

In the festival, I meet my friend who taking the same training with me, and she pursues her study in Pre-Natal yoga. We talked with our class and later she went to try a different class. After finished with my class, I decide to get some picture of the park before I went back home with my friend. In his car, we are not talking about the class but many things about his experience of talking to a girl in one of the class. He is interested in learning how to control our life energy and fortunately, the girl whom he talked ever studied in that field.

She learned from her teacher about chakra and the function of it. He shares many thoughts but when I asked him about her contact, unfortunately, he did not ask for it. In his car, we share our experience about the energy flow by helping from our fingers pointed to the forehead and visualize that the flow of breath comes in and get out from our sixth chakra, Ajna.

Later he dropped me near my house and I come back, preparing for my test tomorrow, which I need to present 30 minutes yoga exercise starting from the opening of the class to standing balance pose. Wish me luck for tomorrow and have a nice weekend.

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Hello again,

Today my day spent, as usual, wake up in the late morning, you know the plan of building a morning habit for thirty days did not work, finishing some stuff and I got a call from the tax department that I need to activate my electronic tax ID and register my tax. Nothing much happen in the evening, I just checking on my phone and chat with some of my friends.

In the night, I took two yoga classes, a power and a gentle lead by the same teacher. The first class is about arms balance so there is a lot of wrist mobility and arms strengthening before we went to the peak pose, a funky crane. At least I learn to prepare the pose with some tiger crawl and a lot of Vinyasa flow so later if I want to make up the class I know what to prepare.

The second class has no straight point since we just do some stretching. What a good thing happen today is I talked my life view with my dad, about my current view of the life, the acceptance of reality, and the reason why I should feel grateful. You know my mood has been a roller coaster since around one year ago, started with my cancellation of my plan to pursue my master degree.

It happens a year ago when I decide to refuse my ex-GF plan to study abroad and have a life there. Before I agreed with her decision, since I had no better plan after I graduate from my bachelor and it is a good thing to pursue a graduate degree to have a better foundation and skill in work. At that time, I need to wait for the university offering which took one-year preparation with my English test and GMAT (Graduate Management Assessment Test), a special test for those who pursue MBA degree. My mistake is I did not take any job at this time and you know what happen to someone who just graduated from his school and he need to study again for one year? Yes, my spirit gradually depleting and I began to questioning is this degree is worth it or not.

I wish at that time I take any kind of job-related to my degree, so at least if I did not make it or change of plan, I still have a year of experience working incorporation. Well, continue to the story, many studies without motivation bring me to frustration and at one point, I give up with this plan, we broke up and I don't know what to do with my life. I began to question myself if my study during 4 years spent in the university is worthwhile because I do not have a feeling of working in a company.

I contacted to some of my friends and feel that the friendship has changed, everyone is busy with their life and because of this condition, I need to move on. This time, everything is harder because I don't have the momentum of getting a job as common people who just graduated, most of them are supporting each other to land a job, share their interview experiences and so on. I don't have that moment.

This kind of situation lead me to engage with one and two years younger friend who still sitting on the bench, they still need to finish with their final year paper and I hang out with them. At the first time, I feel like a loser since I lose one step in my life but that is okay, one year is worthy but finding the right job is the most important. I began to have the same mindset as senior year, that is a hunger for getting an interview, and this story leads me to the job of my current company.

During the interview process, they asked me about what am I doing in a gap year, do I really hard to find a job or what and I honestly answer about my plan to study abroad but somehow I could not get the scholarship so I needed an experience first before I pursue a better degree. They are nice and accept me to their group, and at first, I work at their management trainee before finally they placed me in the finance division since they need someone to fill the position.

So, after I land a job, I move on with my life and plan to my next step? exactly! It comes to my idealistic mind that I need to own my apartment by myself and so on but I missing the point of my career progression. At first, I feel something new happen with my life but it only last for a short time, I got bored with morning wake up, commotion which takes 2 hours and another 2 hours of return, monotonic job, and sometimes I had much free time. I slowly began to hate my job but what can I do? I asked some of my friends who already work and they said this is the common thing to do as a worker so even if I move to another job, the routine would be quite same with my current job, and leaving the company for a short time is not good to be put on my CV.

At this point, I began to search my life purpose which is late since I already 23 at that time but I need to solve this once for all or I will get another dissatisfaction for getting into wrong job or decision. I take any kind of career test on the internet, consult with a psychologist, and spend time for myself to listen what is my purpose of life. This kind of situation really drag me down because I feel like stay in a wrong box, and the bad part is I began to view life as unfair, some know what they are doing during their childhood, they were gifted with such talent and surrounded by successful circle, something that I don't experience in my life.

My parent notices the different in my attitude and I slowly began to be more pessimistic. The bad part is I seek another medication by finding a girlfriend because at that time I feel that she can lead my life but who want to date someone who doesn't have a future in it? Even my friend introduced me to their friend, the negativity and the skeptical thinking about myself makes the girl think that I am not welcoming. I perceive that I am not good enough or the girl just want to get the benefits from me even it is not like that. This condition is such a vicious cycle, if I am not realized it faster, it can possibly drain my confidence anytime I meet a girl. Fortunately, I know how to break them, by being myself and let it go.

