I felt guilt to not writing for three days. I felt that because in the last three days i am not much busy or overwhelmed with my work, yet i don't have any inspiration to write in this blog. For me who love to procrastinate, it is really hard to start something although if i already start writing, my hands just can't be stopped so that would be a paradox for me. Hard to start but also hard to stop. 

What happen in the last three day is as following, i will start writing my daily journal on Monday then Tuesday, i will not discuss about Sunday since i already write it in the evening so i consider it as one day. One of the strong reason why i am not writing is because my personal opinion about spending time in Cafe. I dislike doing stuff in a short time so if i really want to go outside, i should plan precisely what i should do there and it should be full of purpose, if my friend ask me to hang out without having a quality discussion, i got bored and regretful.

What underlines my cancellation of whole day plan is the schedule, since i be responsible to take and pick my sister from her course, which just last two hours, i feel it is worthless to spend time on Cafe, inside my mind i have been thinking that the time spent on commuting and preparing the laptop and book already consume half hour, and also another commuting to pick my sister to return and putting back my stuff taking another half hour. Not to forget i need to boost my mood before turn my creativity engine up by reading light article or small chat with friends, take another half hour. In total, if i only had two hours to spend time, i can be productive for only half hour so i would rather to stay somewhere else and wait until the time i pick my sister again.

So why i don't write at home or office? You know my brain only can be functionized properly in suitable conditions. It doesn't mean that i can not utilize my brain in the office, it still possible but it will not producing maximum results especially for the job which require creativity and endless possibility, the environment is crucial and vital to my imagination.

Write at home has tremendous amount of distraction, my mom call for help or lunch, my sister watching Youtube from her phone, the sounds from the outside, there was bed behind my table and in my table there is much toy can divert your concentration to surrounding. My room was designed with my sister and there is not much ventilation, surrounded by wall and the color was sky blue so you can imagine my room offer a perfect scene to relax. Anytime i got tired from working or writing i can easily get laid and sleep.

So how about writing in the office and have i consider it as a good idea? Well i have tried that before, i thought that office environment designed for productivity, full of lights and ventilation which boost your creativity and there was less distraction than my home but it all not exactly right. I have a strange fear of someone were watching my writing, i hate someone patronize and monitor my job, my stress could be raise and suddenly my imagination disappear. Sometimes i really don't understand people, the more i hide what i am doing, the more they are getting more curious to know what i am doing. I know it not wise to use your time by doing something not related with your job but this is my personal method which i know best to relieve my stress, rather that gossiping people or went outside smoking.

By given all that experience, i stopped writing in the office. Also, if not necessary i also avoid writing at home. I found Cafe has the best quality to offer, they have great stuff to keep you concentrate while writing, the smell of roasted coffee beans that keep knocking your brain to stay awake, the mellow jazzy lounge music to stay active, the atmosphere of cafe designed with art make my time meaningful there. Of course there is certain type of cafe which i avoid mostly and i will not hesitate to block their Cafe in my Zomato blog. 

For a writer like me, environment is a key point to make you want to stay longer in Cafe. I tend to avoid popular Cafe, which have a lot of customer and i don't mind with bad drink or food presentation, i all will go straight to my belly, i am not cool kids that like to taking picture of food and put them in social media. So here is the classification of Cafe that are suitable for myself:

1. Quiet. Writer Cafe consider best in this classification. I will not disturbed with the sound of typewriter knocking, but extremely distracted with the voices. People voices especially those who loud and high pitched consider as the worst distraction.
2. Adequate space. A Cafe that care with their customer notice that space is essential to keep customer distant to other customer, respecting their customer to be private and they can enjoy the true value of their Cafe.
3. Light. Natural light that are passing through window take my mind to explore the ideas broadly, which take my writing to different perspective. I feel somewhat positive and cheerful once i get enough sunlight, even i am not a plant.
4. Variety of Coffee. Okay, in the previous paragraph i wrote i can take the bad drinks and yeah it is but i would be more grateful if the Cafe has many variety of Coffee, in Cafe i rarely drink others, except the Coffee was made from instant sachet (the worst). My coffee intake are depends on my time spend in the place for example: i regularly take blue mountain beans or espresso whom famed for their strong body and acidity if i have important stuff to do and i need natural supplement to keep my head awake, and if i want to have a simple writing, i take latte.
5. Reliable Wifi connection. I rarely tether from my phone and it can consume my monthly plans if i browse much articles to bounce my writing desire.