I know my parent is caring and always, but they lack understanding. They don't see my difficulties and their kind of solution is lame, they keep saying to be closer to God and He will help me with my problem. Well, there is some problem that I need to solve by myself, and nothing worse as the solution is just to pray. I believe that this problem, I need to solve it by myself, by searching to my deepest core of my heart, the answer is within me.

Later I wrote down the possible career I ever wanted to do in my life and imagine the process and do I really have what it takes to be successful there. I plan to divide my life by 40:30:30 in a day, as I spent 10 hours in working and 7 hours in sleeping, then I leave 7 hours to do what I love. I will work on this until I really know what is my calling, then I could shift my working time to pursue my dream career.

Well you know in reality, that I spent almost half day searching for my calling, even in the office when I was free, and my life is getting better again, I found my new direction and open my mind to the prospective career path. Everything has its time and I got suddenly tired with my searching as I don't see any bright point, so I do as what article says that you need to work on it to see it with your eyes.

So my plan to it is by trying my best to study the field before I really decide to change the path. My first path is being a Geologist, as I prefer to work outside and independently, able to work in an unusual location, exploring new things about earth and nature and far from the crowd. Later I spend my weekend in the local university library and pretend that I am their student so they could grant me an access to the book (you know this type of book is not sold outside). I learn the mechanism of the mining industry, the process of getting a license and how to estimate the cost, yeah I learn a lot but once I stepped on the obstacle that there is much theory and I hate to memorize, by the time I am easily bored, finally I decline to learn more.

The second thing I learn about photography, since I start my art field during my high school time working voluntarily as a multimedia division so I give a chance to work on it. I finished the manual book and understand the function of the camera just in one day. Next, I learn a lot about the theory of photography and this hobby last for half year, you know when I really into it, anytime I going somewhere alone and try to snap some picture with the new skill I just learned on the internet. The reason I stopped this is because there was a time I am bored with photography and leave my camera for a week, then it become two weeks and until now I rarely bring my camera again.

I also start a reselling business in many industries, from snack to cosmetic and none of them generate money. It happens because I hate to market the product and update the information of the product daily, not to mention that I need to handle a conversation with a customer with the same topic again and again. The marketing stage is very crucial when starting a business before it can generate the money and I already gave up, I could make a grand business plan but in the execution, I give up.

The third thing is about making a jewelry in Beading. There was a time that I saw a beaded gemstone matched perfectly to Yogi look. After many defeat in my entrepreneurial experience, I would give another chance to myself, to learn how to sew a bead and make a bracelet. I learned it from my friend and some technique from the internet. Later I seek the supplier of the bead stone and the thread. I made around ten varieties and when I show to my friend, not many of them are interested, they even bargain lower than its capital! I stay cool and some of it I could successfully sell so it could cover the expenses, the problem at this time is I don't have a channel to market the product and this type of business has limited demand of customer so I still accepting the request but I am not actively market it on the internet.

The fourth thing which just happens a month ago, I want to learn about web design since I had a passion for making a piece of art and I was confident enough with my logical skill. At the first time, the beginning was smooth, I attended a free class in nearest programming courses around my office and I think the feeling of passion will be developed gradually. I learn the basic function of HTML and when it comes to complicated option in CSS, my spirit of learning just went down. Later I am not touching anything and this new activity just dies as the past one.

Well, there is one thing that I keep doing it until now and I was surprised, as a person whom easily get bored like me could maintain the activity, which is my yoga class. I am still as one year ago, attend the class every day and keep awake with the information related to yoga. That is why I took the teacher training and hope it could deepen my practice and when I am ready, I could begin to teach yoga.

You know, I was really grateful because at least I know what to do when I am feeling low, or nothing I could be better, by practicing my yoga. I really thankful to my God and also myself to know about yoga. After taking the personality test again and again, and doing a research about my type, I began to understand why I never hit my dream career, because it never exists. Though of it, I still keep on learning to any field that brings my interest, and when I hit the bottom, I feel less frustrated since I take it as a normal thing. I have my own way to live and until now what I want to be is same with our legendary musician, John Lennon, who is an INFP too, to be happy.

In order to reach the happiness, my own way is to let go, to appreciate myself better and to be grateful for everything happens in my life and the happiness will flow by itself. In the next five-year, I have not any plan of it but one thing that I am sure about is that I am still happy and I learn more things which make me a better person. So, to closing this topic, and the answer to the title, is to let everything flow, by listen to our heart and trust our feeling. The best thing comes naturally. When there is a chance, just take it without thinking the possible risk, because everything is beautiful, when our eyes and heart are in a positive state.

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Last night I was talking about my findings during my absence in two weeks. I talked much about personality and today I will discuss it deeper here so it could help me figure out the next step I will probably choose the path and hopefully it could resolve all the confusion from the beginning. I also read carefully the precaution of my personality through MBTI to take the result with open-minded because there is no guarantee the personality fit all to one person.

Some will ask why do I trust the test so much and this is just a test? Well, since my young age I always curious with myself and never felt satisfy to the result since it may appear different. However, the closest accuracy ever I took the test to understand my personality is MBTI so I have much confidence to trust the result and looking for the better outcome of what this personality may offer.

I could spend a day to discuss why I felt this and that but right now I am going to summarize the most important point that I found during my research, which helps me walk in my path. So here we go:

There is some career INFP might consider as it fits with their principles, yet there is no perfect career ever for INFP.

This is the answer whom I seek for my whole life and before I was come in denial, finding the perfect job I could be and excel in it but after time of realization which is totally different to my perception, as I tend to look at the job on the good part and when it comes to a bigger picture after my research, I got discouraged by it difficulties and challenges. This happens because of my idealistic mind thinking that everything is good but in reality is different right?. What I have been doing within the last month is taking all the possibilities of what my career choices fit my 4 points which are passion, talent, personality, and mission. The result is considerably same with MBTI as they also do a research from the people like me.

In the result, some of the career I might consider fall in the art, health, intrapersonal and writing category. For those three of them, I consider art as the best possibility among four disregards of the factor that I am not talented enough to make a sellable piece of art and this might lead me to the way of starving artist, whose living in their dream with an inability of artistic talent. I consult this to my good friend and her word has opened my mind toward art. She said that there is two kind of people in the art industry, those who able to create a great art indistinctively and those who enjoy the art and has the sense of artistic. Both fall into the category of artistic people and I am the second type of artistic people.

So, how the way I know if I fall into the second type? Well, I am attracted to art product and collect many of artistic pictures on the internet, I could easily distinguish the type of color and rich of knowledge about art. One thing that I don't have is I am not interested in a creation of art product and if I give it a try, the result always far from what I think it should be. I even don't have the artistic talent to make a good sketch. Same thing with a person who enjoy singing but has a limited vocal range. In the end, I would say goodbye to my art career but I still keep enjoying the art to make my life colorful and updated.

About health category, I ever consider walking in the path of naturopathy, a medication without surgery. This fall to my decision to study further in Holistic Nutrition which healing with sort of good food, positive thinking and a right type of exercise. Hopefully, I could take this course later once I was financially enough to life by myself. In health category, I felt personal fulfillment if I could help someone in need and what is more rewarding is to watch that person grow or get back to live. This underline the same reason of why I am study about yoga teacher training that I love to tell the right thing to do and watch my friend growing physically in yoga exercise. Still it comes to a consideration too, that I have a limited amount of social energy to spend within a larger group of people so I learn to spend it wisely.

I ever consider to taking the healthcare type of job but it comes with some restrictions, this INFP could not work overtime since they have limited energy to spend around people while working while they are best people to work in an intrapersonal type of job so my career place would be in a small clinic or working at home. The reason of it maybe we are not into working politic and want to be recognized too without getting too standout. It sounds strange but that's we are. About this type of job, I feel more confident for no reason and I felt that I have the power to make someone life better in my own way.

In writing, well I will be short in this category since it just newfound of my hobby and I am not surprised if sometimes I take a break from it because all depends on my mood. The good thing is writing help to release my stress and help me to keep on track with my life. I began to write after attending a preparation university seminary during my time accompany my sister. One of the spokespeople recommends a journaling method to help me discover the ideal career. Oh yeah, it also increases my vocabulary and writing skills too so I recommend writing is for everyone.

When it comes to my career, I never consider that writing can take me to the enough level of income so it is okay to write but I am not thinking to write as my main career right now, maybe in the future if someone interested to my write. My idea in writing mostly comes spontaneously, what is popped in my head is what I write here so forgive me if some of the writing are going zig-zag to my main discussion.

In the end, the personality itself takes me back to get a perfect career as the job I seek is not there. Everything looks perfect if I see it on an idealistic view and I know it is not always right. I try to be more realistic for the upcoming year and let's see what my life will take me. The good point right now is always keeping the positive mind, even the life plan is still unknown, but at least I know what is good for me.

Another point of view to help us picking the good choice of career is to think of the opposite, by making up a huge list of the job we will never do it so later it could leave some of the jobs which we can work on it. For example about myself, I hate repetitive job as there is no meaning in doing it, a job where we face competition, politic, title, all that temporary sense of gratitude, work as a big group, under a supervision and easy job which can be replaced by robots. So if I could list down my type of job, it will be going like this:

Healthcare specialist (personal health care, therapeutical, psychology)

Health (nutritionist, dietitian)

Creativity (writing, photographer)

Educational worker (teacher, motivator)

Entrepreneur in Health/ Spiritual/ Sport industries

Non-profit worker (any kind of member that relates to above)

The list will go further but I learn to decide and this is what I left and I have no guarantee that all of them lead to satisfaction due to my idealistic mind so my plan is to try it all as it could help me stabilize my work-life balance.

As there is no perfect job, it does not mean to stop an INFP to be accepted in society. We just have a different approach on how we could make this world be a better place and make people more humane. Every kind of job will do as long it has a purpose. Because what we seek in this world is not about the temporary state of belonging (title, possess, certification, recognition) but the personal happiness that comes from humanity improvement and personal development from our work.

For example, working in a corporate world will not suit us because we have no point in making much money if it just for ourselves. Same point to a clerical job we need to deal with routine. That is why the result of INFP type of career fall in the category of working on purpose. Sadly, most of this type of job generate small money so we need to take the job that we are not really like it in order to keep doing what we love.