So that is my type of Cafe and all not ranked under priority, both shares same value among others. If some of you ask my Cafe that i usually avoid, there it is:

1. Noisy. From group of workers from nowhere doing a marketing presentation, loud unemployed mid-wife talking about their life, business startup teams that are use Cafe as their headquarter to kids running around, screaming, and it would be the worst if all those types show up altogether in one place. My largest mistake so far choosing place to writing is in a fast food chain, McD. I end up thinking about my whole life for three hours, ignoring the fact i should be doing something productive there.
2. Over enthusiasm waiter. I know their job is to make people enjoy with the service so they can expect some generosity from the guest by the tips. But it can be extremely annoying if they ask what they should help every one hour. Mostly for this type of service i will not leave any tips, and sometimes i am a bit cruel, i also keep the change too.
3. Sachet coffee taste in regular Cafe price. This will goes straight to my banned list of Cafe. How you feel if you expect a coffee in such a premium price and when you sipped it, the taste similarly same with the sachet coffee you usually make in the office?. I really know the cost of running a business is not small but this is not the right way to treat your customer.

So yeah that's all the bad Cafe that i could think of. Maybe there is some to add but it doesn't bother much and i could take it in acceptable amount. I don't know why i am talking about Cafe and it comes to one article about my personal opinion. Well, my Monday story has not finish yet and i might continue it later in the next post so thanks for watching.

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Good night and i have skipped my writing habit yesterday, i think its normal since i lack of idea to write and yesterday i had a meeting starting in the morning till the evening and when i came back, i went outside with my friend and we are supposed to leave at 11 but the rain hold us to wait, until 1 am so i had no choice to return early but wait. We waited around 2 hours and the time was spent in some useless conversation.

Yesterday i spent half of my day with meeting. I met up with colleagues and boss at 9 am, discussing about the upcoming project in the business, that we operate a new branch located in the south of Kaba Island. We adopted different system than the previous project. In the past, we take all control with the expenses and worker, which are time consuming and require more effort to check the performance of the business. Later this model works perfect to investigate the abnormal expenses in the business performance, which my partner and me dismantle a corruption in the company. The result of our finding makes the corrupted group got fired out all and since the business startup cost was pretty high, our boss later use subcontractor to operate the business and disband our group, then me and my partner are placed in another division that are responsible for only finance stuff.

The upcoming game will be start on next month, all contracts are ready and what my company need to prepare is to gather the fund by collective investor. So it depends on the investor, if they really want to proceed with the next project or keeping the current business. The business model for this time will use other contractor while we are become the collector since it safer and cost effective in term of wages. Later my partner asked about my plan of Canada and i told him i open all opportunity and let it be. 

My meeting will be focused on the game plan and our objective in the first three month of business start, this mean my job is getting more serious, since i will manage more than one business. Later we have a lunch break in the best barbecue chicken restaurant, with signature peanut sauce (i wonder how they made up because the sauce is so dense), and other salad. Later i need to pick up my mom from her brother place, she went there to see her mom and i should take her back in the evening. It was raining a little and the time we arrived at home, everybody went sleeping.

Today is a Sunday and my schedule is to pick my sister up from the church, then take my mom to see her mom again. I met with mom youngest brother, he is intelligent and rational but a bit pompous so no wonder he hard to get a girlfriend but i love get a conversation with him since we like to discuss and sometimes debate intelligent stuff. The advice from him is to just act first, everything you will learn in the process. I remembered yesterday my good friend ask me again about my business in gemstone bracelet, he seems interested to sell the product and i am being honest to him, i have not start to promote in online media yet, and i will prepare everything for the start, with given deadline in the Monday. For the start up, i will put 10 products variety in the social media and other independent online store and see what happens.