I divide two life path for INFP, and those have its own reward and consequences. The first path is to work in a stable job while in the free time doing what we love. The second path is to work on what we love regardless how low we are getting paid or how scarce the opportunity is. I already in the position of the first path right now and I will stay there as we were warned to be a bit realistic. The first position also enables me to do what I love in my free time (yoga) and I think that I could take it.

Some of us also surprisingly well in the field of diplomatic and author, and in a niche field they could be a personal figure of human history. Being INFP does not mean that we will not become anything, we just have our own way to work. In the long run, I will plan nothing and embrace the life, I always believe that there is a place for someone who is kind, helpful and positive minded type of person.

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Hello again long time no see,

I suddenly felt lazy to write my journal and that's why there is no update if I remembered it's been almost two weeks (10 days) I am not making any writing in this blog. Need not worry then, my creativity has fueled again! I will share my experiences about what I find, especially in my personality, how to deal with it and if nothing work, how to embrace it so enjoy my blog!

So where do I start? I have no update since the day before my first yoga teacher training in Pearl Bay sport's club and I think I would write about my training in the different section since this just made for a journal purpose. In these 10 days, I dig deep about what is my true personality since what I felt a year ago, the day I retake the test, show a different result from the previous one.

As what I found, the first time I took the test in my high school period, I got ENFP result and the factor of it is because I am easy to blend with new people and getting a new friend is not hard, the social factor makes me need to be friend with someone. I think that is the nearest assumption to say of why I got that result and back to my nature, I was quiet, even I can initiate a conversation, I tend to be a listener and drawback to the bigger group.

Another factor that makes me to scored an extrovert is also my inability to understand the test and write down the answer as I assumed so the result might bias in that time. How do I confident to say that I am not extrovert? well, I have studied about myself and learn that even I have a decent social skill to getting along with people, I have a very limited energy to spend. Usually after two to three deep conversation with a person, my quiet side come and draw me back from social life.

Many describe me as friendly and can get along with everyone, I admit it. I have an inner side that is caring and empathy. I can easily heartfelt to poor people and sometimes my tear is falling to touching story or movie. Because of this wonderful traits, I could see the inner beauty of people and sometimes feel what they feel. This helps me to make a smooth transition from getting a conversation with a stranger.

Later in the university, I got a beautiful moment with my foreign friends in my dormitory and we manage the relationship well. I even travel with them and that was one of the best moment I ever had, even all of us were foreign, we just connected to each other. Well sadly, some of us completed the study here and we need to be separate. Here I felt extremely sad because we will not see each other anymore but later I understand that in life, people come people go.

During this period, I am curious about my future career as some of my countrymate has known their life goal and what to pursue, while I just enjoying my time so I retake the test and got INFP as a result. The more mature I am, the more I spend time myself to think what I am going to be. I felt this result resonance to my life as the description relates to me. It is like thinking about someone that is you. The way I help junior is totally same from what it described there, as the way I pick a friend is depend on my emotion then I build an intense relation that shares the same weight as an old friend.

It was beautiful trait until the time I had a very bad time that I secluded myself to society. This time, I learn the best experience I ever had from my kind behavior that not everyone has the willingness to sacrifice as much as you. One friend whom I consider as a close friend is too dependable and emotionally demanding. I need to be with him every single time and most of the time he calls. My bad part is I always feel bad to reject someone offers so I almost accept every offering comes to me so anytime he calls, even I was not in my mood, I just agree with it. (but now I grow stronger, I could say a disapproval at least).

The friendship began so good because we share same hobbies but by the time goes by, he seems disrespect toward my choice and way of thinking, some of the jokes hurt my soul but I cannot say anything because I never reject someone. This kind of situation went worse gradually until the time I could not stand anymore, I make an independent approach. I shut down all the communication and leaving myself by going somewhere alone. I feel so much freedom during that time and try to think about my next plan.

I cut all the social necessity at class, I remain silent and ignoring people. Some of my friends start to feel irritated and I do not really care, as what I need is my personal space. Later I understand that I could not do that as I lose half of my friend in the university. Now, everytime they had a meeting, they just pretend as I do not exist.

During that time, I felt on the lowest point of my life, I almost graduated but I have no future plan, I lose my close friend the one I could learn about business and bunch of his friend. Seems my life is failed because I put it all to my friend. Now I need to stand alone, make my own decision, and working on something is harder without an accomplice.

In this time rather than consult to my friend about my feeling, I seek another way by searching it on the internet. This comes to my independence point as I don't want to bother someone as myself. The bad thing about an internet is the solution is there but what I need is a personal touch and during that time I need it, a lot.

Later I took the test again and the result changed to INTP. The result changed twice as first I got ENFP, then INFP. I stick to it and some of the time I retake the answer is INTP but if I dig down my true personality, I am not really like that. It described INTP as someone who love to debate and found it fun, not really care about relationship and perfectionist.

The more I study about the test, the more I understand about why sometimes I score INTP and rarely score INFP. It happens because my feeling is important to determine the Feeling or Thinking result. Whether I felt sad and draw myself from society, I score INTP. Whether after yoga class, having a good time with people, I score INFP. Later I study about a person who scores 50:50 in his third element (feeling-thinking) and there is no closest answer to it as I need to answer it with my heart. Do the results really resemble with my true personality? You know, sometimes the difference in thinking-feeling just 1-3%, never more than that. However, some psychologist said that there is no INXP.

Later I collect the data of a person who gets INFP and INTP and relates my life and the characteristic. The result back to what resonance with my heart, an INFP. I set my heart to it and accept everything bad or good in my personality. I blindfolded my counterpart personality as this time I am pretty sure that this is the right one. I began to the journey of to discover myself and the answer revealed one by one of why I like to give up quickly, or too emotional toward a relationship, or why until now I never found any suitable careers, or else.

I hope I could answer it all one by one but right now I am a bit sleepy so I will continue it tomorrow, I promise. I need to keep on track with my life too as this is important to keep myself on track so see you tomorrow.

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My insomnia went worse, it's been two weeks I go to sleep at 3 am. Seems like my body clock has to get used to my sleep habit and even worse, my mind is in the peak performance during midnight. I start getting sleepy on 2 am and it takes around one hour to fall asleep. My parent is getting worried since some time they woke up around 2 and found me awake.


I know this is not good for my body since this is the time for restoration but sadly I could not help it, I know what makes me fall asleep faster however it is not possible right now. I share my room with my sister and I am sensitive to light, any source of light, even it just a small flickering light from phone notification may distract my process to fall asleep.


I remembered the time I could fall asleep fast during my time, study abroad, I have my own room and I could design it anything I want, so later once I had much money I would like to stay alone in my private room. Another stuff to mention about my kind of room is, I would like to have a huge glass window with curtain, so in the morning, I could get energized from the sunlight coming from the window.


Okay back to my daily, so yesterday I had finished with my HTML basic and I planned to start to learn CSS for today but it fail and I am not surprised, my mood of learning web design just got depleted today, but I am not sad and forcing myself, which may lead to uneffective time using and frustration so why I am not giving myself a day? My progress in web design is at the right pace, and I just wish to find a community of newbie web designer, so we can learn together and share the techniques or even a gathering, I wish that.


From this experience, I can learn how to develop my skill in my own way.  It seems that I have a similar interest in both yoga and web design, the time I devoted to working there is just much yet why my web design progress fail behind, just in one week? I am not joking here, you know how bad I am when learning some stuff, usually, I got instant motivation which only keeps me for a day. One week should be something different since I am very choosy on what subject I am going to learn.


My learning process come in this step, it should caught my interest to learn about it, and then I don't need to build my interest since it will attract naturally. Next, I will find any information relate and my day would be focused on the subject. In only one day, I already figured out the big picture and fantasize myself if I be expert on that field. This one should be important because from here I will decide if i want to proceed with the process of not. If yes, I make a plan to visit a library or google searching ton of article relate and then I build a plan (which 98% I never make it) and start passionately. Since I much focused on the first step, I could get burn out quickly.


If someone suggest me to break down the learning in small part, well I can't. Once my mind is heading in that direction, I will rush only to that direction, until the time of my energy empty. I am not surprised if I found myself work on half day to learn a thing. I have tried another learning style to break down your job but this one just went back fire since I have the very limited time of interest so before it expires, I should take as much as I can.


I study myself about my learning process and investigate the solution with different cases in the past since some subject I could learn continuously (yoga) and I figure out why. If I remember, not in one week I was passionate about yoga and there was a time I talked to a guy about some technique and he was so helpful to my pose progress. In about that week, later he introduced me to his community, which is filled with a person who was passionate about learning yoga. I felt such an acceptance in that group. All of them were friendly and do not hesitate to fix my posture problem. Acceptance is such a rare word in my dictionary and this experience makes my yoga journey beautiful.


In another month, I talk to the stranger beside my mat and our conversation went wonderful, later she introduces me to the best group I ever been, which I could devote myself to keep this group alive. Maybe I am a bit idealistic, nothing in this world will last forever but if I have the option to choose on which group I could stay for the rest of my life, then I would stick to this group.


This group consists around a dozen of an enthusiasticaly yogi, who have the heart to train and some are working on their teaching. One thing that makes me fit with this group is most of our conversation filled with such constructive and positive words. Any information shared freely and all of them, I know from their heart, would help if they are able to. I hope our togetherness could last long, I hope.


Back to the topic of my learning, this pleasant experience leads me to the secret of effective learning from a person who give up quickly. The keywords are; find a good community that can help you grow. Let others know your battle and always respect their opinion, they already spend their time and effort just to help you learn faster and avoiding mistake they ever made.


The rule has no exception, even you are independently strong, usually went single fighter in every problem, there is the time you need a helping hand to get you passing through. I could not imagine if I am not getting into the community, do I still actively learn yoga or not even I am passionate about it. The community keeps your knowledge deeper and opening your insight toward the related field, even when you are in the low season.


In the end of this post, I will write this for myself so once I forget the way to learn a thing, I could just read on this summary. You guys can implement it to your learning process too if you will. My learning process sounds differ since I am not gifted with persistence so I took a different approach to learning a thing.

1. Get you interested in. If not, just leave it. Don't waste time, time is precious.

2. Learn about it, find any information about it, get a big map about the process and imagine yourself doing and success in this field. Dream big!