After family gathering, i drive back home and buy a pork take away, and before i write the blog, i have a promise with my friend yesterday to help him with his CV. So right now i was free, and for tomorrow i will do a yoga class on 8 am and start to fill my business Instagram with my product. Wish the best luck for my new business, thanks.

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Last night was a big rain in my city, falling from the evening till morning. Some district in my city positioned lower than other resulting in the flood for specific area. It is already common thing, by given the position and the minimum absorption areas in my city, some expatriates even called our city as concrete jungle, since the development of the city more focused on building in reason of workplace opportunities, rather than a green space.

Today i wake up at 6, i don't know why i am awake in this time since last night i remembered to sleep around 2 pm, which i get less sleep. I look at my morning yoga class schedule and decided not to take the 10 am class, since the instructor do basic stuff and i want my practice to be more challenging so for today i will take night yoga class, since i need to talk with my yoga teacher who learn therapeutics massage. I think i have an interest with therapy, specifically involving in physic, i love to heal people and my relative know my deep interest with yoga lifestyle suggested me to try a healing practice.

If i not forget, last two months i already registered a pranic healing class, a healing method from universe energy, casting the stored energy through several steps to the person who needed. It is wonderful to learn how to heal people without body contact, since the transferred energy can be projected from the palm of your hand, radiates to the particular area. I had registered and paid for 10 CAD, which is very cheap admission cost to learn this beautiful skill but in their training camp that are being held for a week, i didn't attend any single time. I know this is wrong and waste of money but the place of our training located far from my location, it took two hours by bus to be at the place and another two hours in return.

Another productive stuff that i keep working on is my IELTS, during these month i already spare my free time to learn it for at least two hours, i was fortunate to get free study books whose owned by my sister friend's so i don't need to search on the internet, while i can get easily distracted every time i was looking for study material, my focus were on somewhere else and end up with reading articles i don't need to. Today i planned to finish chapter 3 and half of chapter 4, since the date of my IELTS test would be on next month.

Not just that, since i apply the 90/10 principles my life getting better. It helps me to ignore or escape the problem that stay in my way but i has not enough power to deal with, to reply with positive attitude, to understand from other perspective and to help those really in needed. With given good mental state, i found it easier to deal with cruel joke and revealing the true intention of a person, i have better experience in dealing with that time, i still sympathies as i am but i don't need to feel like what he is feeling and for the bad thing happen i do a long inhalation five times before react, because nothing right when your heart is sad.

Combining with the book of Keith Ferrazzi, i rise again the hobbies that i think it is useless and waste time. I learn myself better, that i am a fast learner and great adaptability in nature. Artistic and sensitive dominates my character, so what i going to do is to maximize this potential by learning what i love with given trait. I no longer see writing as waste of time, i feel one of the best medicine for me is to put my problem through pen and perhaps someday i could get paid for this, at least my writing skill will take me somewhere latter. I have a good sense of art, easily understand the value of it and the effort of making it, even i don't know the procedure. This come up to my photography skill, as my hobby in spare time but right now got abandoned during these days. I still remember some friend said that i was talented to capture the right moment in the right time, and once i am done with IELTS, i will sharpen my photography skill for my yoga collaboration.

Talking about hobbies always fun since that is where your passion lie. Some i had discovered for long time but i consider to not continue the path since my personality doesn't fit with it, it is good to keep my life more colorful and balanced. What important for me is find an active community with the same hobby listed above and this might be challenging since i live in the city and the community has changed much, people has less time than before and becoming more individualistic, something that happen in high technology period so i need to review my approach to be modernize, through social media or community website to find the right community. If someone ask what do i want to learn for the next skill, which can bring impact to my skill and hobbies, i would love to try to create a website, to share my knowledge and experience.

I can summarize that this week is the most productive week ever in this year and hopefully i could be becoming more than today, i hope. I listen to some of closest friend to stop comparing myself with other, since born we share different talent and traits, everybody is unique to each other and nothing understand me than myself makes me stable with what i have right now, i am so grateful and happy.