3. Start as fast as you can, you don't know when your energy will last. Get stick to your first plan and if your body able, take two days plan in one day.

4. Your energy level should be diminished, don't let yourself fall because in about one or two days your study will be a history. Therefore, cut your study time because it not really works and you should be focusing on finding a good community.

5. Got your community and if you do not find the best one that is okay, at least, you have been in a place that has a people with the same interest. In this community, get in touch to other, I believe some of the member also have another group. Stay humble and always talk positive.

6. Once you get your community then somehow your learning journey would be less hard as you know where to find the answer and teaching other also good to retain your knowledge. Win-win solution!

7. I quite forget with this point and I am not talking about this. If you think you are enough with your work and it feels such a plateau, a state where you can't go further, find any event outside such as yoga festival and for web programming, hackathon. Go to any field-related convention, meet inspired people, find the different approach of learning from them, it just a same with your community, just a bit bigger.

8. Last, when you are in your low season, it is okay to stop for a while. Take a small look back on your progress and be proud of yourself. Acknowledge yourself, not every people can achieve this. Then it is better if you can promise yourself to help others. Remember, you were once are clueless in this field, make a good chain of assistance, make yourself memorable.

That is enough I think and I would like to thank myself because I just get the mood to write, although it was hard to start the first paragraph. Right now my yoga journey already on the eighth step and I feel this as the best method to learn in my pace, while my web design just stepped on the fourth step, hoping I could find a good community before it gone by the wind so
I hope my writing could be your inspiration and see you next time on my blog.

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It's been a long time no writing since I began to learn how to make a website. Around 5 days I guess this blog has no presence to my new post. I really sorry and this is my bad since I was much focused on learning HTML, my interest to blogging has reduced much. Well, it takes a time to drive my will to write in this blog again since I should switch some time so I did not get burn-out by learning HTML.

I taking my first website design class off-line, by sign up my name to a free class in nearest to my house. It begins on Sunday morning, around 9am and I could not get enough sleep since I just slept on 4am on that day but my willingness to learn is undoubtedly good so I pushed myself to attend the class, also given the fact that it only last three hours.

My personal experience touching HTML is like a 5-year-old kid trying his first bicycle, full of curiosity. I met others participant, he was self-working as freelancer manager, taking up many web designer and programmer to work under his table yet he still want to learn about coding, bravo to him by the way!.  We began to create a folder naming by our own name and in it first we create a folder for sample picture, and then another folder for .html and .css type file.

We went to the first lesson, introducing of website interface and .html structure. It starts with <html> and end with </html>, I learned that "</>" is called a tag and there were around 200 tags in HTML as a component of a website. For today class, 70% of the topic will be focused on the HTML and the rest is about CSS. That two programs serve the foundation to make a simple website. HTML works as the structure while CSS works as the design.

I learn quite a lot for one day, how to write a title in head tags, the differences of coding language between HTML and CSS, the list which is unordered list that we use the combination with CSS to make the list horizontally, to insert image and link, the differences between margin and padding as they were similar in function, and at last the footer.

All the experience is a kickstart for me to learning the web stuff and since last three days I was busy with learning HTML from this website, I recommend this website as the information there given for free and great explanation from the experts. If I could break down what I learned for the day since I missing writing here, in my first day of learning I try getting myself used writing codes in HTML, the way I did it same as common people learning, by doing a rework of example and try to modify the property and value, see if it could work and I believe the best way to learn a thing is by doing it.

More specifically, by given an order this is what I learned already:


The structure of .html, separated by two basic elements, heading and body.

Writing a paragraph and a heading. Linking them with .css to modify the style.

What can be put in heading besides <title>, such as meta tags and "style-type".

The differences in writing on .html and .css, there were slight differences in definition "="
with ":" and "<>" with "{}".

The Block line element and Inline element differences, the dependency between them and how they affect.

The type of Block line element such as paragraph, heading, blockquote (q) and lists; and the type of Inline element such as bold/strong, em/italic, superscript/subscript, strikethrough(s/del), underline(u/ins).

How the list works and their variation; unorder, order, and the definition list. Also to change the property of list: I/i/a/1.

The concept of Selector, Property, and Value in Tags

Link the text or image to the image folder or specific target by using anchor tags and the knowledge of hypertext references in linking Value. Also, link the page to another page by using "#"

Basic table making, table, table row, table data.

Making a form using .html, form type: name, password, radio (with checked), square and submit. Also, make a comment box and selector with given option box.

The definition of <div> and <span> and how they simplify and clarify the works by doing div "id" or span "class" to form an internal link between page.

The meta tags function and how to use it properly (meta name, charset, and http-equiv).

I think that is enough for three days effective learning and in my spare time, I manage to collect the information about being a graphic designer since my true calling project in design will start in May. I read this article and I think that is enough for three days effective learning and in my spare time, I manage to collect the information about being a graphic designer since my true calling project in design will start in May. I read this article and believe to myself that I could finish this for half year.

Tomorrow is my big day, my first yoga teacher training will start in tomorrow so I should go to bed earlier for today. I hope I grow every day, and see you on my next post.