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I have free time in this night, nothing important to do so i want to make one hour of this free time a bit productive so i try to find an free e-book about yoga, since i had a conversation between my yoga teachers that before he teach yoga, he learn some skill that is not covered up in his teacher training nor his teacher taught in the internet so i browse the google and what i found about yoga, comes in different branch, starting from the challenging one; Ashtanga Yoga to the yoga for relaxation, Yoga Nidra. Today my search about yoga will be focusing more on the Sivananda Yoga, founded by Sivananda obviously. This branch of yoga comes from Hatha Yoga so expecting the exercise will be similar from Hatha.

In Sivananda Yoga, the level of difficulty consider as beginner though it can be increased through variation. The exercise is focused on the constant breathing in Asana and relaxation. The philosophies of Sivananda Yoga are summarized into five principles, starting from the Asana (exercise), Pranayama (breathing), Savasana (relaxation), Vegetarian (yogic diet) and Dhyana (positive thinking and meditation). With given principles, my subjective opinion this yoga type suitable for those who want to try the basic of yoga with given limited requirement and easy to follow for the pose.

The beginning of the exercise start from meditation phase, either from Savasana pose or seating position, Sukhasana. The preparation is essential to shift your mind from current routine, makes it focused to only what happened in your body, listening to your own heartbeat and focusing on breathing which can clarify your mind. After we done with preparation, the next step is about Pranayama which comes into Kapalbathi or Skull Brightener breath, starting from Oojayi inhale, then we contract our low belly, forcing out the breath in a short burst.  the benefit of this technique to cleanse the respiratory system, lungs and sinuses and also help to prevent illness and allergies.

Right after pranayama exercise from Kapalbathi or alternate nostril breathing (which i will write about this later), our mind are ready and the body already got heathen up, so we will begin to start the Asana. In Sivananda Yoga, the beginning of the Asana were just same as Hatha yoga, starts with Surya Namaskara or Sun Salutation. Starting from the Sun Salutation A for two or more times depending on the instructor then continued to Sun Salutation B. 

After Sun Salutation, here come the 12 Asanas, which makes the exercise differ with other yoga branch. The series below illustrate the twelve basic postures.

                                         
    Sirsasana/Headstand       Sarvangasana/Shoulderstand       Halasana/Plough

                                            
     Matsyasana/Fish                    Paschimotonasana                Bhujangasana/Cobra
                                                    Sitting Forward Bend

                                               
      Salabasana/Locust                Dhanurasana/Bow              Ardha Matsyendrasana

                                                                                                        Half Spinal Twist

                                              
         Kakasana/Crow                    Pada Hastasana                 Trikonasana/Triangle
                                                 Standing Forward Bend            

Image courtesy by: Sivanandayogavietnam (Link here)

One full class of Sivananda Yoga usually takes 90 minutes so before the class, 

the practitioner need to prepare their body, not taking much food before two/ three hour of class and drink enough water during the practice considering the duration taken quite long for one class. If you want to try the class then my personal advice is find a qualified Sivananda Yoga class near your place so you can get the insight of the exercise from the experience and ask the question related to the teacher. Have a safe practice!

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My morning routine become worse than ever. I slept at 4:30 am last night, i feel not sleepy yet hard to fall asleep so in the time before bed i just play with my phone. I try to limit my usage of phone after 10 pm no electronic devices anymore to cope me with sleep schedule and reduce the distraction causing from the other message or unnecessary checking.

I know it is something wrong with my sleep schedule since i feel so sleepy in the period of 7 to 9 pm yet totally energized after it, which my prime condition ranged from 9 to midnight. I read an article write some men active at night which is nocturnal and their productivity depleted greatly during the day. I have a specific question with that statement since my productivity during the day is depend on my mood, whether i feel good i can make a good outcome nevertheless during the day or night. I just feel myself more grounded and emotionally stable which generate positive mood resulting in more productive time.

So the time i wake up today is at 11 am, which is not good at all and i will find any article related to biological clock and how to reset it as normal person. So today my schedule not so much, i just need to take my sister to her English course and in the meantime i have 3 hours free to doing anything, since the office work not so much that i could finish it later on. I finished to book from Keith Ferrazzi, one man with many job and this book relates me much, some people in this world have more than one job, some even manage their job variously. The good point from this book is teach me about to keep your permanent job as your advantage since your first job can be your foundation, a first place to learn in real work situation, learn about friends and colleagues, free training in specific skills, and a sense of safety while also growing your side job, that can be your entrepreneurial experience, giving you autonomy and freedom to do it seasonally.

I learn from the model of this book that many successful people has more then one side job, not because they are not overly active or hard working, but the reason is very contradict with that, just because to keep their life balanced by doing what they love in their routine. They know how to optimize time by doing what they love in a positive way. They may have 9 to 5 career job but in their spare time, they also working on something they love. Doing this is useful because once you got troubled with your routine, for example: lay off due to company shut down or getting fired off, you are not lost everything and start from the beginning, since you already set some job in your spare time. If you dare enough, your side job can be your opportunity to be successful in this field and this is not require you to abandon your main job.

Later he taught there is 4 side jobs you can do anytime, not limited by experience and it always be there. There are: Learning, as a human being we encompass our self to continuously study and seeking personal grow. Teaching, passing skill and experience to people just as preparing the younger generation for the preparation to the real life and the benefits from you also memorized better of what you have learn and apply it to your teaching. Writing, keep your brain active and creative and leaving a beautiful path for the reader to experience about what you think. And lastly this sounds only be done by experienced person but in reality you can do it, just if you want to, Mentoring, everyone has their own expertise in one thing that they are really serious working on and this relate with teaching people specifically by monitoring their work and watching them grow.

In other of his article he wrote the quick tips how to win people, and i will discuss the article later on. My last night searching was all about holistic nutrition, the university credibility which recognized by Canadian education board, the curriculum which i got a sneak peek on their introduction 101, the cost that is not appear on the website so i should contact one of the address, and most importantly the career prospective about this job since most people take this as their side job. I searched on Canadian web based job searching and appear that obviously this profession will work in health industries, from small clinic, organic food groceries, green product start ups, to the major corporation which produce various daily product such as Kellogs or Nestle.

Later i got from local site the difference between Holistic Nutrition and Natural Nutrition is the curriculum, that Holistic Nutritionist as the name is the combination of emotional, spiritual and physical health so the study will be focused more on the wellness and lifestyle with nutritious food plan and the Natural Nutrition will be more focused on nutrition component, food preparation and nutrition and food knowledge which is only focused on food and have a deeper theory of food than other. Most of the Natural Nutritionist will have a main career as nutritionist or dietitian, or any career related to health industry since this program mostly need a basic health science education for at least diploma or bachelor while to strengthen their credibility, they need another certificate to define their recognition. In the counter part, the Holistic Nutritionist mostly taken as a side job of any health field practician. Massage therapist, elder care, special need kids or person therapy, took this job as their secondary, to compliment their job or to increase their knowledge of health science.

My three hours time almost done and i will prepare myself to pick up my sister and later on if i have free time i will continue writing about my finding in holistic nutrition. See you later.

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Today i woke up late again, since i had just slept at 3 am yesterday. If two days ago the reason of why i stay late is because of the limited time of game dungeon, then today excuse is because i had slept two times before. I felt so energized that i don't want to sleep, even it is the time for sleep. I messed up with my body clock and today i planned to sleep early, i manage not to sleep in a day and try to make myself busy as possible, in the next one hour i will have two yoga classes which will make me tired and can go to bed quickly, i aimed for 11 am sleep today so wish me luck.

The day i started without my morning routine and i already skipped that ritual for two weeks if i remembered since, the reason if this is because my life lacks of drive, that can direct me to go where and following that route from the start of the day. I found myself to be not productive again in the last three day therefore, i managed to find an useful activities that i can do, i keep on track with my progression, doing my socialization by talking to my friends in yoga class. Not just that, i also find another useful article for my later studies in Canada, which i still not decided what i want to do because every path seems wonderful and has its own challenge, my body compass resonance greatly about health science related studies and i feel that everyday i getting better to understand myself.