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Every people have their own way to learn the subject and it was debatable of which method consider as the best way to learn something quickly as our human brain was unique, we have many different responses to the new stuff and what we memorized in our brain is depending on how we work on it.

It was wonderful to understand and know our way to learn because this can make our learning process quick and the memory is retainable in our brain for long. Many of us listen to the wrong opinion about learning though there is no perfect way that guaranteed the best result, for example, some can learn stuff with noises while other need a complete silent to learn.

There were many spectrums to see the dimension of learning. Some can feel personally challenged once given a limited time or deadline while other got stuck in no idea in that situation. Listening to the seminaries may work but some of us felt sleepy to listens to knowledgeable thought for an extensive period of time.

A scientist found one basic principle of human learning that still being used to exploring what consider the best way to learn for every individual and until today the method still effective used by researcher and practitioner. The way of human learning was separated into three different categories which are auditorial, visual, and kinesthetic.

I cite in this website since this explain better and have in-depth analysis.

Auditory

Auditory learners often talk to themselves. They also may move their lips and read out loud. They may have difficulty with reading and writing tasks. They often do better talking to a colleague or a tape recorder and hearing what was said. To integrate this style into the learning environment:

1. Begin new material with a brief explanation of what is coming. Conclude with a summary of what has been covered. This is the old adage of “tell them what they are going to learn, teach them, and tell them what they have learned.”
2. Use the Socratic method of lecturing by questioning learners to draw as much information from them as possible and then fill in the gaps with you own expertise.
3. Include auditory activities, such as brainstorming, buzz groups, or Jeopardy. Leave plenty of time to debrief activities. This allows them to make connections of what they learned and how it applies to their situation.
4. Have the learners verbalize the questions.
5. Develop an internal dialogue between yourself and the learners.

Visual

Visual learners have two sub-channels—linguistic and spatial. Learners who are visual-linguistic like to learn through written language, such as reading and writing tasks. They remember what has been written down, even if they do not read it more than once. They like to write down directions and pay better attention to lectures if they watch them. Learners who are visual-spatial usually have difficulty with the written language and do better with charts, demonstrations, videos, and other visual materials. They easily visualize faces and places by using their imagination and seldom get lost in new surroundings. To integrate this style into the learning environment:

1. Use graphs, charts, illustrations, or other visual aids.
2. Include outlines, concept maps, agendas, handouts, etc. for reading and taking notes.
3. Include plenty of content in handouts to reread after the learning session.
4. Leave white space in handouts for note-taking.
5. Invite questions to help them stay alert in auditory environments.
6. Post flip charts to show what will come and what has been presented.
7. Emphasize key points to cue when to takes notes.
8. Eliminate potential distractions.
9. Supplement textual information with illustrations whenever possible.
10. Have them draw pictures in the margins.
11. Have the learners envision the topic or have them act out the subject matter.

Kinesthetic

Kinesthetic learners do best while touching and moving. It also has two sub-channels: kinesthetic (movement) and tactile (touch). They tend to lose concentration if there is little or no external stimulation or movement. When listening to lectures they may want to take notes for the sake of moving their hands. When reading, they like to scan the material first and then focus in on the details (get the big picture first). They typically use color highlighters and take notes by drawing pictures, diagrams, or doodling. To integrate this style into the learning environment:

1. Use activities that get the learners up and moving.
2. Play music, when appropriate, during activities. (I like to listening while writing)
3. Use colored markers to emphasize key points on flip charts or whiteboards.
4. Give frequent stretch breaks (brain breaks).
5. Provide toys such as Koosh balls and Play-Dough to give them something to do with their hands.
6. To highlight a point, provide gum, candy, scents, etc. which provides a cross-link of scent (aroma) to the topic at hand (scent can be a powerful cue).
7. Provide highlighters, colored pens and/or pencils.
8. Guide learners through a visualization of complex tasks.
9. Have them transfer information from the text to another medium such as a keyboard or a tablet.

You can take the test here to know your own learning style. I had taken the test in my high school and the result is remain, only a slight change. Before I got the highest mark in my Kinesthetic and Visual, as both share the highest result and iI admit myself that Auditorial is not my best part while right now once again I securely mark Kinesthetics as my learning style. Every time I learn something I need to write it on the note, just for the sake to keep myself working while listening and watching the lecturer giving the information though after I do a heavy amount of writing I just totally ignore to re-watched it.

I can say that the best to learn a thing is by doing it, and no wonder of why I am taking many failures in my life as I tend to try it first, not read it or think about it as I thought there was less use than doing it practically. If I could summed up what is my next plan to find my "true calling", I would simply say to try it all, all the stuff i ever think to learn but it is not possible in the past, while i should work with my time management and use it more wisely. I would rather spend time of trials and even I know that is not working, at least I try.

So, in order to searching my true potential which lead to my "true calling", as I highlighted above, I would imply all these strategies while learning this:

Physical Therapies in Yoga
Website Design
Basic Method in Design, I love art yet I have not found which type of Design works for me
Holistic Nutrition
Content Writing

Among listed above, I will track the progress by time so I could see which qualifies to my calling. I will spend time equally learning all starting from the website design this month, starting from April and I heard from other sites that learn how to make a website starts in HTML. I will do my best and later on I will write the progress here.