I found the most positive experience that i could get is by talking to a friends, not just my ordinary friend but the one who has the same interest with me, and the best of it i had found in yoga class, where i known some of them has a strong interest in health and physical activity. Other than that, any social experience result in frustration since i have limited energy to deal with shallow conversation or just a chit-chat. I am okay to take my presence apart from my current friend, if we do not produce any constructive and positive conversation.

Meeting new friend is a must, therefore there is a precaution for me to filter of whom i could get along with. I don't want to start and maintaining relationship since quality is essential for my social. I have planned to try church local communities and try to relate myself and if i am lucky enough i could find a good friend which has similarities or differences that could be filled each other weakness from its strength.

In the past two days my interest about finding a better job has depleted greatly, i have less to none willingness to throw my application and the reason i give up so quickly is because all career means pointless toward my personal happiness. I consider myself as different in way of pursuing the happiness to other people. Most person i relate think about building a nice career and have a nice hobbies they can pursuit on with their own career. I am not interested with that way of thinking, i want to be an impact to the society, even i have not get paid or sacrificing much of my times well i don't care. I listen to my heart, which guide me the way of life.

So that sum of my social life currently, and i still have a contact with my friend. Even i don't meet them personally, at least i could message or join their conversation. There is one reason why i hard to gain a new friend beside my individual personality, because i work at home regularly makes me remote from society. I am not blaming with this condition, while i be responsible to what happen in my life, so i found that the way to get a new circle for me is by myself, find any meetup or positive group talk, topic that interest such as health science or yoga, especially we live in high technology world when organizing an event would be easier than before.

Today while i searching the information about Health Science program in Canada University, i found a good way to learn new skill, free of cost and you can learn it everywhere, just need an internet connection and a device. Alison.com, enable me to learn various topic of knowledge i want to learn, health science, nutrition, e-commerce even a language can be learn in that website, the only negative point is the information is general and only provide a limited amount of knowledge but at least i can learn the basic information about nutrition in the course. I will keep with that and write what i learn today since i had to go for now.

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Today I had not enough sleep and resulting of two times taking a long nap. I know this is not good for the body and the purpose is quite silly, there is limited time dungeon in my game that only appear once six weeks. The limitation of duration, last for two days make me consume all the weekend time I have to grind on the game well, at least, I could manage to wake up at 7 and ate half portion of steamed chicken rice before yoga class.

Today I took two yoga class with almost empty stomach and got tired during second class, which is power yoga. The reason that keeps me for yoga is to make my body active and socialize with teacher and friends, two of the reasons are enough to lift my morning mood high. I done talking about my plan to volunteer teaching yoga in Sunday morning, the teacher agreed that in the next month I could be helping him to teach there, so I can apply my yoga theory into practical and real teach situation with his member. I met one lady in my class that also planned to take teacher training in the same batch with me, so it is a bit surprising to know that I am not so alone during the learning later.

I slept only 5 hours today so after yoga class, I went straight to home and get some sleep. After I woke up, I am checking my email and do my work until the evening I am free, there is nothing to do then I took my sister to her English course and also I want to go outside, staying in the room produce less idea compared to coffee shop so I tried one place where is near with my home and a bit disappointed with the internet connection, which cut every five minutes, fortunately, I bring an IELTS handbook and study there for two hours, the time I went back home it was raining, not too much and considering myself a bit tired of staying in a crowded place with two hours totally focused on study, before dinner I take a short nap.

Right now I know I made a mistake by sleep at night, even a nap can prevent myself to fall asleep but what can I do, I could not help it but listen to my body so I will use the remaining time to check something useful on the internet, either is about Canada or yoga, or you know i consider to take a blogging class in local community but the price, of course, break my pocket so much which is 300 CAD. I hope I could find the best price for blogging class, maybe from the local community website or another blogger teacher who voluntarily share his blogging skill. So I think today is enough and see you on my next post.

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