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One hour left in this Cafe to write since I will have a yoga class at 6. I forget to cover what do I do in the Tuesday yet yesterday as what I promised in the previous post so to make it simple, I will describe it in one word, I am busy searching the article about writing career. Since three days ago, I enjoyed my time writing articles either in this blog or leaving a comment on social media. It seems that writing has taken my life and if this what my heart decide me to move, then I will go through it.

It comes in two reasons of why I decide this as one of the strong candidates to my further career. First, I recap what am I enjoy doing the specific activity for a long time, especially if I ignoring others plan just because I am in doing that activity and it comes to writing or any physical activities such as football. The second reason is I feel no pressure of doing it, whether I got paid or not does not matter much since this makes me feel better. I feel myself in content after I could put my effort in this activity as this activity stimulates my thinking and creativity.

I decide to spend a little time to do a research of what it takes to be a good writer, and do this career can be lucrative to pay my bill in the future?. The research shows that people take this job as a freelance, or a second job to increase their gain from the first job. Some who are dedicated make this as their main job fall into two different category. A starving artist whom later become a well-known author by given a slight chance of probability or those who follow the direction of job market demand to be a copywriter or content writer.

Those who work in the first category are true writer by heart, whose able to stand alone whether the public does not look upon them and keep writing since writing is their true calling, most people who dedicate themselves to write work on self-publication and able to withstand full day of writing, a typical fiction/ non-fiction writer.

Second category offer job progression faster since company website needs a professional writer to publish an informative yet attractive article to attract the viewer. In the world of digital technology, a conventional newspaper has almost been abandoned by people and what I heard from one article state that the people access news from their smartphone, and the number of declining demand of newspaper may possibly eliminate it from the existence of public.

In the last three days, I do a deeper comparison between creative writing, content writing and copywriting. All of them has their own unique characteristics and it own difficulties, different career paths and progression, the university program for the major. I like to start with the university programs, since this major fall in two category, literature, and media and communication.

Creative writing

Don't be fooled by its name. It does not relate to what you thinking of creative and I also got fooled too for the first time I hear that this major related with media, design, creativity based since it is not. This major focused greatly on how you articulate your ideas to writing, planning for a book-scale of a story, how to play with the emotions and psychological trick to amaze the reader. In a nutshell, this major is for those who dedicated their life to write.

Content writing

Content writing gained their popularity since the age of technology comes, by producing a good quality of information in a short article. There are infinite possibilities of topics depending on writer strength and preferences. Currently, food, travel, and specific product ranked highest on the job demand. The name of major just corrects with the field of study, to teach us how to write effectively in limited space (500 words) with informative quality that pamper the reader. Their main objection is to draw the attention of viewer into the reader, keeping them in the website by providing an informative article, and turning them from visitor into daily reader.

Copywriter

In a business perspective, if content writing is the quality of a product, then copywriter is the marketing of a product. Copywriter has a strategy using the selection of titles, bring the curiosity, and hide the true intention of marketized article. For those who unexperienced will see the article as normal however it full of marketing promotion, and an experienced copywriter can make it smooth. The purpose of a copywriter is to increase the traffic of a blog or website, by using word strategy or SEO techniques.

The combination of content writing and copywriting is the perfect synergy to attract the viewer and turning them to their subscriber.

There is one last category that I had not mentioned below since this require specific background of skill, which is a technical writer. Every major field who enjoy writing can be a technical writer, it just require less effort of how to simplify the specific verb used in scientific information to make the reader easy to understand. However, by given the total effort, technical writer require most effort among other since the writer need to exactly understand the field he wants to write on.

In career, most of the writer work as freelance but not all. Some of them consider writing as their side job especially for the content writer works to satisfy their crave to put their art into writing. The good point about this path is less pressure in life responsibility since you still have another source of income. The writing level for a content writer is moderately easy, since most of the writer whom took this path has has the knowledge to create a decent writing for example, a programmer mostly write about computer related article however the level may differ if the writer should write the article which considerably uncommon.

The job prospective is good but in career path, somehow the position can be replaceable since what writers need to have is the skill to articulate his thought into writing and his strength in specific field so often a company just picking one of their coworker to write article although the content may be not as good as a professional content writer.

Copywriter gain its fame and the demand of qualified copywriter is big, at least in one company should have one guy who is able to operate company website, company social media and company marketing content. As what i say, copywriter is the frontdesk fighter in getting new visitor in the internet. The optimization of search engine may rise the company website to first page, make it visible and easily discovered by searcher. The skill required to be a copywriter is not just the ability to write, but also how to create interesting title and content, having a good sense of keyword, fair enough to understand how website and search engine works. I consider my further career to be a copywriter though i am not really into marketing.

At last, creative writing has the highest difficulty in my respect. The margin of successful creative writer is big, the process of enduring many rejection from the publisher, the pressure in your head keep thinking can you make a living, and many sacrifice i could mention as time for family and friend. For those who walk on this road, i salute you and keep your passion up.

So here i am, in the edge of nowhere again with different intersection. I feel lost again, but i know by heart that i am going in the right way, i can feel that my first destination will appear. I know i wander much in this life and i have been through the tough times. I made a mistake in the past and i am fully awake right now, to discover what is be my "true calling".

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